May 1, 2007
I don't even know where to start. I will forever miss Doug! He was everything that everyone should want to be in life! I just don't know what to say here people it is just too hard!
It is very hard for me to watch this episode because I hate re-living the death of my best friend. It is far too hard on me. I just can’t handle it. Watching it sometimes make me think he is still with us. I watch the first part and see all the great things that are going on.
Jackie bonding with her mother is so touching. I too know what it feels like when your parents say they are proud of you. It is also very hard for my father to say it to me. I cried because I know what it feels like. Jackie and I are different but yet we are the same in many regards. I love the fact that she trusted me with her baby "Sky Sport Spa." Finally Jackie said she was proud of me. I feel like we are making ground here. I hope we continue to make headway together.
Comments
Amy wrote:
I am so sorry about Doug--my heart goes out to you guys. I could tell he was a wonderful person just by watching him on the show!
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:08 PM
brian wrote:
i am in shock i think i had no idea doug died
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:08 PM
Robert Grosharev wrote:
This was a very emotional show Peeler, I am very sorry that you had t o go through this in life, I am sorry that anyone has t ogo through what Doug has gone through. My deepest sympathy is with you all....
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:10 PM
tyler wrote:
Just wanted to say how incredibly touching that was. I just started watching the show religiously this season and wow.. as for doug ive always had wayward opinions of gay men that i have encountered mostly because i didnt agree with thier life style but i can honestly say that seeing doug on tv and seeing what a great guy he was really made me think about my views and opinions on people and sexual orientation. He seemed to be a really great guy with a great spirit and passion for life. My condolences.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:12 PM
Heather wrote:
Brian,
I am so sorry for your loss. I am impressed, as always, by your inner strength. You are truly an amazing person. I wish you all the best in your marriage and in your career. Again, I am so sorry!
Heather
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:12 PM
sandy brooks wrote:
dear doug,
I am so sorry for your loss. I don't know what it feels like to lose your closest friend but my heart hurts for you. I think you are extraordinary and I bet Doug did too. I wish you were my brother, best friend, neighbor, confidant. You are a rare and truly lovely man.
with love,
sandy
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:14 PM
lisakaz wrote:
I just commented similarly elsewhere, but I just wanted to make sure I said how incredibly moving your words were on the show in regard to Doug. Thanks for that. I think you showed men how to feel and express grief and in not making one a sissy to be "real." Thank you and again so sorry for your loss.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:14 PM
Paula wrote:
Hi My Friends, I am so very sorry for your loss of Doug, death of a loved one is so hard. I know that from my own loss. He will always be with you in your hearts. Remember his smile , the good times and how blessed you were to have known him. Every time you mention him from this day forward is Doug saying Hi and know he is with you always. Your in my prayers. Paula
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:14 PM
Denise wrote:
I just watched this episode and I'm in shock. Doug seemed to be the picture of health and this illness was so sudden. Also, wasn't Doug's ex-partner also stricken with kidney disease? This is just so horrible and shocking. My thoughts go out to all of Doug's friends and family. Hang in there!
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:15 PM
Stephanie Schmidt wrote:
OMG I sat in front of my TV and cried like a baby! Doug was a guy that everyone can relate to!! At first I didnt even think he was gay! Gay or not I think Doug was that type of person who cared about everybody. Its sad to see a nice person go but then again you may seem them again one day! Lets just hope thats true! Thanks Brian for such an inspiring message!! I know we ALL will miss Doug!! Take care and God Bless!!
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:15 PM
Donna C wrote:
It's always hard losing someone you love. You will have great days and others you will want to stay in bed, pull the sheets over your head. In time all things will get better. I lost my mother 6 months ago, she was my biggest cheerleader and best friend. In time it will hurt less. I was sadden to see Doug had pass and hearing the pain in your voice broght back memories. Life is good and remembering the good times are even better.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:16 PM
greenayed wrote:
It is always the special, kind, endearing people in our lives who leave too suddenly. Peeler, millions of us are also mourning for Doug. Hang in there- we're pulling for you all!
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:16 PM
Gene wrote:
I don't know what to say other than I am sorry for your loss.
Obviously we as viewers don't know the real you as you knew Doug but if the show showed even a small part of who he was I really liked him. I lost my brother when I was 18 and he was only 17 and I am now 37 and not a day goes by that I don't think of him.
Stories like these really hit home and words on a Blog will never measure up to what we really feel.
Thanks for sharing what he meant to you.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:16 PM
Sue wrote:
Brian, I too lost an amazing person in my life 3 years ago this week. Just wanted you to know there are so many people who know what its like, and I also wanted to send much love and peace to you.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:17 PM
Karin wrote:
I just turned off my tv sobbing and thinking about you and all of the gang at Sky. I have religiously watched the show forgetting that we are talking about real people, lives,and feelings. I never though Doug would pass away. Every Tuesday, I turn on my tv and bond with all of you. I really thought that it would end like any other movie: Doug would heal and come back to us. I am deeply saddened and wanted to extend my simpathy to all of you. It has been three months but for us viewers, Doug passed away a few minutes ago. Let us be strong, this is what he would want.
Karin
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:18 PM
Crystal wrote:
I watched the show tonight. I cried when I saw it. it just broke my heart. Doug was so cute and all. I just hate to see grown men cry and it hurt me to see you cry over his death. I'm an emotional person anyhow and that just did it for me. I am sure Doug knew just how much everyone there loved and cared about him. He will be greatly missed.
Crystal T aylor
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:18 PM
John Enlow wrote:
Brian and Crew:
I am so sorry for your loss in Doug. The man had a really big heart and a heart of gold. I am so sorry. This is hard for me to say I am drawn to your show for the human compasion that you guys have with each other. And all I can say is that you guys drive me to get into shape and turn my life around. And let Doug's spirit live on in all of you and much continued success..... Hugs to all John M. Enlow
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:19 PM
leslie malone walker wrote:
i really enjoyed reading your blog about doug, yes he was very special to those whose lives he touched, i just wished that one show could of been dedicated to him, and who he was and what he meant to those @ work out . it was nice to see jackie's relationship with her mother grow, but since doug passed and if you didn't go on the web site you would have known more about the situation, i just wish more was said. good luck with the show and maybe on new workout sessions the doug blasdell foundation can be mentioned for the folks out there who may want to get involved, best wishes on your wedding, and much success to everyone else @ work out
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:19 PM
april d wrote:
Brian, my heart goes out to you, I too recently lost my best friend so when I watched the show tonight I cried with you as i did when I lost him. Doug may not be here physically but the love and enjoyment for life he he showed everybody can not go away when the body does. Remember him and he will live forever.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:20 PM
Jody wrote:
Peeler,
I bawled so hard when I watched this episode. My parents NEVER once told me they were proud of me ( although I know they love me ), it's very hard to never hear those words. I am 37, and deal with this in some strange way every day of my life. I am on an emotional roller-coaster as I write this.
Watching you go through that was also very hard. none of us know you personally, but through the show we all watch, learn, and grow to care for you people so very much.
Doug was a very, very lucky man to have a friend like you. Some people live to be 100, and never have that kind of a bond. You are an incredible person, and I don't even know you, and I find myself very proud of you.
take care,
Jody
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:21 PM
Lori wrote:
I am truely sorry for the loss of doug. He was such a delite to watch on the show. By watching the show he felt like he had such a big heart and you can see he loved you so much. I am truely sorry for his passing and I know he will be sadly missed. I cried when I saw the preview for the show but my heart really broke when I saw the show. I am sure he will be watching over all of you. I will pray for all of you that you get through this hard time even though it was aired at a later date.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:22 PM
James Brookhart wrote:
Like you I don't know where to start.....I am a gay man who has watched your show and have been touched forever at the love you have for Doug. I want you to know that as a gay man it is a blessing to see an extremly straight man love a gay man so un-conditionally.....it gives me so much joy and respect for you and I wanted you to know that Doug is probably looking after you cause he too thought the world of you for you are very special....keep your spirit up.....You have moved me to cherish my life and the people in it....JamesBrookhart@gmail.com
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:22 PM
Jerry wrote:
Brian,
I also don't know what to say after watching tonight. I just feel awful - especially for you. Doug's warmth and his ability to treat everyone with a high level of respect was just such a positive thing to watch. I agree that when watching the earlier episodes it really brings home the point of how much you guys (and all of us viewers) miss him. Today I contributed to the foundation in his name which is on the Bravo website. I highly encourage other people to contribute to this fund in Doug's memory. It is an honorable thing to do for a very honorable man. Finally how is Cheo doing? I cannot imagine how upset he must be between losing Doug and his own health issues with his kidneys. I only wish good things for him and also for you Brian in the future. You displayed the true definition of friendship in your relationship with Doug and it is very admirable. Best wishes to you on your wedding.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:23 PM
April St.Amant wrote:
First off, I am not pretending to be anyone that I am not. I know that I am not a friend of you or of Dougs. However, for some reason which I cant explain Doug's life and death touched me, so much so that it took me by complete surprise. I am finding myself mourning him as if he were a friend of mine(maybe I watch too much television:) ) I merely wanted to send my condolences(sp?) to you, Doug's family and friends, and to the rest of your coworkers. Doug seemed like an incredible man and your friendship with him was precious. Thank you for sharing him with us in such a touching way.
