May 1, 2007

This is my favorite episode to date. I usually receive each episode by FedEx before it airs. It gives us time to process and write these blogs. Normally, I find myself ff'ing through some of the slower bits. Well my friends, not this week. My finger didn't touch the ff button once. I sat solo on my couch...and sobbed. I'm not a very emotional person. I process sadness and loss more internally.
Surprised to find myself overcome by the events that transpired; I was touched on many levels. Jackie at the grave with her mom when she said, "Every time I see you I see him". That leveled me.
I think many of us can relate to damage from our childhoods. And as we grow and develop and evolve into the people we want to become, it’s a tremendous relief to know that we have a huge capacity for forgiveness. I find strength and comfort knowing my parents, although far from perfect, did the best they could. I no longer need to carry around their issues or make excuses for my behavior based on childhood events. It’s liberating to take responsibility for who I am and let go. It does not serve any of us to hold on to pain from our past.











Comments
Dana wrote:
IM GLAD YOU POSTED THE LIP GLOSS INQUIRY!!!
Your lips are shiny and pouty (if that's even a word) lol.
Rebecca-
I think you've taken the NYC gay world by storm...that's ALL I will say.
PS the episode with the fondue set where you had chocolate on your teeth...GROSS lol...BUT FUNNY and that's why you're a goof
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:18 PM
ayesha wrote:
Hey Rebecca,
Tonight's episode was very hard to watch. So I can only imagine what it was like to find out about Doug's condition with the cameras rolling. He seemed to have such a warm spirit and I was saddened to hear of his passing.
I was glad to see Jackie do some healing. I loved that her mom told her she was proud of her. That must have felt great. We didn't see much of your beautiful face in this episode. Although you did make me chuckle when you put on the pouty face in Jackie's office. I totally get what you mean when you wrote that it would have been nice for her to ask, just so you could say, "I don't think I'm the best choice!" Silly woman. You make me smile in every episode. I am so bummed that next week is the finale. will there be a season 3?
as for your lips, all I have to say is........DAMN!!!
That means they look great btw. ta ta for now.
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:35 PM
Malia wrote:
Hey Rebecca,
I just wanted to say that I totally admire your sincerity and honesty regarding this episode...especially your comments about childhood in your blog. I'm sure it was a very trying time for you all regarding Doug. I haven't watched it yet cause I'm in Hawaii and we're 3 hours behind, but I will with tissues close by. I know he passed months ago, but my sincere condolences to you all. Looking forward to more "happy" episodes to come :D Take care....
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:39 PM
Jody wrote:
Rebecca,
I completely agree with your attitude on how our parents did the best they could. I too, no longer need to make excuses for the actions. I can fully admit that I do and feel certain ways because I was treated a certain way by my parents. What I do have some trouble with though, is changing how I act, and react in situations based on what I went through.
PLease don't think I am saying that my parents were/are horrible.
I think body image for me, is the hardest to get over. My father wopuld ALWAYS let me know when I wasn't perfect enough, therefore, I will never be.
The thing that was probably the hardest to deal with ( for me personally ) was the realization that they weren't always right, and didn't always have the best answer. I spent several years very angry because I felt almost mislead. Like I was giving them credit where credit was NOT due. This manifested when I started to see an ugly side to me at times, and I realised that this was learned behavior.
Anyways, kudos to you for being able to overcome that and just be you. I admire that, and plan to look to you each week in hope of finding some of that attitude for myself.
Sincerely,
Jody
posted on May 1, 2007 at 11:46 PM
Marnee wrote:
I was really proud of you tonight. You're a good man, with a good heart. Thank you for revealing to us what you're made of. Best wishes to you and your bride on your upcoming nuptuals.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:23 AM
jessica wrote:
I am so sorry about Doug. when i saw the preview for this week i cried. and rhen i saw the show and i couldnt stop crying when Brin broke the news to yall.
Thats how i am i very open when i see someone cry even if i dont know them, I can feel there pain caues we all lose some one we really care about and its almost always the nice ones, and even though it doesnt seem far we all have to keep going for them.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:34 AM
Monica Monroe wrote:
I'm gonna miss the show after next week.. They love it on my website.... Comeback Please
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:05 AM
Corey Donboli wrote:
Hey Rebecca,
Ugh- I tried to record this episode, but it was not working. I will have to watch it when it re-runs tomorrow or whenever I can. I am wondering when this all took place? Was it last year, or last month or something?
