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Make Me A Supermodel
Amanda

When I woke up, I was determined to rock the photo shoot, whatever it was going to be. As Tyson and Nicole told us that it was going to be a nude shoot and all about the accessories, I was a little nervous. My one and only insecurity in the competition was getting nude because I’m not fully comfortable with my body. But I put all of my inhibitions aside and walked into the photo shoot confident. And the more I faked it, the more the confidence became real. Now, I’m completely comfortable with my body. It feels great to finally love my own skin. Not to mention, I felt great in the actual shoot. I’m praying to God that I took a good picture. I need this to stay here another week. 

Nicole came and showed me my picture … and I was very disappointed. At the photo shoot, I could see my frames coming up on the screen and I was amazed with what I saw, so when I saw the picture the photographer picked, I guess I didn’t really understand. I’m anticipating going into the elimination being in the bottom now.  But I do think there are a few people that deserve to go home before me.

It’s runway day and we see Nicole walking down the runway with a fish bowl over her head.  So I’m thinking “What?” We do the practice run and it’s way harder than it looks. The glass bowl weighs a good 20-25 lbs and is messing up my balance. I definitely have my work cut out for me. But to make matters worse, they tell us we would have 30 butterflies inside the bowl!!!  Regardless of how hard this was with butterflies flying around hitting my face, I really felt like I did a good job on the catwalk. At deliberation, I’m talking to the judges and Salome interrupts and says that she’s sick of me “complaining” and “making excuses,” which is ridiculous! Even the judges backed me up saying that I was just answering their questions. Salome is really on her last string with me. She is fake and disrespectful. I have really held my composure with her, and feel that at this point, I’m about to snap. The judges had a lot of really good things to say about me. They liked my picture and everyone liked my walk except for Perou (which isn’t surprising because he loves to hate everyone).

In the end the judges decided to send me home. Looking back I still don’t really know why I was kicked off. That’s how reality TV goes though. I definitely think out of all the people still left, I could work just as much, if not more. I’m still very shocked.

But, for every bad thing I could say not being on the show, there are ten more good things that I’ve taken from this experience. Even though there was a lot of drama in the house and the competition was tough, I loved every minute of it. I know this isn’t the end for me. The last thing I said to the judges was, “You might not be able to make me into a supermodel, but you made me into a damn good model.”

And it’s soooo true. I’m not done trying to pursue my dream. This experience has made me even more hungry.  I’m so thankful for being able to be here. I’ve got my whole life ahead of me.

Comments

25 Comments
06/04/2009 - 8:04am
Viewer

Okay, you made a stupid point about homosexuality. You are young. You will learn. I believe that you are a good person. I never heard you talk smack about anyone else, while Jordon and Mountaha (sp?) were hateful mean girls. And that so-called supermodel guest judge (I've never seen her before this show) was a mean girl too when she implied that you were crying to get sympathy, when you were actually having a real mom moment. I thought you held yourself very well amidst a lot of nasty people.

06/02/2009 - 10:56pm
Jilly bean

You are very beautiful girl and good model. I like your look, women like you, look best in Vogue. Keep modeling you should be able to book shows and don't let anyone stand in your way.

05/27/2009 - 11:46pm
Katarina

Regardless of your ridiculous comment about walking naked in front of your child to prevent homosexuality...you are rather talented. I can understand why you were eliminated, but I'm sure you'll do fine.

Just fix the outlook on the gay thing. Especially if you want to model.

05/14/2009 - 6:52pm
Viewer

nice girl you are, i understood completely why you were eliminated; you hadnt performed well for weeks, and you were given chance after chance- this last week you performed mediocre again, at best, and noone praised you, so it was your time to go. i agree with salome, even though i think shes fake as all getout too, that you do tend to make excuses. however, i think you do have a solid future ahead of you.

05/14/2009 - 3:47pm
Leslie in AK

Amanda, I was heartbroken when they let you go. I thought your exit was classy and sincere. I know you are going to go places, and in my heart you already are a supermodel mom...it's your spirit that counts. I am praying for Jordan...she really annoys me and I think Catherine said it best in her comment. I am glad this abusive show is over for you, it was horrific to watch sometimes! But guess what I tuned in this week just becasue I wanted to see Jordan get the boot!

hahahahahaha....it was awesome...her arrogant attitude is what did her in...I was so happy. I think I am rooting for Sandhurst now...I don't really care for any of the girls...you were the prettiest by far with the most class...GO FOR IT...you deserve the best!

05/14/2009 - 1:43am
caroline

Leave the girl alone! she just doesnot want her baby to be gay. What is wrong with that! I sure she still loves gay people. Yeah Jordan is gone!

05/13/2009 - 10:47pm
Missy Kay

Amanda I am really sad to see you go. I as a mom I don't want my boys to see make naked. My body is down right awful and if that was first nude they saw well they would need therapy. People read into your comment the wrong way. People are born homosexual and seeing their parent naked wouldn't change anything. PS DOWN WITH JORDAN

05/12/2009 - 2:59pm
Viewer

I can't believe you said that being naked in front of your son stops him from being gay. "No offense" but you need to get your facts straight. How does that even make sense?

