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Dr. Eris: No Sex, No Baby

Dr. Greg: The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

Dr. Eris: How Can I Change My Spouse?

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Power Struggles

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Dr. Eris: How to Heal Your Broken Heart

The V Spot: The "Nice Guy"

5 Ways To Improve Body Image Without Breast Impants

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Dr. Greg: Accepting My Father

Dr. Greg: Yes -- Therapists Go to Therapy!

Dr. Greg: Why Hate Fat People?

Dr. Eris: "Sharing My Story Out Loud Scared The S--- Out Of Me"

Dr. Greg: The Trap of "Good" vs. "Bad"

Dr. Greg: My Father's Courage

Dr. Greg: What Being "Monogamish" Really Means

Dr. Eris: No Sex, No Baby

Eris is frank about her and her husband's desire to have a baby before it might be too late.

 

Hi there! Hopefully you’re reading this because you just met me through the lens of Bravo’s LA Shrinks. Thank you for your love and support. I am so grateful for your kind words and emails. Stick around online and on Monday nights, and we’ll get to know each other better. 

A lot has happened in the past week since the first episode aired. It’s been a whirlwind not only with friends, family, and viewers asking about different aspects of the show, but also with my clients that I see every week. They all got a peek into our lives, and one thing you realize fast is when you share your life with the world, they’re going to want to share back. In my profession, that’s a good thing.   

A little bit about my professional life is that I am a licensed marriage and family therapist in the state of California. I have a Doctorate Degree in Marriage and Family Therapy and a Master’s Degree in Counseling Psychology. I work with people, from all walks of life, toward making positive and lasting life changes.

Not only do I love what I do, but I take my profession of therapy very seriously. Some viewers ask why I would open myself up in this way and do this show. That’s an easy answer: because I want to help people. I want people to see that it’s OK to seek help if you hit a roadblock. Even I do too. Helping others through difficult times is what is most important and personal to me. 

Ah, those personal issues. Therapists needing their own therapists! Of course we do. There are misconceptions that those in my profession don’t need to be helped themselves. Or, that we have to be fully whole, with all of the answers, and not working on ourselves. This is not the case in our profession. Did you know that to become a California licensed therapist we need to spend 3,000 hours in therapy, and it’s suggested that part of those hours are spent with ourselves being in therapy? We want to dispel the myth that therapy is only for those with “serious” issues. It would be like a dentist never going to the dentist, or a doctor never getting yearly checkups.This first week I also learned why actors don’t like to watch their movies or see their reviews. That was a difficult one. Clayton said to me, “I come off like I don’t want a baby,” and I replied, “It looks like you and I jumped into the marriage without talking about the baby issue ever!”  

The question that some of you are asking is, “Can you do the same for yourself as you do for your clients?” Of course I can! I experience struggles just like you do. I experience shame and fear. In fact, the story that you are seeing about the disconnection my husband, the most important person to me, and I are experiencing makes me feel embarrassed. I hope you can see that we are confronted with an issue and that we are working on it. 

Likewise, I am trusting viewers understand what I am going through, and many other women too. There has been a lot of talk out there about me wanting a child and my husband not wanting the same. Clayton and I asked each other, “Are viewers misunderstanding and thinking we never had ‘the talk’ about children before we got married?” Of course we did! We’ve always talked about having two kids. If that’s the plan, then why the sudden baby fever and biological clock pounding in my head? 

Like many couples, in the eight years we’ve been together, I’ve spent evenings getting my doctorate and days with my practice -- Clayton runs his own company which is not a 40 or even 60-hour-a-week job as many small business owners know. Time and schedules got away from us. It’s like we finally came up for air and then oops... baby issue….