Your Friend via the tv,
April
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:23 PM
Jen wrote:
I am proud of you, too! Last season, I didn't really know what to think, but you have really stepped up to the plate. I have nothing but hugs for you and the rest of the cast. I know it is hard for you. Doug passing was a shock to me, and I can only imagine how you felt. He was obviously a wonderful man and a role model. Best wishes for you and your bride!
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:25 PM
Sandra R wrote:
Im sorry for the loss of ur friend Doug.... u said it all... he was a great man and watching him put a smile onmy face... if only he knew how many people loved and appreciated him around the country... Thank u for sharing ur friend.... he'll be missed...! Ill always remember him the way i saw him! happy and smilley...! RIP Doug....
You also did great running the gym and the girls didnt give u enough credit...!
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:25 PM
Sarah wrote:
Brian,
First of all, I've watched every episode of Work Out and must say, I absolutely love the show and everyone on it! I did, however, just finish watching this weeks very emotional episode. My heart goes out to everyone at Sky Sport & Spa and all of Doug's friends and family. He truly was an amazing human being! Just from watching the show, it was really apparent how much he influenced and affected the lives of those around him. It's difficult to understand why such a great person had to leave this world, but everything happens for a reason. Once again, I would just like to say how much I love the show and all of the trainers. And just remember, in the end, it's not the years in your life that count, it's the life in your years! XOXO
Sarah
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:26 PM
Debbie wrote:
Brian, I am so sorry and saddened by the news of Doug's death. Tonight, watching the show I was just floored when you told the news to your cast mates. Please send my condolences, to the staff of Sky Sport. I know there are no words that can take the pain of losing a love one. I lost my mother to brain cancer on Christmas Eve three years ago and the loss never goes away, we just learn how to live with it.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:26 PM
Faron wrote:
Let me start off by saying that I'm a fan of this show! I love it!
Tonights episode was so sad, I just keep thinking of doug saying this was his
last birthday, etc.....I felt so bad, I couldn't believe this. I think i almost
started to cry for a second, I think it is wonderful that you were and remain a
good friend to Doug!
I'm 20 years old and lost to many people I love so I my prayers reach out with ya'll!
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:26 PM
Martine wrote:
Dear Brian,
I am really sorry about your loss. I couldn't believe it when I saw that Doug had passed. It seems so unbelievable. I know that you and the rest of the staff will you do your best to honor Doug's memory. When I first saw you on the show I thought, "this dude has issues". But now, I have seen you in a new light; you are a really caring and genuine person. Tough on the outside and a moosh ball on the inside. I hope that we get to see a lot more of you too.
Well, good luck in all that you do; I know that success will follow you wherever you go.
sincerely,
Martine
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:27 PM
Babe wrote:
Doug will be greatly missed and his legacy will be always be with all of us in the entire world.. His smile and kindess will always be in my heart which i felt like i have known him .... he touched all of us with an incredible kindness and compassionate...
He s in a great place and watching all of us and hoping we will making a better way to appreciate life itself and lead a better healthy lifestyle that will make him the happiest guy in the world..
Doug, you will always be in my heart and my thoughts with your gracious smiling with sky blue eyes... love you..
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:27 PM
Matt McCoy wrote:
Dear Brian,
I read in The Advocate an obituary for Doug a few weeks ago, so I've know for some time now that he had passed. Tonight however, I saw the episode where you all learned that he was terminal. I myself am a gay man, and though it was never discussed in detail, I can imagine the struggles that Doug must have endured in the days before his death. I have a very close friend (an ex-boyfriend, actually) that doesn't have very long left, so you and all the trainers have my heart-felt sympathy. I also want you to know that I have a profound respect for you for sticking by Doug through his illness. He was very fortunate to have a friend like you in his life. It is friends like you that make life worth living. Even thought Doug isn't in this world anymore and you all will miss him terribly, just know that he isn't sick anymore and he now has no worries. You guys just hang in there!!
Feeling you pain from Texas,
---Matt M.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:28 PM
Billy Whitaker wrote:
I don't keep up with the show on a regular basis, but I caught this one tonight and was just so touched. It's obvious how much Doug meant to you and it's a pretty big deal to put yourself out there like that on TV. Totally empathizing with you and the other trainers......keep your heads up.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:31 PM
brit noordman wrote:
i just started to watch this show over the weekend. and i loved everyone, immediatly. and i was so confused when i saw the commercial for this new episode, and when i realized what happened, i started crying. all i have to say is doug was a great guy, and he seriously is my hero. rip doug : [
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:32 PM
Davina wrote:
I don't know what to say... my heart goes out to all of you ...especially you because I know what it is to have a friend who is also your family...
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:34 PM
sharon segarra wrote:
Obviously I never new Doug the way you and every one from skysportspa did but when I saw the episode I broke down Because I also have a loved one who is going through the same but remember that " Those we love remain part of us ,Our loved ones leave the world, but never our hearts."
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:35 PM
sharon segarra wrote:
Obviously I never new Doug the way you and every one from skysportspa did but when I saw the episode I broke down Because I also have a loved one who is going through the same but remember that " Those we love remain part of us ,Our loved ones leave the world, but never our hearts."
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:36 PM
sandra wrote:
Wow that was truly wonderfull how doug was respected and cared about. I've watched season 1 and 2 and really feel doug was a good guy. I know he's up in heaven kicking some butt. Stay strong and good luck in life. I'm sure doug knows how much you loved him.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:36 PM
Renee wrote:
Brian,
I am so sorry for your loss. I could never really figure you out through the show's but now I get an idea of who you are. I am a lot like you. I think you have a heart of gold but not sure who you can trust in life. Your friendship with Doug was one in a million. I am sure he was proud to call you friend. Doug seem to be the friend we would all want to have in life. I know your pain as I lost my best friend to cancer, and one to suicide. I am proud of Jackie giving you the job of boss. You showed respect and I know it made you feel better about yourself and how she treats you. I started off thinking how could anyone get along with you? now after showing me the real Brian you became my favorite on the show. I always thought the world about Doug. Show the real Brian, he is a wonderful man. Much success and maybe with your new wife to be your first son's name can be Doug?: )
All the best,
Renee
Sacramento, CA
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:37 PM
Jordana wrote:
Brian,
Even though it's tough, we all appreciate so much that you are putting yourself out there and letting the viewers know how you're doing. Hearing a parent say that they are proud means more than anyone else's thoughts in the world. Most everyone has issues in that area that are difficult to face, but sometimes watching someone else build bridges in their relationship with a parent makes it easier for others to do so themselves. I know I've become a better person for watching and continue to support you and the rest of the staff. I appreciate so much that you're allowing us to be a part of it too, no matter how painful it's been. I'll keep watching for sure!!
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:37 PM
Randy wrote:
Hey Peeler,
Tonight's episode was not only emotional but it showed a side of you that totally moved us all man, Doug was a special guy and a true friend.
He was blessed to have someone like you in his life and the love and compassion you expressed to him in his last days certainly gave him comfort and peace.
Tonight, you Peeler gave reality TV another sensitivity, a more human touch and Doug is smiling at you all the way from above man.
Randy / 10011.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:38 PM
ellen wrote:
I just did discover this show and have made it one of my regular self indulgences. Watching the episode tonight was very hard, I feel so badly for you and your friends. Doug protrayed himself as such a genuinely kind person. I am sure he will be terribly missed. God bless you all as you make your way through this trial.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:42 PM
Cindy wrote:
I'm so sad to hear about Doug's passing. I watch the show every week and every week I expected to see him back at the gym. Just by the little bit I saw of him each week, it was easy to tell he was a kind, loving, gentle, generous spirit. My heart goes out to you, Jackie, and all of the Workout trainers.
Sincerely,
Cindy
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:43 PM
Larry B wrote:
Dear Brian, I just got back from the hospital where my 71 year old mother just had knee replacement surgery. The doctors said it would be routine. The whole time she was in there I kept thinking about your buddy Doug and how one bad thing after another happened to him in the hospital. (HOW MANY F-CKING INFECTIONS CAN ONE PERSON GET, ESPECIALLY IN A F-CKING HOSPTIAL-IT'S NOT FAIR.) I'm very worried about her getting infections now because nothing is routine when it comes to health. I'm glad u atleast got to talk to your buddy on the phone while he was in the hospital. Life is so unfair. There is no ryme or reason for so much of it. Doug was a hero and I certainly think of him as a positive inspiration. I tell people about him and the show. I tell them what a caring, nurturing person he was to people. He is an example to me and I don't want to forget him. Nor, I hope, will anyone watching the show.
Also, I have always been touched by your relationship with him. U never judged him for being gay. To u it didn't matter at all. U just recognized him for the great person he was. DO U KNOW HOW IMPORTANT THAT IS TO SEE!!!!! I just turned 38 years old last saturday and I'm still struggling to get out of the closest. When I talk to my brother about telling one of my friends about it he said that he thought my friend would except me. He said that because my friend reminded him of u. Since u didn't judge Doug he thought I wouldn't be judged either. U see, u yourself are an important role model too. Bravo to u!!!
