Pure Bliss

Bethenny explains why RaRa means so much to her and how she deals with Jason and her arguments.

Many people have asked me about why I chose RaRa as opposed to someone else like Julie. Julie is wonderful with Bryn and when she gets to New York she always visits. But RaRa is really like a second mother to Bryn and there is a difference. Of all of our friends, it is RaRa who goes out of her way to take Bryn to the park or the museum. She is the one who can't go two weeks without seeing Bryn. It is a parents' instinct and we made the right choice.

Regarding my arguing with Jason in Mexico: it has been a stressful year in many ways. My fans are so protective and so worried, and for that I'm so lucky. It is so difficult to go there and show it all but it is so worth it. This is my life. It ain't always pretty.

RaRa is with me probably more than anyone in the world. I feel like she's always at my house. She has been there for me when I've really needed her. She is a great person and she always says the spot-on thing. We love her with all of my heart. As I write this, she is playing makeup with my little bumble bee before she does mommy's makeup.

Hermano was so much fun. If I tell you that I bought a sarong every single day and haven't worn one since, I am not exaggerating. It isn't about the money. If I had ten billion dollars, I still wouldn't just throw money away. Fair is fair and you give people who need it more than fair. Beach side robbery isn't fair.

The paddle boarding was absurd. It was practically a monsoon, and we decided to participate in a group sport. Don't be intimidated by that scene. It can be the easiest sport in the world in calm waters. That was a "blank" show.

The couple's massage was typical us: morons. We find humor in the simplest things. That's who we are very often when we're together and not bickering with each other.

My birthday dinner was perfection: the place, the people, the intimacy. That was my idea of pure bliss.

I need to end on one final note. I am so thankful to you my loyal and devoted fans. The show is true and real, and it is difficult for you (and I) to watch. I read all of your emails and Tweets and Facebook posts and I really appreciate your advice. I know many of you relate and understand -- and some of you don't. Sometimes I get in my own way. I definitely beat myself up. I constantly try to evolve, but this is who I am.

I value you all so much. Thanks for watching. It makes it all worth it.

Follow Your Heart

Julie reflects on her journey with Bethenny and where it will lead her next.

Everyone -- this was a pretty intense episode. I wanted to thank all of you for the positive thoughts and support throughout this whole journey. Working for Bethenny and creating an unbreakable bond with her family truly changed and molded me as a person, and has allowed me to take the next step of my life with confidence. You have all helped build Bethenny's empire and your constant support has allowed her to take the next step -- her talk show. Although I am not directly working for Bethenny anymore, I am supporting from a distance and keep very close to her and her family.

For those of you who have asked, I am extremely happy and living in my hometown of Pittsburgh since January. I recently got a job in PR and marketing and am looking forward to the next steps of my life. This experience has taught me many things, but the most important thing is to follow your heart and be thankful for everything that you have in life.