So here we are a few years older, and it’s simply a matter of let’s connect, just ourselves, for a few months and get that going strong again before we bring on the stress (and the fun) of making a baby. Sure, friends that are parents offer up to us that the “timing is never right,” and while the time is definitely soon, Clayton was reasonable in saying let’s let that decision breathe for a second. Welcome to Episode 1… with me the panicked wife saying, “I want a baby now,” and a husband saying, “Yikes, no way.” Oh, my.  The problem is that I am 38 (at the time of filming.) Tick tock tick tock. I am experiencing the baby gap -- a void, chasm and space where there’s something missing. There is an internal panic that I am running out of time. In clinical terms: anxiety.  

When I see myself on the show and hear my words of wanting a baby, I am pushed to tears. These feelings are very real. I become afraid when I think of my girlfriend who has had five miscarriages in a row after 40, and at 42, she still doesn’t have a baby. Or my other friend who froze her eggs and now at the age of 45, still single, is not taking to the IVF treatments. Right now I am holding onto the positive fact that two other of my closest girlfriends got pregnant at the age of 39 and 42 and have beautiful and healthy babies.

I look back at the last 20 years of my life and see that I have chosen freedom to follow my dreams and come this far in my career. I’ve gone through life with the mindset that so many women in my generation have started their families later due to the result of a combination of increased economic power, later marriage, the two-income family, the high cost of childcare, longevity, and a culture that rewards female independence, individualism and a strong career identity. 

But, then a darker, extremely painful side in waiting to conceive sets in. This is where the panic takes over and any logical “smart” thinking, that my husband has, goes out the window. I stop believing that I need to be financially stable, have the perfect house, work less, and that I don’t want my child to be raised by a nanny. Instead, I start listening to what my mother is telling me: don’t wait any longer. You’ll regret it. 

Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock…

While Clayton looks at the external factors that come into play with having a child, I consider that Mother Nature doesn’t always cooperate. All of us women have heard the bleak statistics—that women over 40 have only a five percent chance of conceiving every month; as opposed to a 20 percent chance each month for women 30 years of age--the risks of chromosomal abnormalities and pregnancy ending in miscarriage increasing. And the only guarantee with IVF treatments is that they cost tens of thousands of dollars. I have no control over biology. And these facts freak me out.My current situation feels like its nature's cruel joke on women, and the last thing I want is for it to get in the way of my marriage -- a marriage that we both cherish based on being each other’s best friends. So let’s see what the future holds. Will the miracle of science even out the playing field? (After all, men can impregnate a woman at a ripe old age of 80 just as long as his swimmers are still active.) Will we get some important alone time to connect in the midst of a reality show? (You can bet on that.)  And if I don’t get to have a baby (though the truth is that right now I can’t bear the thought of thinking that I might never have a baby), how will I settle that reality with the dreams I’ve long held? 

I am not without hope. Years of my practice have shown me that a new day always dawns. After eight years of being together, we still feel that our relationship is young and healthy. And I sense that my body, inside, is pretty young and healthy too. 

I hope you tune in and see what happens next. I hope in some way what we go through ourselves and with our clients helps you to feel that whatever you may be facing, there’s always a solution and someone to help you through it, be they friends, family or even an LA Shrink!

 

Dr. Eris: How to Heal Your Broken Heart

Dr. Eris shares how she broke up with the idea that she was not enough.

Oftentimes, individuals come to see me as a therapist after they have experienced a break-up or divorce. Break-ups can be traumatic. They can lead us to adopt beliefs that keep us in fear, make us feel like we will be alone forever, and lend us thoughts that lead us from one bad relationship to the next. We begin to believe that what we want is not possible and that we are on our own in this world. I know what you are going through I've been where you are. You're not alone.

I have been lied to, cheated on, deceived, coerced, cajoled, tricked, cast aside, seduced, corrupted, convinced, and manipulated. I stayed in my victimhood relationship after relationship, attracting the same kind of men over and over again. All of my princes turned into frogs. I was living in La La Land believing that some day I would find a prince who whould stay a prince, only to be let down time and time again.  