I also am glad to see u and Jackie opening up to eachother. She respects u more than u know. U had said that u wanted to open up your own Gym one day. Taking on more responsibility in a leadership role will gear u in the right direction. Your on a national television show now. Now is your time to shine. Take full advantage of it. Just remember Doug's rules to live by and u will do great. I wish u all the best in L.A. or wherever.
-Sincerely, Larry from Columbus!
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:44 PM
Janine wrote:
My heart goes out to everyone who was touched by Doug. His innate goodness was evident onscreen - I can't imagine what the people who knew him must be going through right now. I have no doubt that all of your lives are richer for him having been a part of it. Please know that the impact of his loss is being shared from the other side of the screen - ironically, from another small town in Ohio. You are all in my thoughts.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:47 PM
Rich Fine wrote:
Brian,
I just got done writing to Jackie's Blog. I am new to blogging and I saw you had one too, so I wanted to drop you a couple of lines.
I have to admit, in the past, that your attitude irritated me. But, as the episodes go on, I think you mature, which you have credited Doug for, and I have gotten to see more of you as time goes on.
I told Jackie that I think she made a great executive decision to put you in charge of the gym. As far as the episode showed, you did a great job. You didn't even get riled when the other trainers were giving you a hard time. I think you did a great job. I am very proud of ya bud!
As for you loss with Doug's passing. My heart goes out to ya man. I am so sorry for your loss. I too have brothers like Doug was/is to you. I have learned, after a loss like this, to not pray for understanding, yet pray for acceptance. After years of working in critical care, I have learned that the robbing of life isn’t fare and there is no understanding nor logic. Doug will always live in your heart and soul. As you stated on the show, he made you a better man. And, in that, he lives. Every time you are a good man to someone, he lives.
God Bless and I wish you continued success, Rich Fine
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:50 PM
FELICIA FROM TEXAS wrote:
I CRIED THIS TIME WHEN I SAW THIS EPISODE..FIRST THE EMOTIONAL SCENE WITH JACKIE & HER MOM & THEN THE SCENE ABOUT DOUG'S ILLNESS GETTING WORSE. WATCHING EARLIER SCENES WITH DOUG MADE YOU FEEL AS IF HE COULD BE YOUR FRIEND..SOMEONE YOU COULD REALLY TALK TO & HAVE A CONNECTION WITH..HE HAD THAT "GENTLE SPIRIT". I HEARD ON ONE EPISODE THAT HE HAD NO FAMILY-IF ONLY HE KNEW THAT MILLIONS OF PEOPLE WERE THINKING & PRAYING FOR HIM!
REST IN PEACE DOUG-YOU WILL BE MISSED BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:50 PM
Chad Breitkreutz wrote:
Brian, I just watched tonight's show and was shocked at the outcome. I've seen all the episodes and also agree that Doug was a fantastic individual. Words nor actions can express a person's feelings towards one in this instance especially for someone of his character. As a viewer, you could sense his genuine care for everyone around him. When someone like him goes out of their way to make others feel welcomed and appreciated it speaks volumes about their view on life. You could tell that he wanted the best for everyone and that was displayed by his work ethic. It must have been a great experience to have met someone like that, because quite frankly, not too many people do. During your first season I commented to my wife how cool it would be to know someone like Doug. She agreed! I'm sorry and my prayers go out to you guys. Keep your head up and your doing an awesome job. The show is great and it's a real pleasure to see such a special group of people working together for the same goals. Good luck to all of you, and thanks for giving us viewers something that's refreshing, genuine, and down to earth.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:52 PM
Wanda wrote:
The show was so heart breaking. So sorry about your loss of Doug. He seemed to be a special person.Thank God for precious memories of those we love. They live on in our hearts. Wanda
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:53 PM
MARCY wrote:
I AM SO SORRY ABOUT UR FRIEND AND TO SEE U BREAK DOWN MADE ME CRY AS WELL. THOUGH I DIDNT KNOW HIM AT ALL, WATCHING HIM ON T.V DID SHOW HOW HE WAS A CARING AND SWEET PERSON. IM SORRY FOR THE LOST OF SUCH A GOOD FRIEND
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:53 PM
lainie Rich wrote:
I'm so sorry for this loss. doug seemed like a great guy. I find it so ironic that he said this was going to be his last birthday. didn't his expartner have something wrong with his kidneys? he went with him during dialysis, and then he gets sick with his kidneys too. try to get through each day. losing someone you love is the hardest thing to get over. you do, but you never stop missing that person. take care.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:55 PM
Garron Turk wrote:
To Brian I just watched tonights "Workout" on 5/2/2007 about Doug. I am so so "Sorry" for your lose. My Heart went out to you when I seen you crying.
I liked watching Doug on the Show & seeing how you as A new hire to "SkySports". I really LOVED the way you never judged Doug for being Gay. I have so much more to say but I can not put it into words.
Thank you
Garron Turk
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:59 PM
Will Linder wrote:
My name is Will from Chattanooga,TN. I am deeply sorry for your loss. I am 26 and also a masculine gay male. I have to say that the show has really touched me. Doug has really touched me in the way that I want to be a better person and to help others. From watching Doug on the show has really inspired me to become a personal trainer knowing that you can change people's lives for better. Even though I don't know Doug...I can truly say that he is a role model to me. I truly will miss him.
In Loving Memory of Doug-
You have truly touched my Heart.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:03 AM
stephanie Hanson wrote:
I just got done watching this episode and I am so sorry for your loss. I have that one friend that has forever touched my soul and is like a sister to me, I couldnt imagine a day without her. You are so strong and it dosent make it easier but through your memories of the good times you shared you can honor his memory. He was loved in life by having you all in his life and that is all that anyone can ask for.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:04 AM
Lizette wrote:
Brian,
I just finished watching this weeks episode and I can not stop crying. I never met Doug but, because of the good hearted person that he was he touched me enough for me to feel the loss as if he was part of my family. It was eerie to hear him talk about his parents passing and then for this tragedy to happen.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and everyone at Sky...
Liz
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:08 AM
Kelly wrote:
I lost my sister when i was 14. Doug seems like he was the best man in the world and its so sad seeing his loved ones left behind. But you have to remeber the good times, you really handled yourself and i cant even begin to imagine how hard it was for you, it was a touching episode and i think all the viewers will forever remeber your bond with doug.
Good Luck!
-Kelly
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:08 AM
Kelly wrote:
Brian, I am so sorry about Doug. He came across as a caring beautiful individual who was kind and forgiving. I was particularily touched by your relationshhip with him. Men either gay or straight can also have bonds and connections regardless.
God Bless,
Kelly
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:08 AM
Angela Moore wrote:
It was amazing to me how attached I became to the Work Out staff in season one and much more I came to love them in season two. I sit here now with an aching heart and tear filled eyes after learning of Doug's passing. My heart goes out to you all and especially Brian.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:10 AM
Jess wrote:
I am in shock. I think that sometimes you can't see that these people on TV are real and they are just as parisheable as anyone else. Doug was kind to everyone on the show and an extremely classy guy. I wish I understood more about why he got so sick and how that happened but it's not what's important anyway is it. Brian I'm incredibly sorry for your loss.. You too are one of the Real people on the show who so many people can relate to and you don't put on a different face for the camera, people can just tell these things.
Jess from Florida
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:11 AM
terry wrote:
Dear peeler i have watched the show from the beging and i loved doug, he just carried his self with such dignity and grace he seems like the kind of person that would be a god send for any one to have in their lives. i know u miss him but know that he will always be with u . he will be there smiling on your wedding day and seeing you start your family .i know it hurts like hell to lose someone you love very much. i will keep you and your co-workers in my prayers.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:12 AM
Michelle wrote:
I enjoy watching the show but I was extremely sad to find out that Doug passed away. He really seemed like an amazing person - perfect in every way.
I know he will continue to live in your hearts. For us that never met him, it was great to at least have had the opportunity to see Doug on TV.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:12 AM
marubia wrote:
I was shocked and cried after I saw tonites episode. I always looked foward to Doug's positive energy and admired his humble ways, i.e. taking care of his ex-partner and always remaining positive in life (no matter if sh*t hits the fan). AAAaagh!! I feel devastated and will pray for him tonite. I will MISS you Doug!!!!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:13 AM
brittany milhorn wrote:
brian!! i just watched this episode and i cried my eyes out. i still tear up every once and a while! when i watched this episode i felt like i lost a friend to. we all know he is in a better place. i cant believe your from NC though! im from winston salem NC! well anyways this is my Favorite Tv show now im like literaly in love with it. haha. talk to yaw later!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:14 AM
DLD wrote:
Brian-
Just wanted to thank you for sharing in this episode..very powerful!! Am sure it will be some time before you can watch it, but please know that Doug would be very proud of you!! Take care of yourself & remember that you will always have an angel on your shoulder!!
Best wishes...
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:15 AM
Suzette wrote:
Peeler - believe me I know exactly what you are going thru. I went thru the same thing with my best friend Orlando died. I found an OLD message tape from an answering machine and it has his voice on it. It's so amazing to hear is voice. I miss my friend all the time. Be greatful you get to watch Doug on tape - Doug will also be with you. Shit he might even run into my friend Orlando. Be strong.