I loved what you said about taking responsibility for your actions, and not blaming your parents for the way you are today. I try to live this way too. A great way for me to look at it, is to look at the way my parents were raised- all the mistakes, trials and tribs etc. from their childhood.....then I look at the way they raised us (there's 4 of us)- and they are successful in changing history. They did not repeat the same mistakes their parents made = success! They made some new "mistakes," for lack of a better word, but those are mine to make sure not to repeat...and so the story goes.
Even though I was unable to view the episode, I could see on the guide(ten minutes ago) the topic- I was speechless. Last weeks episode gave some tidbits regarding this week, and I thought there was no way Doug could have died. Maybe he was sicker, something, but Doug passing away is a tragedy. Was Doug HIV +? I see his foundation gives donations to HIV related area, but I was not sure if he was +.
I am sorry for all of your loss. I am sure the gym is mourning tremendously.
I just had to remind myself that you and I are not friends....:) I have watched the show for so long that I feel like we are friends. Ha ha. I love the show and feel like I am there half the time, the only problem is none of you can see me...it is like I am on the outside looking in.
Take care~Corey
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:57 AM
kelly wrote:
Hey Rebecca. Wow...what a touching episode. Each week I look forward to reading your blog because it is like a Work Out smorgasbord.
Keep up the great blogging!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:18 AM
Angel wrote:
You crack me up! I absolutely love you on the show. You remind me of my own friends...confident, strong and outspoken. Plus, you're beautiful. I never cared for reality tv because it just seemed so fake, but you never come across as putting on a show for the camera. You're always so down to earth. Your hotness inspires me to work out. Hopefully I don't lose sight of that once the season ends!
Keep it real,
~Angel
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:24 AM
susank wrote:
I heard you say that he could come back...I think I would have said the same thing. Celebrating his memory... Im sure he appreciates that...but just keep on doin it. You two do look sweet together...I think I remember days like that...lol Just keep celebrating doug...it will help
posted on May 2, 2007 at 3:00 AM
Kris Sargent wrote:
Rebecca ,
Don't listen to the haters!!! Jackie likes you and that is all that matters in YOUR relationship. I think your fun and live life to the fullest keep doing what you do, You add a spark of light to the show.
See you next season.... Take care of you!!
posted on May 2, 2007 at 3:01 AM
R. Christian Anderson wrote:
Rebecca, I think it says a lot about you when this was your favorite episode. After all, you are not really featured in this one. You did a great job writing your feelings out. I am also glad you are still so close to Jackie.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 4:38 AM
Bruce wrote:
Rebecca: First, again, condolences on the loss of Doug. He was a gentle, wonderful person. How horribly ironic to watch the birthday party episode and hear utter the line "this is my last birthday". As for the final episode coming, it's coming way too fast. What will I do on Tuesday nights without you and the gang at SkySport & Spa?! It would be great to have a "live" wrap up show like they do on the Real Housewives of Orange County.
Best of luck to you with your ongoing relationship with Jackie. I can't get over how spunky you are. Truly a beautiful woman inside and out. Continued happiness to you and your gang.
Bruce.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:04 AM
Shirley wrote:
Hang in there girl! I found myself in tears right along with the group. I really feel for you guys. It is never easy to lose someone you love!!
Shirley
Kansas City
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:29 AM
Minerva wrote:
Hi Rebecca
I just want to say that it was a very touching episode. I found myself crying because I lived in a very disfunction house hold and a very painful one, but I when to therapy and I was able to let it go and move on. Life is what you make to be and carrying baggage is not going to help. When you see Jackie just hold her and let her know that she has a friend to lean on, don't be afraid to show her love.