That I chose these men, or let them choose me, was not their fault. At the time, I was unable to see the relationships for what they were and my part in them. When enough was enough for me, I decided to allow the Sleeping Beauty within me to wake up and recognize that I had been repeating the same patterns over and over again. The only reason I was living in a romanticized fantasy of what the relationship coulda, shoulda, woulda been. I was driven and bound by my emotions, which distored the reality that kept me off balance. I realized that by living in my victimhood I had been disempowering myself. I felt my gut telling me that there was a way out of feeling the way I did and it was time for me to get it together.

I had to break up with the idea that I am not enough. I had to determine that I deserved better than the type of men that I was attracting into my life. But first I had to experience a solid relationship with myself. How can you possibly know what you want out of life if you don’t know who you are?

My client, Katie, experienced the same thing. She originally came to me to heal her broken heart after another tragic break-up. She wanted to start changing her beliefs and patterns and start attracting a different type of man into her life. She didn’t know how to go about doing this and wanted my help. 

These are the tools that I share with my clients to help them through a difficult break-up. Even if you are not going through a break-up in a romantic relationship, you might be going through one with a friend, a job, or something personal. These tools can also work for you. 

Nine steps to go from Break UP to Break THROUGH and Beyond:

1. It's a Break-UP not a BreakDOWN

• Your relationship ending does not mean that your life is over. It means that it is just about to begin.

• Get yourself a journal or small notebook, which I call YOUR BOOK. Write a gratitude list of at least 10 things that you are grateful for. This will help you to focus on the positive things in your life and take the edge off the heaviness that you might be feeling. 

2. Stop Looking At Their Social Media

• Do not go on your ex’s social media pages. It’s really not worth it. There is absolutely nothing you can gain. Nothing. 

3. Spend Time Alone with Me, Myself, and I

• Many people ask the question, “Why do I need to spend time alone?” The answer is simple: because it is essential for your growth and well being.

• A lot of times when a relationship ends we are left with a lot of emotional clutter. Spring cleaning doesn’t just have to come once a year. Sometimes relationships fail in the fall. So, cleanse your environment. Don’t just sweep things under the rug. Get rid of things that negatively remind you of your past non-constructive way (i.e. pictures in picture frame, his favorite t-shirt that you hang onto and sleep in every night.) 

• And remember all work and no play make Jack and Jill a dull boy and girl. Write down your Top Ten List of things to do alone. Now, do them! 4. Stop Tripping Out and Let Go of that Baggage

• Stop blaming everything in your past and grow up. You can’t change your past, but YOU can change. Connect to your past but don’t let it rule your present life and future. You can’t change your past, but YOU can change your future.

• Start taking care of your inner child so that you can start letting the adult in you take charge. You can start by writing your inner child a letter. Write from the perspective of the parent you want to be. Write it from your heart. 

5. I’m Free to Do What I Want Any Ol' Time. So, Get Up and Get Out!

• Start reconnecting to your life and have some fun. 

•Go out and have some fun -- either alone or with friends and family. Just do it. Get involved in social activities you enjoy (visit new places, concerts, museums, take a class, travel). Make a list of 10 things that you have always wanted to do with your friends. Now grab a friend and go do it.

6. Say, “Thank You. Thank You. Thank You”

• It may seem harder to find gratitude in times of trouble. But, if you do you will be giving yourself the greatest gift of all. 

• Know and remember this: each and every person you allow to enter your life is a mirror reflection of something in you. This is a gift for you to understand and get to know more parts of yourself. Write a list of the gifts that you have received from your relationship.

7. You Are Here. Start Map Questing Your Future

• You gotta see it to be it. So, be it. 

1. Write down your goal.

2. Write down the steps that you need to take to get there. 

3. Now take those steps.

8. Love Yourself 

• Bottom line is you must love yourself first before you can ever love anyone else. 

9. Date Consciously 

• When you are ready to move forward and start dating again, go for it! Be sure to do your research on the person and yourself so that you don’t continue to repeat the same behaviors and patterns the next time around. 

For more information on how to heal your broken heart after a breakup, check out my book, Break-Up Emergency. A guide to transform your Break-UP into a Break THROUGH.