Suzette
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:16 AM
Tracy Pike wrote:
Always be grateful for having such a wonderful friend like Doug. I know in my heart that he felt the same about you. You're so lucky to be blessed with such wonderful friends in your life. Some are not so lucky & spend most of their life alone, while the rest of the world passes them by. I've always believed that if God brings someone into your life, it's for a reason. And even if that person goes out of your life, they'll always be a part of you. If you're lucky, you'll discover why while they're still in your life & you'll treasure that person for as long as you can. A favorite quote of mine is "I had to love you, for God put you in my way." I wish you peace & happiness.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:17 AM
Amber wrote:
Dear Brian, I understand how it is too loose a best friend. I lost my best friend when I was 12. She was also my mom. All I can remember of her were all the good times we shared together. I guess what really hit home with me tonight watching that episode was knowing that he passed the day before my son Donovan was born. That made me realize that for every death there is birth. I watch the show religiously!!! I even watch the rerun afterwards just to make sure that was nothing that I missed, just know that no matter where you are he is always with you and believe that everything happens for a reason. I love watching you on the show, I love the way you work with your clients and how you never let them give up. Doug never gave up either. You guys have really become apart of my family, you guys make me laugh and inspire me to be the best that I can be. I am currently getting myself back into the gym since the birth of my son and I am also fighting Cervical Cancer. So I take with me all of the inspiration and prayer that I can get. Thank you so much!
Keep on Rockin!!!
Amber Perrine
Indianapolis
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:20 AM
mikey wrote:
My thoughts and prayers are with everyone who was surrounded by Doug. Just watching the episode touched me in such a way i can't explain. He had the best smile and the most compasion. It was said that he was not only a trainer but he wanted to be the clients best friend. That was the extra step that was amazing and showed just the person that Doug was and what I strive to be. Brian is a hard ass, but when it comes to his passion for his clients and towards Doug, that side of him was wonderful to see. And Jackie I think I will go home and try to deal with my father as well.. I love your show and I love how connected i feel to all of you. Rest in peace Doug....P.S. jesse ur hot..and i love the angelina-jolie look-a-like...rebeca dont lead jackie on.... she deserves to be happy...Thank you~m
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:20 AM
Eileen Mae wrote:
Hey Peeler!
First, let me tell you that Work Out is my new addiction! I love the show. I've been watching for the last 6 weeks or so. I started watching a marathon one day when I was home sick from work and I've been watching ever since. I hope that it encourages me to start working out again!
I know how hard it must have been for you to relive Doug's passing. I knew it was coming (since I had already read it on the Bravo website) and it was so sad to watch. He was an awesome trainer with a good outlook on life. He was a true inspiration to all. I hope you continue to work hard and train hard in Doug's memory. He was a good friend to you. You are lucky to have known him and blessed to have considered him your friend. Take care and hang in there!
Also, congratulations on your upcoming wedding. I wish you all the happiness in the world. You deserve it!
I look forward to the season finale and your tribute to Doug. Don't get too emotional and remember him always in your heart!
PS I love the accent!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:21 AM
Tiwanda wrote:
I did not get to watch the last 20 minutes of the episode tonight,but i saw the preview for the show(i know they will re-run it this weekend). Doug was a good spirit and will be missed. Brain you stay strong.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:24 AM
Nikki wrote:
I am crying like a baby over here!! I didn't even know Doug personally but feel like I lost a great friend. This happened so sudden!!! Life is such a gift. I am happy he lived everyday to the fullest.
Brian - I am so happy that he knew you loved him. I know he will be looking down on you all the time. All the best.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:27 AM
Tara wrote:
This is really hard. I watched the episode, and I was glad that it didn't exploit Doug's situation or portray it in a gratuitous way. And yet, I was left with such a weird feeling. We have totally been privy to these people's lives, and yet there was very little that we were privy to concerning Doug's death. And you know, that is his right and the right of his friends - to have this be a completely private thing that they shouldn't have to share with a million strangers. So it left me wondering why I feel cheated and so upset. And then I realized what I believe to be the truth. These reality shows are gratuitous by definition. We watch them as we would watch a sit-com. We want all the dirt - these people aren't really real (although in the back of our minds we realize they are - that's what makes it so exciting). They are just celluoid images we watch every evening to make our lives seem more exciting. And then something like this happens, and of course, we want to know every detail. Why wouldn't we? We spend an hour a week with these people! But in reality, it's not our right, and again, it leaves us feeling cheated. So there's this wonderful person, Doug, who we have come to "know" and care for (that's the producer's goal, isn't it?), who has died, and there's no way for us to deal with it. It would just be too weird. We have to understand that in our reality (that of the viewer), this really is just a sit-com. Grieving would be weird and we just need to get over it. I guess I need to stick with "I love New York".
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:29 AM
Veronica wrote:
I just saw on TV that Doug did not make it through his illness. I felt like I lost a friend of my own. I watch the show regularly and was truly saddened to know he lost his battle. Thank goodness he had caring loving friends...so sad
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:32 AM
KAREN wrote:
BRIAN,
YOU ARE A GOOD MAN; LOT' OF COURAGE, AND LOYALTY, AND TENDERNESS. WE HAVE ALL SEEN HOW MUCH YOU'VE GROWN, SINCE LAST SEASON. JACKIE'S ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF YOU WAS PERFECT. YOU WERE THE PERFECT CHOICE........SHE'S COME A LONG WAY TOO. WONDERFUL TO BE SEEN FOR THE GIFTS THAT ONE HAS.. THERE IS NO GREATER GIFT THAN TO BE SEEN
KAREN
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:36 AM
Christine Lourie wrote:
Dear Brian and friends,
I was so touched by tonight show 5/1/07. I could not believe
that Doug was gone. My heart goes out to all of you at SkyLab.
Christine
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:37 AM
Travis Burnell wrote:
Brian my name is Travis. I'm from a small town across the US (Pittsfield, Ma). I can relate to you more than anyone i know in real life. Your mental edge and views about fitness is what i really want to achieve. I lost my best friend last year, and your recent tragedy with Doug hit me hard. Last time i saw my best friend, he was a spokesman for fitness, always building thing out of wood: tables, chairs, etc. Inside 2 weeks he got sick and passed away much like Doug. Yea, just like you i would of took some of the sickness on me if only he would of survived. Now i can't help but think about Doug whenever i walk in to the lobby of the local gym. Its tough emotionally, but i feel stronger mentally. Good looking out, steppin up while Jackie was away. On a brighter note. I just joined a new gym. Its tough affording the cost of using the nice equipment they can provide, but i may have something worked out like a summer job with a trainer there. He's teaching me how to lift properly. I'm also studying to become a top racquetball player. I regret not writing Doug while i was able. You guys touhed my life and inspired me to expect more of myself, push myself, and make me a better person on so many levels. Not to feed the ego of Mr. Michaelangelo, but i do regard you guys as the authority on fitness. Thank you for doing what you do, and being who you are.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:37 AM
Javier Delgado wrote:
I shared a cry with you in today's episode. You should be commended for not being afraid to say that as a straight man, you loved a gay man who made a dent in your life. I wish I had a chance to meet Doug, from what I saw on T.V., he made me proud to be gay. Made God Bless you both.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:43 AM
Laura wrote:
First of all, I am hooked on this show!
Second of all, I realize it is reality as in REAL LIFE and this is no drama where the actor that "dies" appears again on another show...I cannot imagine how hard this must be for you as well as the others. Doug was handsome and sweet from what we saw and what you all say about him, and I personally just keep remembering him telling him his supposed-to-be-Skylab client that he wants to be her best friend, not only her trainer...and the part where he says he is not celebrating any more birthdays...and so many more things, it makes me wonder if real life is not a script someone else is writing and we all just play a part...
On a selfish self indulging note, it brings home mortality to me that's for sure, and I am in bad shape right now...this man was in perfect shape...and yet that's not good enough for him to live many more years...
I feel for you and I feel for Jackie and the rest of you there...
Sincere best wishes,
~ Laura
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:44 AM
Mary wrote:
Dear Peeler,
I am so sorry you lost your best friend Doug.
He seemed like a fantastic guy.
God Bless.
Mary
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:44 AM
Gen wrote:
I watched the show tonight and was very touched by it. I've had the unfortunate bad luck to have suffered 11 deaths in 5 years and it doesn't get any easier with each one. Death doesn't change the person lost, but changes the ones left behind. The thing I have taken from loss is that every day is special and the people that really support you are the people you spend your energy on. The past needs be honored, the present lived and the future looked at with wonder.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:45 AM
JC Madera wrote:
Dude, If I may say this; You are, well...um... nuts! But also real. So I stand corrected.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:45 AM
Robert wrote:
I really enjoyed Doug's presence on the show as much as anyone else. Can someone please tell me what his illness was and why he passed so suddenly???
