First of all, I still can’t believe I’m here!!! This is the most surreal experience. I’m baffled that I was chosen to participate in something like this. I’m excited to see how this is going to change my life.

At the casting special, when Tyson called my name to be on the show, I was SHOCKED!

The first day when I walked to the secret location, I was imagining that there was going to be where we were staying. I never thought we would be doing a photo shoot. I was the first person to pick my partner, and I picked a girl (Kerryn) because I didn’t think anyone else would have a girl/girl duo. But when they let us know we would be in lingerie, I was thinking I made a huge mistake. When two girls are doing a shoot together in risky clothing, it can cross the line into raunchy very easily. So after the shoot was over, I’m not feeling too confident in myself.  But I felt a lot better when we got to see our new home! It’s amazing! It’s exactly how you imagine it to be when you see it on TV.

I thought I would have a problem getting the bed I wanted, and having to fight over the rooms, but it actually went really smoothly and everyone got pretty much what they wanted.

At the first runway show, I was very nervous. I haven’t done a show in a couple years. But the orange dress I got to where was amazing and I felt very confident. The clothes don’t necessarily make you, but they can definitely affect how your attitude and mood is. While I was walking the runway all I could think is “work it!!” I didn’t have such a great photo shoot so I knew I had to bring it on the runway to make sure I stay in the house. When the judges and Tyson let me know that I was safe, I was so relieved! I know now that I have to give my all for next week.

I’m not here for nothing. I left my infant baby boy, so my motivation to do well in this competition is extremely high. We’ll see what happens next week ...