Let it be clear: I have no social life whatsoever, but I love every minute of it. My life consists of Bryn, Jason, Cookie and work and my greatest challenge is the equal distribution of love and attention for all. I think this will be a struggle for balance that will last the rest of my life. I truly am happier than I have ever been and I have become the woman that I never thought I even could be. I have the life I thought was impossible to even dream about. Thank God, thank you guys, thank Jason and thank Bryn.
I'm used to sleep deprivation and I'm not really one to complain. I can get grouchy and irritated and frustrated, but I could never say a negative thing about motherhood or any of its by products. It is a miracle and I love every single solitary thing about it. I will be beyond exhausted and I could pass her to Jason. But I don't. I want every moment that I can get because I can never get it back. Time is already moving so quickly. She grew out of an outfit and I wanted to bawl.
My mother and I have no relationship and haven't reconnected. I don't see that happening anytime soon. I need to focus on the future and the positives. It's the only way to continue with positive things going forward.
Jason's parents see Bryn every few weeks. They adore her and would crawl into her crib every day if they could. She is a lucky little girl to be loved by so many.
I was healthy before, during and after pregnancy. I really did live my "naturally thin" lifestyle that I speak of in my book and I made recipes from my second book. As far as exercise, I try to do my "Body by Bethenny" DVD twice a week. I'm lucky if I get 15 minutes of it done. I'm quite overloaded. Always do what you can when you can, don't obsess, don't be extreme and it will all fall back into place. Bingeing and starving are the problems.
I wrote Place of Yes when I hadn't yet completed the most major milestones of my life. The point is that by coming from a place of yes, I got to where I needed and wanted to be. It would be inauthentic to not write from that perspective and after those experiences. Now I am back in the thick of it and it is going very well.