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:50 AM
Doug wrote:
Dear Brian,
You had me sobbing, I am glad I was able to watch this episode alone, I felt so bad for you. We all thought you were so mean and you showed how much you really care. Remember this only the good die young. Stay strong.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:52 AM
Simone wrote:
Brian,
I will admit that when I first started watching the show, I didn't really like you, but I can honestly say that in season two you grew on me. I know how hard it is to want to be there for someone and they won't let you. Doug will live on and be that angel on your shoulder forever. In tonight's episode I saw your strength courage and compassion. I never met Doug, but he was my favorite trainer, there was just something about him. You are in my prayers and many blessings on your wedding. North Carolona rocks, I live in Greensboro. STAY STRONG!!!!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:53 AM
dana wrote:
It was difficult to see tonight's show..to see how touched you were by Doug..that is a beautiful relationship. Those words you would take on his illness just so he could be better. I understand and I have been there. I am so sorry for your loss.
Dana
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:54 AM
Janet wrote:
Peeler,
I know how hard it is to loose your best friend, and your brother. I lost my best friend last July. There are definately no words to express the hurt and pain you feel when this happens. Just know that he will always be with you in your heart and in spirit. Just when you need him most, you will feel him. I know my Robert is still with me when I need him most. Hang in there! I can't say the hurt will go away but it will get easier.
Janet
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:56 AM
AMBER wrote:
HI Gorgeous!!
I just got done watching the sadiest thing ever. OMG!! My heart goes out to you on the loss of your best friend Doug. I have been watching the show since day one and I think you're an awesome person. I hope in time your heart heals. My father who is my best friend has terminal cancer and I know that one day he isn't going to be with me anymore. I just hope my faith in God will get me though it and I hope God will help you heal your heart. God Bless You!!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:58 AM
julie wrote:
I loved this episode. I can't wait for the season finale! The entire episode was so emotional. When Jackie put you in charge of the gym, I knew you could do it well and you did it fabolous! Towards the end of the episode when you announced to the other trainers about Doug's conditions, I had tears in my own eyes as well. He seemed like such an inspirational person and it's incredibly sad to know Doug won't be in any more episodes. I love this show and I hope there will be a Season 3! :)
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:03 AM
Kirsten S wrote:
From what I saw on Work Out, the world is less one caring, loving and gentle soul. I hope that in the way I show up for others and the way each of us can intentionally be a healing presence in the world that Doug will live on in these actions. You, the staff at Sky Sport as well as Doug's other family and friends have been in my thoughts and prayers.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:17 AM
Amy Jason wrote:
Dear Brian,
I've never, ever contacted anyone from a reality show, but after seeing tonight's episode of Work Out, I felt an overwhelming need to send you a note. I noticed that Doug had passed away on Jan. 22nd, though I had not heard about it until now. I immediately began to cry as if I had known him personally, and I imagine that many, many viewers felt the same way. My heart bleeds for you and all of his friends and co-workers. Doug is no longer in pain, but those who loved him will hurt for a long time. My only advice to you is to allow the grief to come and keep him alive through your memories of him. Do not allow his life to be in vain.
May God wrap his arms around you and help you through this difficult time. You are in my prayers, Amy in Dallas
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:18 AM
April wrote:
I've dreaded this episode all season long. Doug was my favorite person on the show. With all the drama going on he seemed to be the most centered. I know what it's like to lose someone you love so suddenly but not so suddenly if you know what I mean. My mother had cancer but in the space of a week she went from walking and talking like normal to losing her life. You hope that day never comes but when it does, it suddenly seems like God took away the extra time you thought you had. I loved watching Doug because out of all of the trainers he really inspired me because he seemed so passionate about what he did and I remember when Zen was having a hard time he took time out for her. We should all have someone so special in our lives who will make time to care about us and it's not always the case. It's been really hard watching this show knowing that at some point it's going to be "the episode". Now that it's here I am so sad for you even though it happened a few months ago. I've seen rumor that you will be leaving the gym. Can't say I blame you, I've always enjoyed watching you because you seemed to share the same passion and commitment to your clients that Doug did. Others may not agree but it's easy to see how you two complemented each other in your friendship. If I ever had the money or lived in the same state you two would have been the ones I wanted to train me. God knows everybody needs someone in their corner. I suppose I just wanted you to know that Doug really was an inspiration and even though I never met him, his inherent kindness and devotion to those he loved touched me and I'm sure countless others who watched the show.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:22 AM
Erin D. wrote:
Brian - You're honoring your friend by carrying his lessons and values with you - there's no better way to keep his memory alive and teaching others through you.
When you told the trainers the sad news, I was sobbing openly, reacting to how much pain you were in. I am so sorry you've lose such a positive role model, such a wise older brother figure....but you are so fortunate to have had Doug in your life. I couldn't figure out, though, why no one gathered you up into a big bear hug as you cried...it seemed like you were begging for someone to comfort you. Perhaps they were all too stunned, too surprised, dealing with their own emotions, but they all knew you were the closest to Doug...I wish they'd been there more for you.
Best of luck forging your new path ahead, Brian. Be strong for you and for Doug.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:22 AM
Amy Jason wrote:
Dear Brian,
I've never, ever contacted anyone from a reality show, but after seeing tonight's episode of Work Out, I felt an overwhelming need to send you a note. I noticed that Doug had passed away on Jan. 22nd, though I had not heard about it until now. I immediately began to cry as if I had known him personally, and I imagine that many, many viewers felt the same way. My heart bleeds for you and all of his friends and co-workers. Doug is no longer in pain, but those who loved him will hurt for a long time. My only advice to you is to allow the grief to come and keep him alive through your memories of him. Do not allow his life to be in vain.
May God wrap his arms around you and help you through this difficult time. You are in my prayers, Amy in Dallas
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:25 AM
alaina wrote:
Gosh Brian I am so so sorry. I didn't even know Doug (although i felt like i did cause of the show) and I am so shocked and upset about this. It was all so sudden. the show will not be the same without him. he was amazing.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:32 AM
Angela Kullander wrote:
I just wanted to express my sympathy to you and the family at Sky Lab. Doug was one of my favorite people to watch on the show. He was such a great person. You could see that in every episode he was in. May GOD bless you and your family.
Most Sincerely,
Angela
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:32 AM
Tammy wrote:
Brian, you're so hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:42 AM
john wrote:
I think Doug would be very happy to know what great things you feel and said about him. I knew Doug for 20 years he was always there for all his friends. he will be missed..
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:49 AM
Mike D wrote:
Chris,
Doug seemes like such a genuine and good-natured person. Im shocked and sorry to learn of this loss...it is odd to know that the viewers found out about Doug's passing today (or at least the viewer's that don't read the blogs regularly) and you have had to stuggle with it since January. There's nothing anyone can really say to make it easier...only time can heal the grief that consumes everyone who was touched by Doug's life. He was a beautiful person, inside and out, with a passion to help other people become more wholesome. Just know that there are millions of people whos thoughts and prayers are with you, Doug's friends, and family. Keep your chin up Chris; instead of re-living Doug's death, re-live his life. Keep up the great work at Sky Sport. A traditional Irish blessing in honor of Doug:
May the road rise to meet you,
May the wind be always at your back,
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
May the rains fall soft upon your fields,
And, until we meet again,
May God hold you in the hollow of His hand.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:51 AM
Glendale wrote:
Peeler:
I am so sorry for loss. I was moved to tears by tonight's episode. Your pain and anguish were so raw, it hurt me to see you go through that. I know this episode actually happened some time ago. I hope that you have healed up some since then. No one ever really dies, you know. I will say a prayer for you and your team this evening...
Glendale
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:02 AM
Tricia Butts wrote:
I watched the episode tonight about Doug passing. I feel like I have lost a friend without even ever meeting Doug so Brian I can't even begin to imagine the pain you must have felt when you lost your best friend. I never have left a comment on here so I don't know if you will ever read this B but I just felt like I had to reach out to the Sky Sport gang in some way to let you know that Doug effected me even if I never met him. You guys are very blessed to have really known Doug. I will keep you all in my prayers. I guess the only thing that gets me through times like this is to remember Doug is in a much better place. I know it's so cliche but it does help me to believe they are lucky to be up there in paradise while we are down here which sometimes seems like HELL these days.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:03 AM
Brooke wrote:
I am so very sorry for your loss, having lost a close friend of my own around the same time I understand how you feel completely. I can only hope for anyone in this situation that time does relieve the pain and grief. Stay strong, keep your head up, that's what he would have wanted :)
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:08 AM
Nick Calle wrote:
After watching workout for the past two years, i have felt that i know each and every one of the trainers and people involved in Workout. Seeing the relationship between doug and peeler, shows just how important life can be. I am very saddened to here this news and i prayed for Doug's survival. I hope that his legacy will live on and i hope that everyone on this show is doing better.
Nick from Seattle
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:08 AM
Jeanette wrote:
This episode was so sad to watch. I've lost so many people in my life and I have volunteered with children who have lost a parent and have worked with support groups for those who have lost a loved one to suicide. My heart goes out to you and to everyone at Sky Sport Spa. All I can say is you will never forget him, even if the sadness lessens he will never be lost. I know that we saw this months after Doug passed, but I know the healing process can be long and is different for everyone, so I just wanted to send my thoughts to everyone there.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:09 AM
Brenda wrote:
Doug was an amazing man. He will surely be missed. I'm still shocked Doug is gone. He inspired me to be a better person and to be more open minded about many things. I loved his passion. God is lucky to have him in HEaven.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:09 AM
Sara wrote:
tonight's episode, as well as a few weeks ago when i found out of doug's passing just broke my heart. I know i didnt know him but just from watching him on the show..it had that much of an effect on me that i was balling crying..from just a few short hours i saw on tv i loved him and saw what a beautiful man he was..your love for him was soo evident and im so sorry for yours and the world's loss.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:10 AM
Tammy P. wrote:
Though I did not know Doug personally besides through this show, he seemed to possess such a warm and genuine aura that is going to be missed. He was just too young for his life to be taken away.