P.S I want to see more ROMANCE BETWEEN YOU TWO.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 9:33 AM
MilitaryMuscle wrote:
WOW..what a tear jerker last night! I had kind of known threw a friend that Doug had passed on but I still didn't believe it. And when the screen shoot up the dates of his short lived life I stood up from the couch and yelled out loud..NO! I am a late bloomer to this show and only saw a few episodes with him in it and I could tell he was a real caring and loving person. You are definitely my favorite on the show and look forward to seeing more of you in Season 3.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:37 PM
Brandy McEvers wrote:
Rebecca, I tivo'd this episode and just watched it this morning. I am so saddened to hear of your loss and cant begin to know what it is like to lose such a vital componet to your team. The good thing is that you guys will pull together and support each other in the same way Doug would do. What a great example he gave to you guys. I have been whatching since the beginning and love you guys and the dynamics of your relationships. You and Jackie are my favorites (even before you started dating) I am petite like you and am working with a trainer here in St Louis to look even half way like you do. What does it take to maintain your body now that you have it? Have a great day, brandy
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:37 PM
Dana M wrote:
Your comments in two areas in particular are so fantastic. Taking responsibility for your life is a great thing, not blaming your past, is something many people don't do. I also agree with your assessment of who was put in charge. There are times when putting someone who isn't the most responsible in charge will have them rise to the occasion...not always, but it certainly paid off this time.
I'm sad for all of you in the loss of Doug. I cried as I watched Brian telling you all Doug's condition, and again when I saw his birth/death dates at the end of the episode. I hope the memory of Doug will bring you happiness. Peace.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 12:59 PM
carley wrote:
Wow, what an episode. I have to admit there were parts I had to change the channel during, because the scenes with Jacquie and her mom was too close to heart. I have issues to deal with because of both my parents, but my father died so my mom is burdened with all of my anger in regards to my childhood. At the same time though your whole blog in regards to forgiveness and letting go is exactly where I'm at in life. It's kind of like what you said, "It does not serve any of us to hold on to pain from our past." On a lighter note, this is my first comment, and I just wanted to say I think you are hilarious and love reading your blogs....."CRACK is WHACK"....hehe luv it :)
posted on May 2, 2007 at 1:48 PM
Iowa wrote:
Hi,
All I can say is great blog... you said it all about emotions
Mich
posted on May 2, 2007 at 2:55 PM
LINDA ANN wrote:
HEY little "tree monkey" I MEAN REBECCA;
SORRY I COULD NOT RESIST;THAT WAS SO FUNNY WHEN JACKIE SAID YOU'RE LIKE A LITTLE TREE MONKEY. BUT HELL I'D LATCH ON TO HER TOO!!! SO YOU GO GIRL. I HATE TO SEE JACKIE SAD OR UPSET. SO GIVE HER SOME LOVIN. YOU TWO LOOK LIKE YOU HAVE SO MUCH FUN TOGETHER. YOU MAKE HER LAUGH!!! LOVE SEEING YOU GUYS TOGETHER. (SINCE YOU LIKE ACRYNOMS) LOL FROM THE GIRLS IN DELAWARE. HOPE TO MET YOU ALSO WHEN I COME OUT TO CALIFORNIA NEXT JUNE FOR A WORKOUT SESSION WITH JACKIE. WHO KNOWS MAYBE WE ALL CAN GO TO A LESBIAN BAR FOR A DRINK. I'M DFW (HA,HA)
posted on May 2, 2007 at 4:53 PM
Steph wrote:
Thanks for the lip gloss tip. I was thinking the same thing! What color lip fusion?
posted on May 2, 2007 at 7:51 PM
KathyO wrote:
Rebecca, first of all what strikes me about you is your incredible humor! It appeals to my intellectual side and I GET it...reading your blogs are the most fun because your spin is hilarious in a very simply stated way. Not to mention that you are naturally beautiful and have the most engaing smile. Last night episode made me cry like a baby. My heart goes out to everyone there. p.s my trainer's butt is not as nice as yours...can you speak to her???
posted on May 2, 2007 at 8:03 PM
Esther wrote:
I would also recommend lancome juicy tubes, perfect for an evening pout.. So ya I do not do this blog thing, but your show really just makes me want to comment. It seems strange that we know so much about your life, and are commenting on it, but you know nothing of ours lol. Well I did want to say that tonight's episode truly made me cry. I think it just really struck a chord in the sense that everyone has these issues, and any empathetic person watching can truly say that they cried watching all you guys go through what you did. In regards to what you said about carrying around your parents issues, ya and just being able to eventually let those go, that's big, and even though I am younger and still in college, I already see myself being able to that.. So it's great that you take the time to write this blog. Think you and the show are fabulous :)
posted on May 2, 2007 at 8:45 PM
Muscle Chik wrote:
First off i think your awsome ! Though completely unaware of it you've helped me and probably so many others. Its nice to see someone so much like me... your energetic, fun, childish yet completely sweet and sensitive! These traits are all too familiar :)
Ps: What Astrology Sign are you ???
