I’d planned for us to rest, feast, meditate, explore, and shoot at sunrise and sunset, when it’s cool enough to venture out and the light is magical. But Markus had a breakdown, overwhelmed with fear for his life and anger at me for endangering us and making him see poverty and suffering that he’d never imagined. He refused to see the beauty, refused to eat, criticized what I held most dear, and demanded to leave as soon as possible. He insisted “its like a war zone,” and he succeeded in making it feel that way by pushing us to shoot in the midday sun, after 3 days’ travel without sleep, Markus without food, without assistants, and with so much angst between us.
I’ve experienced all kinds of stress in front of the camera, but this was ridiculous. Shooting a self-portrait for a major fashion campaign in hideously harsh high noon sun, broiling in a plastic raincoat, without assistants, unable to see the results, while my photo partner freaked out about imaginary bugs, unaware of the critters that could really kill. Doing my own makeup and feeling it dripping off, while fabulous hairstylist Ward had no electricity for his tools or fans, just his livingproof products and a palm leaf fan to save the hair day. All while flouting my traditional family’s customs of modesty, as they worriedly watched us fight. It was too much for me! But GK understood us all, and brought us back to our senses, even staying up all night to calm Markus’ fears. When I overcame my self-righteous anger and regained compassion for Markus’ pain, Markus found his strength too, from having survived. We are proud that even in our toughest situation, our client Thuy was thrilled with the images, continuing our unbroken record of successful shoots.
The children at SEEschool brought us all closer than ever, inspiring us with the miracle of their happiness and learning in spite of their difficult lives. The trip helped us all to put our troubles in perspective and realize how fortunate we all are to be blessed with the ability to easily and dramatically improve the lives of these beautiful people. It helped us all to grow, to work harder towards overcoming ego, anger, and the fear that hampers our work, and to increase our understanding of each other as individuals and as artists.
We’re learning to balance our passion for our photography with the other things that are important, like financial security, communicating calmly, and broadening our inspirations. Visiting GK backstage at the fashion shows was a turning point for us, since we opened ourselves up as a team to being creatively inspired by the fashion process and trusting in our ability to do successful shoots without torturing ourselves. Fashion Week’s Fern Mallis, Cosmo’s editor-in-chief Kate White, and fashion director Michelle McCool are great role models, elegantly articulating their objectives, cool with artistic eccentricities, and encouraging sexy fun images. Beautiful Anna Lynne McCord was provocative in pictures, and super-sweet in person, a delightful combination.
I hope that you return to television very soon. You, Markus,and GK are enlightening, interesting personalities, and have great chemistry whenever you are together. As a teacher in a New York City school, I have delt with many students with terrible problems. Markus is right when he said it felt like a "war zone", but like you I never gave up on these children. I hope that you continue your great work and look forward to seeing the entire cast very soon on television. Double Exposure was one of the best viewing that I have seen this year.
Indrani, I just appreciate your show so much. I love how you showed us your home, it was so magnificent. The grandeur of its past is something to be proud of.
You were so beautiful in your pictures. It brought a tear to my eye when I saw you at the school you and your father started. I loved your smiling face in the picture with the children.
I wrote on GK's blog, that was also for you.
All my friends are shocked that was the last episode! It feels like the show just began, we just started to get to know you. Where can we find out more about you? You're fascinating, and so are GK and Markus, and your dad! What great characters! I love that you can bridge the world of fashion and philanthropy so passionately. Your all a great inspiration. The best show on TV!
Love the show. Nearly hyperventilated when I saw you on Larry King Live. I wanna be like you! I can't wait to watch Season 2, and to read your book. I need more Indrani! And GK and Marcus too.