I am sure you were a great friend who looks down on you and smiles.
I wish you peace in your sad heart.
Tammy
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:11 AM
d wrote:
I'm proud of you your a stand up guy. I'm so sorry about your loss its so very hard to lose someone. I wish you the best. take care.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:11 AM
kristin Mejia wrote:
Im so sorry for your loss, My brother died of cancer at 46 and I know what its like to feel helpless. I was shocked that Doug was so suddenly sick. Was he HIV positive?
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:14 AM
dih wrote:
hey brain i just watched the workout episode. i'm so sorry to hear what happened to doug. My mom has both of her kidneys die on her and she goes to dialysis every mon wed and fri. i was bless to have my mom still alive and i'm so sad to hear doug didn't make it through. i hope everyone at the sky lab is pulling through. many prayers to you.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:14 AM
Jenn Cabral wrote:
Brian- I am so sorry for your loss with Doug. It is so hard to lose someone that is so close to you. I pray that God will give you the strength to go forward with your life. you and Doug will meet again in heaven but for now he is your GUARDIAN ANGEL. Much Love to you.
Jenn
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:15 AM
Sarah wrote:
I am soo sorry for the loss of Doug. I couldn't believe my eyes. I am also 6 months preggo, so you can bet I was a wreck. My thoughts are with you guys!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:17 AM
Al wrote:
Brian,
I've been a fan of the show for about six months. I knew Doug in LA for about 15 years. We were not good friends, but whenever I would see him he was always genuine and truly one of the good guys. I truly feel for you bud. I lost my best friend about ten years ago and it still hurts. Shitty as it is, know that he is in a better place and will live forever through you. Take care of yourself man.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:18 AM
TeeBee wrote:
Peeler, it was a joy to see you grow as a trainer and individual this season. It's also amazing how in this short life one can accomplish ground breaking feats--but not just professionally. Viewers and fans of the show will never have an opportunity to feel Doug's touch. However, I can assure you that most if not all were touched in many, many ways. Thank you for exposing us to your lives. Most importantly, congrats on being personally exposed to one of God's greatest gifts. Make him proud!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:19 AM
ROB wrote:
Brian,
First of all, let me offer my deepest condolensces for the loss of Doug. He truly was a magnificent person and continues to inspire regardless of what his physical body gave in to. I never realized that it could be possible to mourn the death of someone without ever knowing them to the extent that I have with Doug. What he exemplified in the way he carried himself spoke volumes of the type of person he was. He isn't gone...just on a different plane....he's keeping his eye on you. I also want to let you know that i'm proud of how you handled yourself and the kind words that you expressed concerning Doug. You made me lose it a couple of times, but ultimately my perception of you has changed. You're someone any person would be fortunate to consider a friend. Keep your head up and continue living as if Doug were there to kick your ass and set you straight. You know he is. Peace.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:22 AM
Jon wrote:
I was completely shocked by the news of Doug. After watching last weeks episode, I searched the web and learned of his death then. It was hard for me to watch the episode tonight, knowing what was coming. I am so sorry for your loss, our loss, he touched everyone. Doug was not only a role model for the gay culture, but the entire human race. His presence will truely be missed.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:22 AM
brandy plascencia wrote:
I`ve followed the show since season one. I`ve loved it so far, however dougs death was unexpected to me. As i would watch the show it was hard to see such a good person like doug, live his life right in front of you and in an instant, it be taken away...its hard. Although i did not know him in person, i some how felt a strong emotion of sadness. He really was a good guy. peepler,...if he had any family at all, it would be you. I strongly believe he "left" knowing that in his heart. He will be missed
from brandy plascencia
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:22 AM
mike s wrote:
bro i am so sorry to hear about your loss. i lost a friend eight years ago when i was in high school and all i could think at the time and all i can still think when i think about him is why him? he was such a great person, such a great personality, such great humor, such a great human being. why should he be the one to go? Why not a murderer or a rapist or someone who does something horrible? there are a million questions that went and are still going through my head. But the way i look at it is that it is all somewhere, somehow meant to be. you said he was like a brother to you, so your job is to keep his spirit alive. i wish you the best. please feel free to contact me if you want to talk.
aim sn: atticus464 email:volcom000@hotmail.com
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:23 AM
teresa wrote:
Ijust saw tonights episode and I'm so sad for Doug's passing. My life is so different from everyone on the show but with Doug's passing I feel as if you are my best friend. We are all strangers in this world and we will never meet but I know how painful it is to lose a person you care about and that's what makes me feel like I know everyone. It makes me reliaze how small this large world can really be. My heart goes out to everyone that will miss him terribly. Doug seemed like someone that was easy to care about.
I have enjoyed season 2 of work out and hope to see you guys again.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:24 AM
DK wrote:
Hey Peeler,
I'm so sorry for your loss.
I just discovered the show this week and ended up marathoning it and grieved along with you all tonight.
You guys have totally motivated me to make some major changes in my life, so thank you.
Best of luck with your wedding!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:29 AM
KATE COLLINS wrote:
I SENT AN EMAIL TO BRAVO, BUT IN CASE YOU NEVER SEE IT, PLEASE KNOW HOW SORRY, AND SADDENED I AM BY WHAT HAPPENED TO DOUG. HE INSPIRED ME TO WANT THE BEST FOR MYSELF, AND I KNOW YOU HAVE BEEN SO CHANGED BY THE LOSS IN YOUR LIFE. ALL I CAN SAY IS TO PLEASE TRY TO KEEP YOUR SPIRIT ALIVE, AND IN THAT DOUG WILL LIVE ON. BEST FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND AND EVEN HARDER TO LOSE. THERE WAS SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDSHIP, AND THE TWO OF YOU THAT INTRIGUED ME. YOU ARE MY KIND OF PEOPLE. IT MAY SEEM STRANGE TO HEAR ALL THE THINGS YOU'LL HEAR FROM PEOPLE REGARDING THIS , ESPECIALLY BECAUSE WE WEREN'T HONORED WITH HIS PRESENCE, BELIVE IN IT.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:30 AM
Peter R wrote:
Hi Brian,
I was sorry to hear of Doug's passing. He seemed like an incredible person and my prayers will be with his family and friends. A loss of such an amazing man will be hard to get over. I hope you were able to see him and talk to him before he passed.
Take care,
Peter
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:30 AM
Sydney Harris wrote:
My heart goes out to all the staff at Sky Lab Spa on the loss of a wonderful young man Doug. I'm so shocked and upset for you all as I too have just lost a couple of dear friends. Keep each other strong and just be there for each other as I now live in Hawaii from Australia and do not have the closeness as you all have. Just love one another.
Sincerely
Sydney Harris
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:31 AM
Aaran Cordova wrote:
Dear Brian,
I want you to know that you and all the staff of Sky Sport are in my prayers. Doug will be truly missed he was very special he truly cared for people, and made then feel special. He showed his love for you and you were blessed to have him in your life I appreciate you sharing what you did on this episode that was tuff but you did it. Thanks
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:35 AM
maria g wrote:
This was a very emotional episode for me as well I have watched this show from the very start , Doug was one of my favorite persons on the show he always kept his cool and had the right thing to say,You can see the good in someone when it is for real in them and when they have that great strengh as a person it is very sad to see them pass.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:39 AM
Angel wrote:
Baby, my heart goes out to you. I had to fight back tears through this episode. Luckily, I haven't had to experience what it feels like to lose someone that close to me so I can't even begin to imagine what you went through during that time.
Take care and keep it real,
~Angel
If you need a hug, call me...
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:39 AM
Sean wrote:
Brian, I am so saddened by Doug's death. Your bond with him really epitomized the strong "brother-hood" both of you shared. I couldn't help but cry when you started to cry because I know how "that" feels. I am also an emotional individual, therefore it's difficult to let go of things that truly does matter the most.
I wish all the best for you and Kate, your wife to be.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:41 AM
Rainne Knight wrote:
It's so strange watching this episode from the distance of an audience member...for me, this was all happening as I watched. I wanted to reach out to you, Brian, as I watched you cry. I wanted to take away some of that pain. I didn't know for sure if Doug had died, but I had a sickening feeling that he had. When the scene showing Doug blowing out his candles aired, and then faded to black, I knew...and then the text showing birth and death date appeared. I took it nearly as badly as I would have if the news had been about my friend or family member. There was an instant of utter shock, and then I cried. My heart broke for you, and for Che, and for all of us, that the world had lost someone so amazing, someone who inspired such loyalty and love in those who knew him. Before this turn of events, he was my favorite trainer on the show, and the one I felt I would be closest to if I were fortunate enough to get to know him. And now I've lost even the slimmest chance of meeting him.