05/11/2009 - 5:03pm
Viewer

I'm definitely gonna miss you, you Jonathan and Branden have been my faves through out the competition, and you were definitely the only real girl left in the house. I said this in another blog and i'll say it again, the judges do not give you enough credit at all. They say you have no presence? are they kidding? seriously, you're the hottest one there and honestly i think your walk is pretty damn good; it was definitely a lot better than jordan's she looked really uncomfortable. Yes, that gay comment was pretty stupid and unnecessary i have to agree with that. But besides that, you're one real chick, and in my opinion one of the front runners who just didn't get recognized. Keep followin your dreams I believe you can do it.

05/11/2009 - 9:43am
Viewer

You are the only girl in the show who actually looks good and takes good photos. Go after you dream!!

05/10/2009 - 11:52pm
Kai

As a single mom of a son, I was hoping Amanda would go far in the competition. But she really bummed me out with her homophobic comment about being naked in front of her son. Lose the small town mentality before you move to the city girlfriend! Plus, show some respect to all the gay men who did your styling and made those designer clothes you wore. Duh!

05/10/2009 - 3:26pm
Viewer

Amanda,

I'm so sad to see you go. I truly wanted you and Jonathan at the end; not for your children but for the people you are and the people you portray in your photos. I may not be a leader in the modeling industry, but girl... they have chosen some rancid photos over yours for the weekly winner. In my humble opinion, I believe you ARE a winner and WILL make it! Don't worry about watching the shows back; you portrayed yourself with grace and poise and should be proud of yourself. Keep following your pathway and you and your son will be great! You have given your son something beautiful; the proof that anything can happen and that you need to keep working to fulfill those dreams; never give up!!! You are beautiful inside and out!! I'll be crossing my fingers with you that Amanda is sent home next!!!!

05/10/2009 - 1:20pm
kareem c.

FYI walking in front of you child naked won't stop him from being gay. The funny thing is if doing this or not doing this was a determining factor on one's sexual orientation then you might want to stop because the last thing a person want's to have an engrained memory of while they are with a woman, is their mother walking around the house naked while they were a child. If anything this would make him gay, or give him many trips to see a psychologist.

05/10/2009 - 10:29am
Megan

sallome has alot of issues with her body and has the worst attitude about her modeling. just because she was raised in an amish family or whatever doesnt make her better than everyone. she needs to keep her opinions to herself and lose some weight.
best of luck, keep modeling!

05/09/2009 - 5:39pm
Viewer

Amanda,

If you are concerned about your son being influenced into being gay, then, you are in the wrong business! Homosexuals are born homosexuals.

05/09/2009 - 3:02pm
Viewer

good luck.

05/09/2009 - 2:30pm
Paula

I was very sad to see you go. I think you have great potential. You have more poise and grace than most of the other models. Jordan could really learn something from you! I hope you continue to pursue modeling, I think with a little more guidance you could go far. Good-luck and God Bless You!

05/09/2009 - 1:39pm
catherine

Amanda
i really did not like you the entire time you were on the show but i just watched your exit interviews and was once again reminded how editing can really affect the way you are perceived.You seemed sweet, real, and articulate in the interviews and rarely said "like". It's a shame to me now that you were eliminated and Jordan is still there. Plain and simple she's a bitch!! The most beautiful girl in the world is only as pretty as her soul and Jordan has a very black ,hateful spirit that I feel will hamper her chances of becoming a supermodel. Good Luck to you and your son...oh and i loved your parting comment to the judges,that definantly showed alot of class

05/09/2009 - 1:07am
Jeff

Amanda, you are awesome. Come do a promo for us. We can't pay you a lot cuz we shot our wad on another super gorgeous, totally natural, intelligent model, but we can pay for airfare, meals and babysitting for that future heterosexual son of yours.

Sincerely,
Jeff Tamarind
National Organization for Marriage

05/08/2009 - 9:42pm
Ryann

NO matter what..
I support u,keep going ,Amanda!

05/08/2009 - 12:54pm
Leah

I agree with Ron.
Why would you brag that you purposly walk naked in front of your son? How on earth would that determine someones sexual orientation?
Anyway.....

Also dissapointed,

Leah

05/08/2009 - 2:07am
sue

WTG Amanda!! I am so proud of you trying to do all that they asked. I am certain I will see your face again in the near future, keep hanging in there and persuing. I had really hoped you'd take it all but still I admire how you left with dignity. I do wish ha Jorden would fall flat on her face and bust that smutty, hatefull mouth of hers. Every week I keep hoping they will eliminate her. I shall have to root for the guys, Johnathan or Sandhurst I think one of them should win it.

05/08/2009 - 1:01am
Viewer

I was SOOOOOOOOOO sad to see you go!!! You were the only real true female left on the show...Now I hope a guy wins!! Yes keep pursuing your dream! Great things are bound to happen!!

05/07/2009 - 11:51pm
Ron

I was very offended by Amanda's comment about being naked in front of her son so he does not turn out to be gay ("no offense"). That comment was very ignorant. Whether her son (or anyone's son) is gay has NOTHING to do with whether his mother is or is not naked in front of him. She really needs to get an education.

Disapointed,

Ron

05/07/2009 - 11:33pm
ME

You're just so plain freakin beautiful... and you're a beautifully nice person. And the others, of course they don't get it, because girls with no cares in the world wouldnt understand, the BEAUTIFUL MOTHER with the baby who's ACTUALLY worked hard.

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