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There's No Crying in Modeling

Amanda regrets crying in front of the judges.

March 23, 2009

Another week, another e-mail telling us we have a photo shoot! We arrive at the location and the photographer of the shoot tells us she wants us to portray a lot of emotion, and that we would be working with a mirror. I know that I have a ton of emotion inside of me so I’m pretty confident that I’ll do really well. I know that I have to rock this shoot because last week everyone thought it was a fluke that I won the photo shoot. I want to prove to everyone that I do deserve to win.

Not to mention there’s a lot of initiative to do well because Nicole told us that the winners could be walking in Montreal Fashion Week!!! I wanted to win sooo bad, it made me even more hungry to know what was at stake. The shoot ended up great, and the photographer even hugged me because she could tell how emotional I was.

Well, it ended up that I won the shoot! That’s twice in a row! I’m so proud of myself! And now I’m going to Montreal!!! Ahhh! This doesn’t seem real at all.

Eight hours later, I’m in Canada and it’s amazing! I’ve never seen anything like it. It’s exactly what you’d expect France to look like.

I go to the casting and end up booking the show to walk in one of the biggest fashion weeks anywhere! This whole experience still feels unreal. After walking in the show, Cory comes backstage and he’d been in the front row watching the show. He said I really surprised him and I looked like a pro. Also, the designer said that he would book me again for his shows! I feel like a real model. I now know that I can actually make it in the real industry. However, when we got back home, everyone in the house was giving me the cold shoulder, like they are jealous that I’ve won the last two photo shoots. It’s definitely really weighing down on me.

At catwalk day, they said they wanted us to be a beautiful freak. I was kind of confused about what they actually wanted us to do, so I kind of went out on the runway like an idiot. Ha! I definitely embarrassed myself. I hope my mom doesn’t watch this episode. However even though I don’t think I did such a great job, I do not think I did what the judges are saying.

The judges said that it looked like cheap porn! That was not my intention at all! I’m a mother, I would never want to portray that. While the judges are talking to me, out of nowhere, I start crying! I think it was everything coming out at once — from the pressures of the whole house, to missing my son, to being yelled at — everything just came rushing out. But I’m not mad it happened, because everyone needs a good cry sometimes. I learned a valuable lesson though: to show no real emotion in front of the judges, and to take their criticism and use it and grow from it. My goal for next week is to try and redeem myself.

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Comments

18 Comments

Maggie's comment was totally uncalled for. People do cry sometimes, especially when they are under the pressure that you and the other contestants are under. She should have had the sensitivity to understand that. And also that other very weird male judge with the glasses...what a wack-job! Wish we could have voted both of them off the show...

I walked away from that episode not thinking any less of you but thinking that beauty is truly only skin deep in the case of Maggie Reiser.

Hey I just want to encourage you to say that your emotion, while not being appropriate for the setting was touching and real. I think the judges are unreasonably harsh (perhaps that is why they were hired) and rude. I hope that Maggie will see what a fool she acted on national television. Not everyone is trying to get something by crying like she may have done. I'm sure she's had her share of tears after all it is the modeling industry. Good Luck

That guest judge was so lame. Everything she said felt like an act of some kind. Like she was waiting for someone to cry just so she could say what she wrote down in her little note book the night before. Pathetic.

Amanda:
Congrats on scoring the gig! That's so awesome that he wants you back in the future. This is where your true supermodeling career begins!
The catwalk part was brutal. Honestly, I thought the porn remark came from out of nowhere. ESPECIALLY because you won the photo shoot! I was so thrown off, it took me a couple second to process it lol.

However, the judges WERE right with the fact that you can't ever let loose your emotions when you're in business mode. It wasn't your fault, per se, but it certainly wasn't okay, either.
Being emotional in itself is absolutely fine, so my suggestion is maybe you should force yourself to deal with it before it's showtime (ie. when you're at the apartment). Maybe you were trying to control yourself when you were back at your place; you probably didn't want to break down with everyone there, but it's certainly better than in front of the judges.
A good cry always makes you feel better; just take care of it before it shows up at the wrong time :)
Can't wait to see your photo next week!