Doug is gone, and the world is poorer for it.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:42 AM
sheri wrote:
This episode was absolutely heartbreaking, and you were wonderful and honest. Thank you for allowing us into your life for just a little while.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:44 AM
susank wrote:
Brian.. my heart goes out to you. Your soon to be wife is very lucky to have you. Doug does know this and Im sure you've got the best guardian angel. Im sure he's having boot camps up there. lol Archangel Michael is wondering why he called him..
Peeler ... he is always with you.. just think of him and there he will be
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:50 AM
kristin Mejia wrote:
Ok I just read the past blogs and now I know that doug had lymphoma not HIV. Either way its terribly sad that he died so young. Death is such a hard thing to grasp, that feeling of helplessness makes me angry. Ive lost my father and last year my brother at 46 to cancer. Its an epidemic and if the US would have paid as much money in research to cancer as we have for the war we would have a cure by now. Last year I was diagnosed with Lupus at 37 If I would have listened to my first two doctors I would still be misdiagnosed. I think the stress of death has gotten the best of me because I gained 40 pounds in 7 months. All I know for sure is that I can't give up or Ill die next. I must choose to live and fight harder but I feel so lost without my big brother. I put on a happy face for the world but my heart is broken. I pray that we can find the strength to enjoy all of the beautiful things life has to offer otherwise its just a waste. Be strong. Ill be watching.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:52 AM
yenny wrote:
i was very moved by the way you handle the group we you told them about doug i could really see that you loved him and i undrestand why....he truely was a wounderful person and now he will be reating in peace and he knows how much you care and loved him..take care laways.....yenny
posted on May 2, 2007 at 3:06 AM
Misty wrote:
Peeler,
Wow. What a show. I miss Doug, and I don't even know him! What you said about wanting to take it away for him and deal with it - so profound and so beautiful. We got to see who you really are. Thank you for that.
On a lighter note - I loved your bootcamp style! Great fun!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 3:12 AM
lena wrote:
o my god gys im so sory i just faund out abaut Dug
i cant stop crying its ... the stuf thet he said thet no wone from his fameki lived to see 40+
im so sory ...i dont know what else to say i lost unforchenetly a feu of my friends when deth comes in unnatural wey...Pili i know thet u dont know me but i send u a big hug ther is nuthing i or eny body else can say to make u feel beter but owt of my own expereance ///hi is with u gys every day i gerety it when a person have such a big soul it never gows awey thank u for an amaizing show love u keep up the good work Lena from LA
posted on May 2, 2007 at 3:15 AM
Tom wrote:
Brian,
Doug was an extraordinary man.
And, so are you.
Thinking things over -- you BOTH needed EACH OTHER.
I know he will be remembered, as he would have been PROUD to be remembered.
Never forget that YOU are a remarkable extension of that, as an equally remarkable BROTHER.
Just read these blogs to see how much the two of you have meant to millions!
Who would ever have thought that a reality show could have such a POSITIVE impact.
Be very proud of yourself.
The two of you have taught us ALL a profound lesson.
And, of course, my best wishes to you and your wife.
What a superb gift you and Doug have given us all.
Tom
posted on May 2, 2007 at 3:19 AM
Chris wrote:
That was a very touching episode and as a regular viewer of this show, I was saddened to learn that Doug had passed away. I work out at MetRx in the OC with a trainer friend of mine, and I always told him that Doug reminded me of him. They were similar in age, looks, build, etc. It was weird to watch the episode that included his birthday party and hear him talk about other family members that died at young ages and that he too was worried about that himself. I remember thinking "How could a guy in that great of shape be worried?" I also thought it very ironic how he was helping his ex and how he worried about his ex's health only to wind up being the one that got severely ill. Death is never easy no matter what the age. A former coworker/friend from Virginia that I know just lost his daughter in the Virginia Tech shootings, and I struggle for understanding about that tragedy as well. Memories is all that we can count on when we lose someone so close. My condolences to all of Doug's friends/family at "Sky Sport".
posted on May 2, 2007 at 3:40 AM
T.W. wrote:
Peeler, my prayers are with you and all of Doug's family of friends. It has been inspirational to watch you grow as a person through the seasons of the show. Know that you have quickly become a man that Doug, (one of the angels who came to earth), is proud of. Everyone that Doug touched, including TV viewers, is miraculously blessed to have experienced his unique blend of compassion, humor, humanity, strength and support. Doug will be missed, but his loving influence will continue to spread and improve our lives. What a gift you were blessed with to have Doug in your life as you did. Now, it is your turn to show all those you meet the lessons you've learned through the actions you choose in your life. It's ok to be sad and it's ok to make mistakes. I know you'll find your way through and I believe that the future holds more abundance and wonder than you can imagine.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 4:02 AM
Carolyn wrote:
Hi Brian...Saw the episode tonight about Doug. I am so sad that you all lost such a wonderful person. I enjoyed watching him from the first season and was sad to learn of his passing. Just remember this Brian...Doug will never die, as long as he is remembered by all of his friends. Share with each other some of the fun things he did or how he touched others in his life. I love this show and I so wish I could train with anyone of you. Please take care and give all the folks on the show a big HELLO FROM ARIZONA... God Bless
posted on May 2, 2007 at 4:41 AM
Jozef wrote:
oh BRIAN...LIFE IS NOT FAIR ! Why DOUG ? my FAVORITE guy ...
posted on May 2, 2007 at 4:59 AM
Don wrote:
Hey Peeler - I just watched tonights episode and felt the need to logon to this blog for the first time because I needed to tell you how very sorry I am for the loss of your best friend Doug. I cannot imagine how difficult that must be and am saddened. Even though I did not know him (or any of you for that matter) personally, it appears to me that he was an incredible person and a great friend. Your thoughts on the show and above in your blog are very touching. I guess what I am saying is this: the loss of my father has taught me to remember all of the great things we experienced. Peller.... remember what Doug meant to you and never let that memory fade. Take care of yourself.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 5:31 AM
Kerri wrote:
I am so, so sorry about Doug!
I am a huge fan.
I just watched the episode; and I cannot believe such a sweet, sweet giving person is gone.
I wept for about a half hour, as strange as it may sound; but I truly felt a connection with the guy.. and can't believe such a healthy person has lost such a wonderful life.
I am a breast cancer survivor.. and have sought such strength in your broadcast. (and will continue to do so) I am am nowhere near Doug's physical perfection, and it scares me to think about the fact that he is gone at such a young age. He worked so hard to stay healthy.
It is such a tragedy.
God Bless,
Kerri XXOO
posted on May 2, 2007 at 5:48 AM
Susan wrote:
I lost my brother one year ago.. so- I know what you are going thru..
It is heartbreaking! Doug seemed like such a sweet sweet soul..he will give you signs that he is around you!
"On the Wings of Time Grief Flies Away"
I hope you find some peace in your grief and know you will meet again..
posted on May 2, 2007 at 5:50 AM
Kim wrote:
Hey Peeler,
Just a note of encouragement....you're the best. All of us that watch you on the show are also very proud of you. You've could've lost your temper many times because of Jackie's insensitive nature, but you held your ground. Doug is watching you, and he's especially proud......your relationship with him was not in vain. Take care Peeler, we love you.
Kim in Florida
posted on May 2, 2007 at 6:15 AM
Melissa wrote:
Words can't express how tragic Doug's death was. It must have been such a difficult roller coaster ride - first thinking he would be fine, and then finding out things had turned for the worst. I didn't even know Doug, but he definitely touched my life and thoughts. His shyness, and sweetness, and the way he smiled with his eyes - what a beautiful man. I have to keep reminding myself that he is in a better place now, with no pain, and with his family. That is the only comfort I can find because I think the world is just that much more dreary without him. I wish you all the best in adjusting to this devastating loss. I'm really happy he had a friend like you to talk with, I'm sure he knew how much you loved him, and that made a world of difference. Take care.
Melissa
posted on May 2, 2007 at 6:37 AM
Danielle wrote:
This isn't quite my style to post on someones..probably forced written blog...but umm yeah. From watching both seasons, you've seemed to take on some of the calm, cool, collected attitude of Doug; so in that aspect he's a part of you. Anyways, I wish health and happiness to you.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 6:39 AM
Michael Partridge wrote:
Hey Brian,
I feel your pain man. The show last night broke my heart.
Doug was a good man without a doubt. Good men always leave behind a legacy beacause they touch so many people. Doug's spirit will live on in you and the others at Sky Sport and also with the fan's of the show. Doug has inspired me to get back into shape. Wish I was closer so you could train me. My family loves the show and you are everyones favorite.
Take care buddy. There are lots of people thinking about all you guys.