posted on May 2, 2007 at 10:08 PM
Lisa wrote:
"I was with Jackie at my place when Peeler called with the news of Doug’s passing. "
Rebecca, you might want to read Jackie's blog, because on hers she says she was in Ohio with the crew, not back in LA with you, when she got the news...so maybe one of them needs a little editing? Not trying to diss the show at all, because it was so moving...but it seems like the memories might have gotten a bit mixed up.
Powerful show though.
posted on May 2, 2007 at 10:48 PM
Johanna wrote:
Is it really you??? hahaha... hola desde San Antonio! hahaha :)
posted on May 2, 2007 at 10:51 PM
Angels in Phoenix wrote:
Rebecca,
I wanted to tell you, you are a beautiful woman. It's hard in any relationship in lfe espically being excepted by the political parties and being gay! I wish you well and I watch every episode. Keep your chin up... :)
posted on May 2, 2007 at 11:40 PM
Lisa wrote:
Rebecca-
I think you are the coolest girl ever! I'm straight, and even I want to make out with you! By the way, Lip Fusion is also available at select Bath & Body Works stores. I can't wait to see what else happens between you & Jackie.
best wishes,
lisa xo
posted on May 3, 2007 at 12:09 AM
endia wrote:
Rebecca, please tell me that the rumors of you writing a tell-all of all of the hollywood personalities you've slept with is false. Is that why you got involved with Jackie? If so, it's truly distasteful.
posted on May 3, 2007 at 9:16 AM
Melissa wrote:
Rebecca! You are such a beautiful girl and I love watching you and Jackie together. And you have amazing hair! I'm wondering if you are a Leo. I'm retarded about horoscopes, so I apologize...but Leo's are supposed to have great hair, as you do. Anyways, I did notice that you were kind of emotional-less when Peeler was telling all you about Doug's status in the hospital...but that is your own way of dealing and processing what was happending to Doug. Doug seemed like such a genuine guy, I want you to know that I am sorry for his loss and pray for all of you at SkySport. Also, I noticed that you were on the Bean infomercials...just thought, I'd throw that out.
posted on May 3, 2007 at 12:00 PM
sandra wrote:
Honey,
you make everything about you. Even when you speak of Doug. Read the other blogs, they were about Doug! I hope you outgrow that- hmmmmm, .
posted on May 3, 2007 at 12:25 PM
tzipi wrote:
Rebecca. i think you veryyyyyy sexy . you look so good
i love you . love jackie. love you all.
i watch the show every tuesday night i can't beleive doug's gone.
posted on May 3, 2007 at 12:36 PM
Marianne wrote:
Wow what a show. So much going on...you guys must get overwhelmed. Its hard from a watching perspective to catch the timing of everything...I give up sometimes... and just enjoy the show tremendously. I watch the episodes between my clients. I am privleged to work out of my home. Blessing to all about doug, he seemed like an incredible man.
How are things with Jackie, has being involved with a lesbian altered your life or thinking in any way? You gals look great together...you seem to be a great compliment to her, funny, sexy and fit...what a package.
I love the more romantic stuff...and the workouts always make me get on the bike and pedal.! Keep up the great work.
posted on May 3, 2007 at 1:52 PM
Marty in Columbus Ohio wrote:
I love you Rebecca, you are goofy and funny just like me. I alos love your shiney lips..ha ha
posted on May 3, 2007 at 2:18 PM
De wrote:
Watching this recent episode of workout was truely touching. I was shocked to hear about Dougs death. It taught me that life is so short and it should be enjoyed. On another note you and Jackie are sooo cute i think you two should get married lol. I love the show and i hope there will be another season.
posted on May 3, 2007 at 3:32 PM
kinney wrote:
Rebecca, Look at the title of everyone's blog! Everyone made it about Doug except YOU, who made it about "you." I THEN went on to read the blogs and you did the same in your blog, no one else did, they wrote about Dougs feelings and persona. you wrote about how it affected you. That is what is so annoying about you. It's all about you....
