Matt, Mood Boards, and Marfa

Courtney explains how she made the best of all the stressful situations this week.

"Let's Just Make the Most of It"

When it comes to life and rough situations, my mother taught me one valuable lesson: MAKE THE MOST OF IT… And in tonight's episode of Courtney Loves Dallas, you see me do just that in several rough situations.

Let's walk through them, shall we?!

Rough Situation #1: The Matt Drama

Exes really know how to suck the life out of you, don't they?! And when it comes to playing with your emotions, they are quite genius. At the end of last week's episode, y'all were left with seeing me walk away from Matt Nordgren after he told me that we had "nothing." And I was happy with that decision. I had gone to dinner with the attitude of "let's MAKE THE MOST OF IT," and when I felt defeated, I exited. And I could've left it that. But one would think that when he chased me and then called over, and over, and over again that I would crumble and be putty in his hands again…BUT NO. Not only was I emotionally exhausted, but I was embarrassed… embarrassed that I hadn't seen him before for what he really was: Matt was all talk and no action. I had given him years of my life and I was done. D.O.N.E. And at that point there was nothing left to do than say goodbye.

Rough Situation #2: Bauble Bar Presentation

When it comes to work, I am typically great at leaving my personal life at the door, but coming off the heels of the Matt drama, I was flustered and overwhelmed, and in over my head…but thank God I hired my new assistant, Shannon, at the perfect time! She was really able to step in and help me reign it all in and stay organized for my big Bauble Bar presentation! I had been asked to create "mood boards" to present the collection via Skype (mind you I had no idea what a "mood board" was and still, quite frankly, have no idea!) but there was no way I could've made them all in such a short time frame (mind you: Mom's surgery recovery, the Matt dinner, and the Bauble Bar presentation were all within about 72 hours!). Despite my lack of creativity and artistic ability, I was hoping I could talk enough to distract them from the mess that was my "mood boards"…God might not have blessed me with the ability to draw, but he certainly blessed me with the ability to talk…so what else is there to do than MAKE THE MOST of what you've got! And that's exactly what I did, and thankfully, it worked!

Rough Situation #3: Girls Trip to Marfa

After the hellish week I had (Mom's surgery, Matt dinner, Bauble Bar stress, etc.), a girls’ trip with my best friends was exactly what I needed to revitalize and get my head back on straight -- good idea, Tori! Marfa was a small town in Texas that I had seen pictures and read stories about, but honestly when we got there, I felt like I had dragged the girls 8 hours away for nothing. Thankfully, despite the bicycle debacle and the awkward dinner, the Prada exhibit was the icing on the cake to make everything better! And honestly, I had my 3 best friends, no responsibilities, and no babies, so it was the perfect opportunity to, yep, you guessed it: MAKE THE MOST OF IT!

 

So there's only 2 episodes left of Courtney Loves Dallas, but still so much more to come! Stay tuned to see how the Bauble Bar collaboration turns out…find out about another job that I get to add to my already busy plate…plus, see what happens when things get heated during a fight with Tori!

And, as always, see all the details about my outfits on my blog, www.thecourtneykerr.com!

xo,
Courtney

 

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Meeting the Fake Matt

Courtney dishes on her bizarre dinner with Matt.

"Love Can Make You Crazy"

I should've listened to their advice. I should've trusted that my friends saw something in Matt that was enough to warrant a red flag.

Coulda, woulda, shoulda…right? Isn't hind-sight when it comes to your exes always 20/20? It certainly is…but apparently Matt and I never had a relationship.

Going into this dinner with him, I really wanted answers. That's ultimately the only reason I agreed to go in the first place. I wanted him to tell me why he disappeared. I wanted him to look me in the eyes and tell me that what we had was real. I wanted him to look me in the eyes and explain his side of the story. But I never could have been prepared for how he made me feel like this whole relationship was made up in my head.

Sitting at this dinner was like sitting across from a person I had never met. Yes, there were moments in the evening that I caught glimpses of the man I used to know: The man who was my best friend for a long time, the man who I had spent hours and hours laughing and talking with, the man who I had put on a pedestal, and the man who I use to be in love with. But now, all I saw was someone who was fake…someone who I barely knew anymore, and who barely knew me. It was bizarre.

And strangely, in that moment when he said we had "nothing," yes, a part of me was saddened, but a part of me was relieved. I finally saw the part of Matt that I had been warned about…he finally showed me his true colors. And that's the only answer I needed in that moment. I could've yelled at him, called him a bastard, and asked him to explain his reasoning, but we would have just gone round and round in circles. It was done. He and I were done and I was emotionally drained, and all I could do was get up and walk away from him…forever.

But in a surprising twist, he came after me. The old Courtney would've turned around and listened to Matt, but the new Courtney… Well, I have too much self-respect now to let myself voluntarily get treated that way by someone who said he loved me. And you will have to wait another week to see how it eventually all went down…

 

In other news, I was so excited to add an intern, Shannon, to my growing brand! You will see much more of her in the next couple episodes and be able to see how our relationship evolves. She is definitely my right hand gal when it comes to work, and Shannon still works for me as my assistant to this day!

See y'all next week (I promise the Matt thing is almost over!) as me and my best friends take a road trip…and I almost get arrested! And don't forget, for all my looks from this episode (and more!), go to www.thecourtneykerr.com!

xo,
CK

 

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