Michael Partridge
30 County Road 475
Meridian, MS 39301
posted on May 2, 2007 at 7:17 AM
JessyLou wrote:
I am so sorry for your loss! I am a big fan of the show since it started, I love it and I love inviting you all into my home. When I watched the show last night I cried so hard. Doug seemed to be a wonderful person and human being, you are so very lucky to know, love, and be a part of his world while he left his mark on this earth. God Bless you all and my prayers are with you all!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 7:32 AM
Doreen wrote:
Can I ask if Doug was HIV positive, and did that play into his illness?
posted on May 2, 2007 at 7:47 AM
sandra johnson wrote:
I watched the show last night, and i am so saddened as the rest of you are, Doug had a spirit about him that came across our television that made you want to love him.I miss him and i have never met him, He is in Gods hands now and they love him there also. Thankyou for bringing him into my life.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 7:55 AM
DOREEN SALAZAR wrote:
DEAR BRIAN, I AM SO SORRY FOR THE LOSS OF YOUR FRIEND. HE WAS 1 OF MY FAVORITES ON THE SHOW. WHAT SPOKE VOLUMES TO ME WERE THOSE BLU EYES! SO WARM AND SINCERE. THEY TRUELY WERE THE WINDOW TO HIS SOUL. ON THE CLOSING CREDITS LAST NITE I CRIED- WISHED I HAD LET HIM KNOW WHAT HIS PRESENCE MEANT TO ME. I HOPE HIS EX KNOWS HOW MUCH HE LOVED HIM TOO. SO APPARENT IN THE WAY HE LOOKED AT HIM. DOUG IS HEALTHY AND WHOLE NOW, WITH THE ANGELS. I HOPE MY BROTHER MEETS HIM. PEACE-OPEN HEART DINKY ( WORDS FROM MY BROTHER-BRYAN)
posted on May 2, 2007 at 8:02 AM
Andrew Hayes wrote:
Peeler - you are a good guy. Your support and friendship of Doug, during what was a very difficult time for him, was very touching. It's also great to see you overseeing the gym's management in Jackie's absence.
Losing Doug has inspired me (and I'm sure others) to live each and every day fully!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 8:08 AM
lorese wrote:
Hi Brian,
I just woke up and the show was the first thing that came to my mind; also when I went to bed last night, all of you were in my thoughts. I am so sorry for your loss. I cried with you, and it was the first time in years. I lost my brother five years ago just about the same way and even though I know he is in a higher place, he is still in my heart with his beautiful smile. I know Doug will always be in your heart too. I knew there was a reason I was connecting with the series so much...I really love how you can show your emotions so clearly and real even with cameras in the room. I feel so drawn to all of you - it has helped me immensly with my emotions. I also lost my dad three years ago and I simply shut down with my emotions. Also stopped working out and have gained about 50 lbs and know I would feel better if I would change from my emotional eating and start working out again. There are several books that have helped me with my loss and I do special keepsake memory art if you would like a keepsake remembrance for your wedding. Thank you for being so real and true and honest. It is nice to see that in this day and age. Take care, Lorese
posted on May 2, 2007 at 8:26 AM
billy wrote:
I just can't understand why the good people go too damn early.
No offense to the rest of you,but Doug seemed more dedicated to his profession than others,and just looked liked everyones best friend.
Thankyou
posted on May 2, 2007 at 8:29 AM
Terri wrote:
Brian,
My deepest thoughts go out to you and all the sky lab trainers for the loss of Doug...God Bless
posted on May 2, 2007 at 8:34 AM
Leigh wrote:
Hang in there Peeler, my thoughts are with you. Doug was such a good person and I didn't even know him. Just watching the show you could see that. He'll be missed.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 8:38 AM
Jennie M. wrote:
I also think Doug was quite an amazing man, It is so hard to think God needed him, because so many people needed him here...You did a great job last night "BOSS"!!!! Jen
posted on May 2, 2007 at 8:55 AM
Pammy wrote:
Brian,
I just wanted to say that I feel for you. I know what it's like to lose someone close. Doug seemed like a greta guy. I have been watching all of the episodes and I am a big h fan of the show. i feel for you most of all with this Brian. Also on a lighter note I wanted to say I enjoy watching you train everyone. You go boy!! I think you also are a cool person and you are also one of my favortie people on the show, but I do adore the entire SkySport Staff. God Bless and in time you will heal. he is gone but not forgotten.
God Bless- Pammy
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:06 AM
Joan K. wrote:
Hi Brian,
It is hard to write this because I can't see for the tears. This was so darn sad and to see how all of you were so upset only got me more upset. I see some of the older episodes and Doug was such a fit, alive guy, how could this have happened?
It made my day to see that Jackie gave the job to you to take care of her spa while she was gone and poor little Rebecca didn't get the job. I could tell she was just a bit upset, poor baby, if Jackie would have made her the boss while she was away it would have only made for bad feelings so she was smart the way she did it. I'm sure you made Jackie proud.
I see that next week is the last show for the season, I hope you guys come back for another season, if you don't I am going to miss you guys so much. I have watched the show since the start and I feel like I kind of know all of you, you have to come back and if for some reason you don't you all have made an impression on me.
Best Wishes on your wedding and I am sure that Doug will be watching you guys, he will be there.
Love the show
A Big Fan
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:07 AM
Debi wrote:
I am sorry for the loss of your best friend. I watch your show every week when I get off work. I wish that there was something the fans could do or to be there for everyone. I send my support through prayer to you and everyone. Be blessed for the time you had and be strong as he would want you to be.
God bless everyone for a great loss for all. As a fan he will be dearly missed.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:08 AM
Joyce wrote:
Dear Brian,
I have been watching this show from the very start, and have enjoyed it tremendously, wouldn't miss it. Over the time that the show has been on, I have started to really be touched by everyones lives. Doug was my favorite, for all the obvious reasons. It was so evident just how special Doug was, just watching the show.I had heard that he died several months ago,
I was shocked, and felt like someone kicked me in the stomach,
it just couldn't be true. I tried to prove that it was just a rumor
by googling his name. When I found out it was true, I actually cried, even though I never knew Doug, it was a loss for all us viewers as well as those of you who actually knew him so well.
I have to tell you that I am so very touched by this latest show
and I wish I could give you a huge hug!
I had to write you and give you my very deepest sympathy, as
you have lost your best friend. The world has lost someone that
made the world a better place. However, it will gain another special person, such as yourself, for striving to carry on Doug's
legacy as well as your own. God Bless you Brian, you are a very special man, and I too feel your sadness.
Thanks for showing us all, your sweet and caring personality!
Peace to you, and I like to think that Doug is with his mom and dad now. Peace to Doug and Much love to you all on Workout.
Love, Joyce Salazar
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:11 AM
Kathie wrote:
Just watched the show last night and I know it's been a while since Doug's passing but I wanted to say to all of you how sorry I am for your loss. Love watching the show and Doug seemed to be such a genuine and kind person. My condolences
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:13 AM
Phyllis wrote:
When I watched that episode last night, I wept like I had not in years. When my brother was 18, he was diagnosed w/a liver disease. It was incurable and only a transplant would work for him but first, he had to become very sick before he would be eliglbe for a transplant. That time came in April of 2000. He was 29, his wife was pregnant with their first child and we though, here we go, his life is going to get so much better.
Well, his body rejected the first liver right away and they only gave him 5 days. Luckily on the 5th day a liver was available. He started to do well, but w/out getting into everything, the hospital made a few mistakes, he was fighting infections, and on July 4th, 2000 a hospital worker made a devasting error while starting his dialysis for the day (when your liver is not working right, neither are your kidneys). My younger brother died that morning, 6 wks after his son was born. Life and that holiday have never been the same. I do not know what all went into how Doug lost his life but the best thing you can do is live your life to its fullest. Educate people on transplant awareness, Donor awareness, and what a bright light Doug was.
I felt your pain yesterday, and his families. I know what pain I went though, but what my mom went through was so much more!!
Take care of yourself. And live life to the fullest. We only go around once, and even if you are 100 yrs old when you pass, it all flies by way too quickly.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:14 AM
Marcus wrote:
Peeler....my opinion of you has totally changed since Season One. You came off last year as some macho smartass know-it-all, but seeing your sensitive and vulnerable sides have been life-affirming. It's so touching that a straight guy like yourself could have such a deep friendship with a gay guy....that doesn't happen very often, I don't think, but then again....you just revealed what a highly-evolved human being you are. We could all learn a lesson or two from you. I hope you are healing from the grief of losing your best friend. Peace.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:14 AM
Sharon wrote:
Brian,
I watched last nights episode sadly. I almost know where you come from. I lost my best friend in March. Her heart was very bad and she just was tired and needed to go home. She was my mentor, role model, friend, confidente, inspiration. I loved her and respected her and truly miss her with each passing day. She was a truly gentle soul.
I could tell just by seeing Doug on the show how caring he was, so gentle, kind, compassionate..... how truly geniune a human being. Know that he will always be close to you no matter. They ware and will always be our lights, examples to follow throughout life.
Also Brian congratulations and best wishes on your next journey through life, your marriage. I wish you plenty of joy, love and laughter.
I admire you Brian and respect you.
Many blessings to you and your wife.
Sharon
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:16 AM
Antonia wrote:
I am sorry for the loss of your friend. He was truly amazing and touching. Last nights episode was very powerful.
Good luck at your wedding, and congratulations!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:21 AM
Deborah wrote:
Brian-
This episode was devastatingly powerful for me. I am so very sorry for your loss, for all the friend's of Doug who've lost him forever. Tears are streaming down my face as I write this.
I lost my