Amanda, never regret showing emotion about your child. There's a cruelness in this show this year that I hate.
Especially that fool judge PURUE??sp? Forget it, you're a beautiful girl who will make it with or without this show.

you did not look porn-ish at all. they were just being bullies. after all of the soft porn shoots they done on that show - your cat walk was rated G!!!!

Amanda,

I am a mother too and I know, it is very difficult to be away from your child, just remember you are doing this for you and your child. I also understand why you cried... You are a mother and the industry you are in is very demanding, again being away from your child for a long period of time can be painful and heartbreaking.. so Crying is okay, its alright and you do not need to regret crying because you miss your child.

The judge that said that was most likely speaking from ignorance. Your emotions are just fine, normal and part of life.

Keep up the great work Amanda.

Amanda, I have never in my life blogged about a tv show until tonight. After I saw how Ms. Rizer and that other "freak" judge critized you, I felt strongly enough to do so. You did not look like porn at all in your walk! It was a little awkward yeah, but overtly sexual?... please. Your photo this week was hands down the best, you're brilliant! As for Ms. Rizer, she's down-right disgusting.

Don't feel bad for showing real emotion. Those judges could learn a lesson from you! Their remarks to you (about cheap porn) were uncalled for and COMPLETELY UNPROFESSIONAL! If they expect you to be professional, the same goes for them. They were totally nasty, You just keep going, girl!

Amanda,
Don't let the haters get you down. I'm sure you'll be in the top three.

Amanda you are kicking butt!!! I'm so so very proud of you!! Those judges are ridiculous. You are a human being. So what if you cried! It's normal to have emotions and it just shows how much you want this!! Keep up the good work! And don't (well the show's already been taped) stoop to Jordan's level! In the video it was SO true when you were on the bus having the conversation about Jordan...she is the S**t talker not you!

Amanda, I disagree with the judges on the "porn" comments and I really think Maggie Rizer was unfair and downright mean. I never thought much of her as a supermodel anyway! You didn't deserve that kind of treatment.

Amanda.. I felt bad for you.. the judges are complete jerks!!! How cold and insensative can that blonde witch be... she is no judge...she is an old ugy witch. Keep doing a great job.

Amanda! you are my f'in FAVORITE. You are so beautiful and what I notice the most is how genuine your personality is. You dont talk sh*t like Jordan (who by the way is super jelous of your talent), you're a well rounded awsome single mom! I wish you the best through the show. Dont let Jordan get to you, she is insecure and would love to get to you! Keep it up girl.

Hi amanda, Its me MaKayla your doing so good!!!!!!!!!! I wish I could see you....your one of the best models!! Jordan doesn't like you at all grr...I can't wait to see you afterwards!!

It seemed like a couple of those judges had it out for you this week! Whatever, it sounds like you are over it and ready to move on. It was really confusing to me that you won the photo shoot with the mirrors and then the judges totally knocked it and questioned your emotion. I think the blond judge should be voted off this week.

HEY Amanda!!! Dont worry about what the other people in the house say or what they think about you. Just always try your best and no matter what dont beat up yourself. of course it is good to challege yourself but dont do it to much because that can be the very thing that breaks you. Also i heard what the judges said and i think that that was uncalled for they made you sound like you did horrible but you really didnt. oh and dont get mad at me but i think that you and Gabriel should TOTALLY go out or do something you guys would be the cutest couple EVER. Well i hope i helped you feel better. BYE dont let me down!!!!!

OMG... I cannot believe the judges didnt even let you explain when you cried, he asked you about the emotions but didnt even let you talk. That was totally senseless, foolish and rude. Yes you are in a professional situation but he asked you. Cowgirl up, you can do it!

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