posted on May 3, 2007 at 4:16 PM
Jenny from GA wrote:
You are such a beautiful person inside and out, this is such a mature and beautiful blog entry. It takes a strong person to let go of their pain, and you are a strong person for admitting to it.
posted on May 3, 2007 at 10:35 PM
Leah wrote:
Hey Rebecca. I just wanted to say that I love the show and you seem really cool. And I love that you used 'ya'll', that cracks me up. I can't believe there's only one more episode left.
posted on May 3, 2007 at 11:04 PM
southerngirl wrote:
I have never posted a blog before but I love the show and I feel compelled to reach out to it in some way. I'll make this short and sweet. I love that you say y'all on the show and write it in your blog. I admire your courage to explore something so personal and intimate while millions watch. I would love to know more about the french fry/steak comparison (I laughed out loud when I heard that) and I am dying to know the current status of the JackBecca power couple - are y'all hot and heavy or what?!?!?
Oh, one more thing - did I see you on an Infomercial for some kind of Bean???? :-)
posted on May 4, 2007 at 12:42 AM
Rosemary wrote:
hi R
I am confused about why a strong healthy guy like Doug would have liver failure. Did i miss something about his medical history?
Please explain.
posted on May 4, 2007 at 2:29 AM
Jenn wrote:
Hey Rebecca,
I was sadded by last week eposide.... He will be rememebered as a wonderful person and inspired a lot of people. I love your personality!!!! Dont ever change for who you are!!! I would love to have you to train me. I definetely need AB workout after having a 2 year old daughter! Wished there was a Sky Sport and Spa in Florida!!!
Would love to see you and Jackie together more. You guys are a great match!!!
Hope there will be Season 3 coming up!!!
posted on May 4, 2007 at 1:28 PM
Vanessa wrote:
I actually just started watching this show and its amazing. I kept watching for you actually. I think your a beautiful girl with absolutely a phenominal body. To see you and Jackie together blew me away and all I will say is GoD!!!!! I wish I was Jackie :-)
posted on May 4, 2007 at 2:23 PM
Holly V. wrote:
Rebecca,
You are the cutest thing ever, and deserve to be with Jackie. I don't know if you can see it from my point of view because I only watch the show..but you two act so...happy around one another. I hope things work out between the both of you!!
I am so sorry about Doug...honestly...why do people apologize? It doesn't take the pain away...I know how you guys feel. My cousin passed away in October...on his 23 birthday. It changed the person I am, and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. I never went to church before...and my cousins death has brought my faith closer to God. He is my Angel..and Doug is yours!
Sincerely,
Holly from Michigan
posted on May 4, 2007 at 7:56 PM
Kristine wrote:
I cried my eyes out durring this episode, from the time Jackie visited her dad's gravesite till the absolute end. I'm curious to know if season one and two will ever be available on DVD? is season one already availale to buy on DVD?
posted on May 5, 2007 at 12:52 AM
Liz wrote:
I'm confused by some peoples' comments I thought the purpose of a blog was to write about yourself....I write a blog on myspace, and it's about me :) Ultimately I read the sky sport's blogs to find out more about them, and how they felt about a certain episode or something that happened behind the camera. So, Rebecca, even though I know you don't let what people say bother you I just wanted to say I love your blogs because you make them personal don't change a thing. ;)
posted on May 5, 2007 at 2:41 AM
Wanda wrote:
Greetings from the Caribbean Rebecca! 1st time visiting you blog. Of course - u are my favorite @ workout..maybe because i can relate to you SO much. I too have a bad filter and stuff just comes out raw straight from my inner being to the outside work. Needless to say that doesn't always goes well with others. I too am very comfortable with nudity or sexuality..im a biologist so it's all natural and all good to me. I too speak of sex as if no big deal...its part of life right? so why be so anal retentive about it? So Rebecca...im glad you have matured so much since last season. I didn't see you and Jackie together @ all last season cause...you like guys and were VERY open about how you felt about that (so do i)..but i CAN see why you have fallen for her 'cause she is a great gal. Heck im straight and i think she is adorable. I love her streght, her drive-i think she is a GREAT role model for girls, women and of course the gay/lesbian community. I particularly love that under all her toght outter shell she is sweet, sensitive, has her weaknesses and and an over all lovely human being. I so happy she dealt with her father's loss and she and her have bonded. She deserves that! Nice gal...who deserves some one nice, sweet, funny, energetic, smart, driven ...YOU. I'm glad your sould have met and some thing special has grown. God Bless to you both! I sincerelly hope it works out for the long run!
