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Shocked!: Amanda talks about her elimination and Salome's comments about her in front of the judges.

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Make Me A Supermodel

Amanda

When I woke up, I was determined to rock the photo shoot, whatever it was going to be. As Tyson and Nicole told us that it was going to be a nude shoot and all about the accessories, I was a little nervous. My one and only insecurity in the competition was getting nude because I’m not fully comfortable with my body. But I put all of my inhibitions aside and walked into the photo shoot confident. And the more I faked it, the more the confidence became real. Now, I’m completely comfortable with my body. It feels great to finally love my own skin. Not to mention, I felt great in the actual shoot. I’m praying to God that I took a good picture. I need this to stay here another week.

Nicole came and showed me my picture … and I was very disappointed. At the photo shoot, I could see my frames coming up on the screen and I was amazed with what I saw, so when I saw the picture the photographer picked, I guess I didn’t really understand. I’m anticipating going into the elimination being in the bottom now. But I do think there are a few people that deserve to go home before me.

It’s runway day and we see Nicole walking down the runway with a fish bowl over her head. So I’m thinking “What?” We do the practice run and it’s way harder than it looks. The glass bowl weighs a good 20-25 lbs and is messing up my balance. I definitely have my work cut out for me. But to make matters worse, they tell us we would have 30 butterflies inside the bowl!!! Regardless of how hard this was with butterflies flying around hitting my face, I really felt like I did a good job on the catwalk. At deliberation, I’m talking to the judges and Salome interrupts and says that she’s sick of me “complaining” and “making excuses,” which is ridiculous! Even the judges backed me up saying that I was just answering their questions. Salome is really on her last string with me. She is fake and disrespectful. I have really held my composure with her, and feel that at this point, I’m about to snap. The judges had a lot of really good things to say about me. They liked my picture and everyone liked my walk except for Perou (which isn’t surprising because he loves to hate everyone).

In the end the judges decided to send me home. Looking back I still don’t really know why I was kicked off. That’s how reality TV goes though. I definitely think out of all the people still left, I could work just as much, if not more. I’m still very shocked.

But, for every bad thing I could say not being on the show, there are ten more good things that I’ve taken from this experience. Even though there was a lot of drama in the house and the competition was tough, I loved every minute of it. I know this isn’t the end for me. The last thing I said to the judges was, “You might not be able to make me into a supermodel, but you made me into a damn good model.”

And it’s soooo true. I’m not done trying to pursue my dream. This experience has made me even more hungry. I’m so thankful for being able to be here. I’ve got my whole life ahead of me.

Comments

26 Comments

: 02/08/2010 - 10:02pm; hahaha no; I used to work with Amanda in the Portland area. She was always a very sweet girl, so I assume she still is. ;)

: 06/04/2009 - 9:04am; Viewer; Okay, you made a stupid point about homosexuality. You are young. You will learn. I believe that you are a good person. I never heard you talk smack about anyone else, while Jordon and Mountaha (sp?) were hateful mean girls. And that so-called supermodel guest judge (I've never seen her before this show) was a mean girl too when she implied that you were crying to get sympathy, when you were actually having a real mom moment. I thought you held yourself very well amidst a lot of nasty people.

: 06/02/2009 - 11:56pm; Jilly bean; You are very beautiful girl and good model. I like your look, women like you, look best in Vogue. Keep modeling you should be able to book shows and don't let anyone stand in your way.

05/28/2009 - 12:46am

Katarina

Regardless of your ridiculous comment about walking naked in front of your child to prevent homosexuality...you are rather talented. I can understand why you were eliminated, but I'm sure you'll do fine.

Just fix the outlook on the gay thing. Especially if you want to model.

: 05/14/2009 - 7:52pm; Viewer; nice girl you are, i understood completely why you were eliminated; you hadnt performed well for weeks, and you were given chance after chance- this last week you performed mediocre again, at best, and noone praised you, so it was your time to go. i agree with salome, even though i think shes fake as all getout too, that you do tend to make excuses. however, i think you do have a solid future ahead of you.

05/14/2009 - 4:47pm

Leslie in AK

Amanda, I was heartbroken when they let you go. I thought your exit was classy and sincere. I know you are going to go places, and in my heart you already are a supermodel mom...it's your spirit that counts. I am praying for Jordan...she really annoys me and I think Catherine said it best in her comment. I am glad this abusive show is over for you, it was horrific to watch sometimes! But guess what I tuned in this week just becasue I wanted to see Jordan get the boot!

hahahahahaha....it was awesome...her arrogant attitude is what did her in...I was so happy. I think I am rooting for Sandhurst now...I don't really care for any of the girls...you were the prettiest by far with the most class...GO FOR IT...you deserve the best!

: 05/14/2009 - 2:43am; caroline; Leave the girl alone! she just doesnot want her baby to be gay. What is wrong with that! I sure she still loves gay people. Yeah Jordan is gone!

: 05/13/2009 - 11:47pm; Missy Kay; Amanda I am really sad to see you go. I as a mom I don't want my boys to see make naked. My body is down right awful and if that was first nude they saw well they would need therapy. People read into your comment the wrong way. People are born homosexual and seeing their parent naked wouldn't change anything. PS DOWN WITH JORDAN

: 05/12/2009 - 3:59pm; Viewer; I can't believe you said that being naked in front of your son stops him from being gay. "No offense" but you need to get your facts straight. How does that even make sense?

: 05/11/2009 - 6:03pm; Viewer; I'm definitely gonna miss you, you Jonathan and Branden have been my faves through out the competition, and you were definitely the only real girl left in the house. I said this in another blog and i'll say it again, the judges do not give you enough credit at all. They say you have no presence? are they kidding? seriously, you're the hottest one there and honestly i think your walk is pretty damn good; it was definitely a lot better than jordan's she looked really uncomfortable. Yes, that gay comment was pretty stupid and unnecessary i have to agree with that. But besides that, you're one real chick, and in my opinion one of the front runners who just didn't get recognized. Keep followin your dreams I believe you can do it.