Sometimes it feels like shooting Y&R makes me miss out on all the fun. After seeing what went down in Mexico without me, I feel very lucky I had to work.
I’ve been continuing to process my grief with the help of my wonderful therapist Kelly. Right now, I’m grieving the loss of my mother while trying to be a mother. Raising another teenager is already hard. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t worried about how my emotions affect Jesse. Kelly has been helping me see that denying my grief is not the answer. It’s a journey! But so is life.
While I was at work, and the other girls were drinking margaritas and jet skiing in Mexico, Lisa R. and Camille were in New York with their daughters. It’s crazy that Delilah and Mason are both finding success in modeling. These girls are making being in a big time fashion show look like something that’s easy when it’s really not. No matter who you are, or who your parents may be, it’s not easy getting work in this world. When I was that age, I was barely able to stand up in front of the class and give an oral report! I can’t imagine walking the runway in front of hundreds of people. I’m so happy for and proud of them.
Didn’t Dorit say that she was done talking behind people’s backs last week? I guess she wasn’t. At the group dinner in Mexico, Dorit brought up Lisa R.’s pill bag again. She didn’t mention how enthusiastically she had laughed and declared her love for Lisa R. about the Xanax joke or that the bag of pills was really a bag of vitamins. Furthermore, she’d already used this gossip on Lisa Vanderpump last week. So at dinner, Dorit and Lisa V. both knew the truth but chose not to clarify. The way it was talked about totally misrepresented the situation. Like anyone needed to add more fuel to this fire!
I’m calling Kelly to see if I can get a Groupon for therapy. I know of at least one other woman that could use a session or two.