A BIG HUG from Puerto Rico! - Wanda
ps. I'm sorry for your loss. Dough will be missed my all of us as well. About the show: Yeah..this season, the show is WAAAY better than last season.
PPS. Yeam im soooo happy Mimi is out of the picture - what a brat! she did not deserve Jackie
posted on May 5, 2007 at 2:00 PM
sherelle wrote:
Hey Rebecca. First off, I am so sorry for the loss of Doug. Though this happened back in January and you've had time to heal, it must be hard to have to "re-live" it.
On another note, you are so cute. The chemistry between you and Jackie is so palpable, even through a television set. I wish you two the best of luck. I can't believe there is only one episode left...it should be a crime. Only eight episodes???...come on ! You guys should get 20. Well, I really hope there is a season three.
Take care Rebecca.
posted on May 5, 2007 at 2:40 PM
kelly wrote:
Hey Rebecca,
Lip Fusion Rocks...love the little tingles.
posted on May 5, 2007 at 9:14 PM
Jessica e. wrote:
My Lip Gloss be Poppin..(haha..funny song that is kinda relavent)
Yeah I been thinking alot of this week of not blaming my dad for things in the past. It is just hard at this time because I still live at home and I am twenty, finishing up community college, and asking what I am doing. This past week my dad ask me if I am going to be one of those people that is going to blame him for everything when I am forty!! I hope I comes amends with my past before then.
SO thanks for saying stuff about that in your blog. I liked this blog, it was a bit personal, like about you get the fedex before.. I get curiouse about things.. SO now my curious george sense can rest for the night. SO long and thanks for letting us get to know you.
Peace
Jessica e.
posted on May 6, 2007 at 12:17 AM
Minerva wrote:
Hi Rebcca:
I just wanted to tell you I am sorry about my puppy eyes Doug. take it a day at a time , and let his memories live in your heart and your mind and think about the good times and that now he is in a better place.
P.S I used to call him my puppy eyes Doug. because he had the most beautiful sad looking eyes , I justed loved him.
posted on May 6, 2007 at 12:43 AM
Holly Black wrote:
Hi Rebecca, I do like you but you make me happy when you are so defensive about your realationship with Jackie. I do agree with you about learning to forgive and move on about childhood problems. I go thru this everyday of my life. I have some horrible things happened to me in the past and right now I am willing to forget and move on from it. I am also going thru some news things in my life and it is hard cause I am very shy about meeting people to date. I don't know who I want really cause I do like mens and women on somedays. Sometimes I would have creepy feeling about mens and womens. I like you and Jackie really well. I just wish I could be there with you guys. In my world there is so many disappointment about family and friends. I hope you Skygym staff well and sorry about the passing of Doug.
posted on May 6, 2007 at 8:38 PM
Mark wrote:
Your adorable and extremely attractive all in one Babe
posted on May 7, 2007 at 9:39 AM
melissa wrote:
hey Rebecca i love the show i watch it all the time. i try to take ya'lls work out advice as well as everyday advice. I cried when i heard about Doug. i love the way ya'll stick together. i hope one day i can meet you and your friends. i'm on a diet and when i loose the weight i want i'm going to try to get the money to visit. take care and stay blessed.
posted on May 7, 2007 at 9:52 AM
deb wrote:
So, tomorrow night is the seasone finale... Looks like there isnt going to be much in the line of your relationship with Jackie.... Are you still dating, having fun together?
Hope so... You guys make an adorable couple!
posted on May 7, 2007 at 7:12 PM
chris wrote:
Rebecca - I have to say I had an attitude about you until I read the blog today. Your insight surprised and impressed me.
