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Just back to LA from a trip to the east coast and I was at a Phillys baseball game when the reunion show aired. Have yet to see it myself, but I'm hoping you enjoyed watching. What a season huh?? Just want to quickly say thank you again for allowing us to be part of your lives these past couple of months. This blogging biz is a new thing for me ... but I dig it. Its kinda like letting everyone read your diary.
Farewell my friends until season three...be true to yourselves and be patient with each other.
All my love,
xo Rebecca
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Its funny ... we film and film and film ... for months, and then bam it comes and goes in a blink! Such is life. Before I get into the final episode I sincerely want to thank all of you for watching, supporting and providing such insightful feedback. Some good, some bad, some ugly ... ALL of it I love! So thank you for letting us come into your homes each week allowing us to share our lives with you. It has been quit a journey and I'm glad we could do it together.
Great end of the season ... I thought this episode had a little bit of everything. The entire opening, honoring Doug and his life and his legacy, was beautiful. I remember that day vividly. It was filled with a plethora of laughter. We were celebrating Doug's life ... and all that he was ... and all that he still...]]>
This is my favorite episode to date. I usually receive each episode by FedEx before it airs. It gives us time to process and write these blogs. Normally, I find myself ff'ing through some of the slower bits. Well my friends, not this week. My finger didn't touch the ff button once. I sat solo on my couch...and sobbed. I'm not a very emotional person. I process sadness and loss more internally.
Surprised to find myself overcome by the events that transpired; I was touched on many levels. Jackie at the grave with her mom when she said, "Every time I see you I see him". That leveled me.
I think many of us can relate to damage from our childhoods. And as we grow and develop and evolve into the people we want to become, it’s a tremendous relief to know that we have a huge capacity for forgiveness. I find strength and...]]>
I truly believe it is impossible to hurt or offend someone with words unless the person being attacked believes, on some level, that the insults are true. I also believe when you engage in name calling...nine times out of ten...what your saying is really a projection of how you feel about yourself. I try to make it a practice in life, which I have yet to master, to ask myself and get real with myself if the anger I feel toward someone is really about him or her. I slipped up. I let Jesse's words in for a second and that gave them power. It is none...]]>
Again … Thank you so so so much for your comments. I read every single one and I appreciate the heartfelt feedback.
I watched last week’s episode in a sports bar in Vail, Colorado with my mom. It was so cute because I had to give her the heads-up before any kissing scenes so she could prepare herself. I think it’s unnatural for parents to watch their children make-out on national TV. I asked her if it would be as unsettling if it were a man I was kissing ... and she said yes.
I get it. I would sooner lay down in traffic then watch my parents or any other family member passionately kiss ANYONE. EWWWW!
But I digress ... back to episode 5!
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Oh joy, another scene were I'm stuffing my face! Is it as fun for ya'll to watch me eat...]]>
I was really interested to see how the sushi scene was going to play out this week. I thoroughly enjoyed watching myself talk with a full mouth of food...good times!
When Tiffany came in I thought it was odd, only because it was all trainers, but I was honestly not bothered for a second. Jackie and Tiffany have a history and I respect what they share. There is zero jealousy between us; it's more playful banter. No spite or contempt...EVER!
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Emotionally, Jackie and I are very connected. I can only speak for myself, but I was happily exploring this newfound admiration that I had never experienced prior. The trainers’ reactions in retrospect were somewhat understandable. I didn't really appreciate the approach that Jesse took in questioning us -- it felt very dark. Like he was coming from a place of jealously rather than concern for...]]>
I'm often asked if its weird to see myself on TV and I always say it's comparable to watching a home video. In fact, the only difference is that sometimes people will come up to me in the grocery store perplexed as to why they know me. Hee hee ... makes me giggle!
Episode three ... oy ... where to begin??
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There seems to be more focus on Jackie and myself than in the past episodes. There were weeks of bonding that really sealed our relationship in between filming -- so when camera time resumed, we were super comfortable with each other and I think that translates.
Watching the dog washing scene makes me shvitz a little. Those dogs hate my guts! And Jackie gets sick pleasure...]]>
I love how this episode starts off with the break-up of Jackie and Mimi. It’s nice to have that dark part extricated. And then Jackie can start off fresh. I think that will resonate with viewers.
For people who are wondering about Jackie and me, we come together in this episode out of absolute respect and camaraderie. I think that, also, because of me opening my eyes to the lesbian world. It’s a really welcoming environment. It’s something I’ve never experienced before. I have questions; and I’m asking them. That’s sort of what happens with Victoria when she comes to train with me.
But before that, going out with Jackie into that world was very fun. We have a playful sexual energy starting to happen. Was I aware of it developing at the time? I think yes. When we’re together there’s just a natural flirtatiousness that comes out. She’s very adamant about...]]>
Some of the things that you see I didn’t know about. Like Jackie and Mimi in therapy. You hear about things not going so well, but you don’t know for sure. Those scenes are very uncomfortable to watch. I think we all relate to having dysfunctional relationships. Watching that, it’s like: Oh god, I’ve been there. Doesn’t matter if it’s a woman and a woman or a man and a man. We’ve all been there. We can relate.
I’m like Mimi – at least when I was young – because I would be the one who walked out.
The scenes with Doug are very hard. He’s such a gentle soul. To see him with Chao is really powerful. I think of myself as a really strong person but that choked...]]>