I can relate to Jesse and his feelings of being threatened by your relationship with Jackie. All I can say is if it rises to the top with him again, try and be more understanding. It seems as though for a long time he felt as though he had her all to himself, and then suddenly you're stepping in. Great for you and Jackie, I can see that, but try a little empathy on, and put yourself in his shoes.
posted on May 7, 2007 at 7:26 PM
msnj wrote:
Rebecca,
I just started watching this season and I am hooked on the show...and was sad to find out Doug had passed away. He seemed such a genuinely nice person. I would've loved to have met him. It must be difficult to go through that with cameras in your face. On a lighter note, Tiffiny works at Sky? Saw her picture as one of the trainers on the gym's website. Must be awkward for you. Looking forward to the reunion episode and season 3. TTFN,
posted on May 8, 2007 at 2:08 AM
Kerry wrote:
please make a season 3!!!! i LOVE the show!!!!
Ker
posted on May 8, 2007 at 1:27 PM
YES wrote:
wow, ur show is amazing i think ur hot by the way
posted on May 8, 2007 at 5:16 PM
Lib wrote:
Whatever happened to Rebecca's boyfriend (mentioned last season)?? Also, is it me or were there fewer episodes this season? I love this show. It inspires me to workout! I sure miss Doug...what a sweetheart! Strange that he was there with his friend who had kidney failure and then Doug ended up with the same :(
Lib
posted on May 8, 2007 at 8:07 PM
sly wrote:
great episode...captured the heart of us all...may Doug rest in peace.
posted on May 8, 2007 at 9:14 PM
Ashley wrote:
I love you on the show you remind me of me, your cute and fun, check out my myspace and add me if you have one :) love yah
posted on May 8, 2007 at 9:17 PM
nicole wrote:
hi.... all i have to say is wow the shows amazing and the only reason i really watch it is to see you cuz ur like extremely hott like foreal but i thought i would tell you something funny...... the episode with the fondue was great for various reasons one being that i so would have made out with you lol and two i randomly said that mean while my g/f was sitting next to me watching it and she goes no i would so make out with jackie lol so we watch the show together every tuesday night just to see u two lol but i think ur amazing and that there should be a sesion 3 but have more sences of u and jackie!!! and the news about doug was really sad exspecially how unexpected it was....
posted on May 8, 2007 at 11:24 PM
Minerva wrote:
HI Rebecca
I just want to say the last episode was so good. I juat can believe that kiki did not take this progaram seriously and that is too bad because she looked bigger. I juat want to tell you that you and Jackie look so good together and it looks like Jackie is falling for you and why not you are so beautiful and you care about her and I think she sees that about you and that is so important. You Have a good soul never change that about yourself. We never know what the future lays for us, but we must enjoy the moment and live for today because tommorrow is never promise to us.
posted on May 8, 2007 at 11:28 PM
Minerva wrote:
HI Rebecca
I just want to say the last episode was so good. I juat can believe that kiki did not take this progaram seriously and that is too bad because she looked bigger. I juat want to tell you that you and Jackie look so good together and it looks like Jackie is falling for you and why not you are so beautiful and you care about her and I think she sees that about you and that is so important. You Have a good soul never change that about yourself. We never know what the future lays for us, but we must enjoy the moment and live for today because tommorrow is never promise to us.
posted on May 8, 2007 at 11:28 PM
steve y. wrote:
hey, i've been watching the show for the past 2 seasons, and it just hit me that your my cousin, so hows the family? how is show bizz? say hi to larry, lucy, and david. hope to hear from you soon.
posted on May 8, 2007 at 11:37 PM
JESS wrote:
REBECCA U R THE REASON I TUNE IN. U ALWAYS MAKE ME LAUGH. LIFTS ME AFTER A LONG DAY
posted on May 8, 2007 at 11:39 PM
Fred in Nashville wrote:
Rebecca, I'm 46 and I haven't done much posting in blogs, maybe its a generation thing? But I had to write and say I was so moved by your playfullness with Jackie. Happiness is something none of us should be without.
In the beginning I thought you were too much of a flirt. Your attire showed us alittle bit too much of your backside in earlier episodes. I thought your were kindof trashy, but my opinion of you has changed as the season progressed.
Your maturity showed in your handling of Jesse' verbal attack, BRAVO! And not crying foul when Jackie selected Brian to cover for her when she went back home to Fairborn. You spoke your mind to Jackie about the episode and also spoke of your feelings toward her.
Your impulsiveness is turning into charm.
Hope you enjoy the steak fries.
posted on May 9, 2007 at 12:19 AM
Sher wrote:
I just wanted to share something with you after watching the season finale.
I always thought how cute you were this season, so funny, so upbeat, just darling. But tonight I witnessed a part of you emerge that you probably should have kept under wraps. I was so turned off by you once you decided to personally attack Tiffany. By saying what you did about her just reduced you as a human being and also exposed how truly insecure and jealous you are of her. If you had just said "Gee, I have no clue what Jackie see's in her" I would have still been on your side. But all you achieved tonight was to attack someone that has done nothing to you.
Best of luck to you.
posted on May 9, 2007 at 2:03 AM
mARIA wrote:
Rebecca,
I would like to say sorry for your lost I know how hard that could impact. I would also like to say that jackie seem like a great person,and I would like for you to think about what is right for you are you sure that this is what you want with Jackie.Happiness is inward, and not outward;and so Rebecca it does not depend on what we have, but on what we are. I had watch the show seen the beging and I have to say it has been a great show SHOCKING @ times but good hey did not stop me from watching it so that is a good thing. I wish you all the best in whatever comes in your path but just remember always that sweet are the thoughts that savor content; but the quiet mind Rebecca is richer than a crown.
posted on May 9, 2007 at 10:28 AM
Rachel wrote:
Rebecca,
You're an amazing, beautiful woman who has great drive and determination in life as well as a big heart. I have really enjoyed watching the show and HOPE there is a season 3!!! I can't wait! Thank you for letting us see the real you on the show and best of luck in all future endeavors!
OOYF (one of your fans ;-)
Rachel
P.S. Thanks for the lipgloss info!
posted on May 9, 2007 at 12:06 PM
Susie wrote:
Sorry, I had to make a correction. On down the blog someone said that Jackie said she was in Ohio when she heard the news about Doug. Incorrect. On last night's show, she said that she was at Rebecca's when she found out about his passing. Just had to make the recored straight.
posted on May 9, 2007 at 12:35 PM
Remi wrote:
Hey, Miss Rebecca!!!
WOW!!! I don't actually know you, but feel as if I do. I wanted to add to your many fans who adore you -- YOUR attitude about EVERYTHING that wasn't deleted from what we ACTUALLY saw on t.v. was more than a little inspiring.
Your attitude about the LITTLE things (taking responsibility) to EVERYDAY LIFE. WOW.
Your relationship from your clients to dealing with the actual NIPPY-like snaps -- from little four-legged creatures (Jackie's babies) or Jesse the Jealous Girlfriend. YOU ROCK, GIRL!!! ROTG, LMAO!!!
Thank-you for augmenting gravity with the glass of water and directing the contents (water) into Little Miss Jesse's face. I think he needed a little 'attitud e adjustment' just then.
I think by now you know that your relationship with Jackie is truly WONDERFUL. Thank you for allowing us to observe. It gives the rest of us hope that LOVE does exist. Yes, it was AWESOME to see that Jackie LET Mimi 'exit stage left' and let you enter. (Tiffany appears to be a nice person, BUT I do believe YOU are the twinkle in her eyes!!!)
I just wanted to let you know that I loved your comments from the "LIP GLOSS" to Doug's passing (most disturbing) -- and from a hetero female fan, once again, YOU ROCK!!!
**Remi ;)
posted on May 10, 2007 at 1:33 AM
sarah griffin wrote:
I really liked that episode too. I love your character it's much like mine. I hope that you and Jackie will work out no pun intendid.I think your think your really pretty, plus i no you have a great ass. Good luck with your career. When you have time please e-mail me back. I never had a famous person e-,ail me before and that would make my life. Hears my e-mail if you can, smsbff@doglover.com.
posted on May 17, 2007 at 5:34 PM
taryn wrote:
WOW... rebecca, you do not come across on the show as very deep, but this blog really affected me!! I have just been sorting thru some parental "garbage" and your blog was just what a needed to hear!
thanks
posted on May 20, 2007 at 6:09 AM
Kelsey Harshman #5 wrote:
Wow you have alot of comments...so are you and Jackie still together i just wondering..? I told only 3 ppl that im lezbian and it was scary...
Later,
Kelsey H.
posted on May 24, 2007 at 11:48 AM