Mountaha

Mountaha expresses her disappointment over being eliminated.

May 27, 20090

It feels so amazing, really, I’m so close and yet so far. I’m the only girl, so that’s already phenomenal. Everyone keeps asking how it feels to be the No. 1 girl. It's so weird because the whole time I’m comparing myself to the girls and now I need to beat three guys. Ahh it’s so insane, so many mixed emotions and thoughts that I can’t explain or put into words. It’s this rollercoaster. So many questions and not many answers. We wake up kinda early. I couldn’t sleep any longer just wondering if this is the finale already, if we have a photo shoot or what — we just don’t know. It’s raining and we’re sitting around the dining table just talking about this so surreal journey and feelings, thoughts, we (me and the boys) are so different and yet so alike dealing with all this craziness together.

The whole day goes by. It’s about 5 p.m. and it’s fall so it’s already dark. We get this e-mail saying we have a photo shoot tonight and models are hot, something like that. We get ready and leave the house still wondering what’s going on in this rainy evening. We get in the car and drive for about one hour. We get to this huge warehouse. It’s scary because it’s so dark, raining, and we’re in the middle of nowhere. Ahh I keep wondering what’s going on. I’m so f— happy to be here, adrenaline going through my body, and I can’t control the excitement and not knowing what’s going on. We walk in to meet Tyson and Nicole. Just when we stop in front of them, this explosion happens with fire as high as the ceiling behind them. I almost jump on Sandman (he’s standing next to me) and Branden is worse than me screaming like a little girl.  So this super cool, rock and roll photographer Clay comes in, tattoos, just cool, edgy, totally cool. We have one shot only with explosions so we have to pay attention to so many different things and all I can think about is focus, zone out, and rock a pose cause it’s only one shot. All the boys go first, then it’s me, my thoughts are: I wanna show the judges a different side of me. Cause they are so used to me being so edgy and rock and roll so it’s expected from me that I wanna show vulnerability and softness x what they usually get from me. The energy level on set is crazy, amazing, insane. I just wanna do it over and over again. So much adrenaline rushing up and down I can’t control but to scream. Love Clay, best vibe of energy ever.

The next day Nicole comes over with the books. Sandman wins the photo shoot. He acted like a totally different person, doesn’t even look like him, interesting he played just like the judges have been asking him. We all get to go to Bloomingdale’s for a job, it’s informal modeling, actually really cool. I looked so sophisticated and beautiful. In appreciation to our work, Stephanie the fashion director gives us a gift card to shop at the store for $2000 each. Yes unreal and Sandman who won the photo shoot gets $4000 and we have 30 minutes to shop. 

Awesome awesome just an amazing day. Afterwards we go to NY Model Management to meet with Cory. How perfect is that? And yes just me and all boys. I love Cory and I know he sees potential in me. So I love meeting him. We get introduced to all the agents and there’s a video from Holly to us. It feels so amazing.

The next day is catwalk and Tyson tells us it's Bond and 007 inspiration: guys in suits and me wearing Catherine Malandrino (pressure!) but I love it! And to top it all David Rolf is back to practice with all of us and make it? I’m feeling super but get kinda down when I’m told I’m wearing a wig. It’s beautiful but it’s a wig. It’s a different Mountaha, very dark brown. Oh well. Gotta love. I do but hope judges agree. The gown is gorgeous. David tells me it’s a romantic walk, glamorous, and sophisticated. We all walk, stand in front of the judges, and yes fuck everything they did like me. Unfortunately Catherine didn’t really like me with brown and somehow. Everything seems to be falling apart and my legs are shaking and I can’t stop crying and almost lose my breath. Yes I’m on the bottom with Branden and they’re so proud cause they’ve noticed how mature he’s gotten and they’re not sure how much further I can get – ridiculous, wish they had said something that really meant something. My world was falling on top of my head. I wanna scream. I can’t stop crying and can’t even say anything to them. I’ve never cried that much I think, non-stop, hysterically and sobbing, I can’t explain. My dream of winning this just ended in a matter of two minutes over an 18-year-old boy. That’s life. Seems to tragedy so why not get him to the top three even though he can’t walk the catwalk. Nothing against Branden things are very unfair a lot of times and I know the judges know what will work. I’ll be gone eventually and I’m so strong. It’s that true I will stop crying soon. I’m disappointed at myself especially because I tried something different and it could've been, was supposed to be the perfect shoot for me and instead got me out of this competition. But this is the beginning of my career, my dream, my life as a supermodel. I will become one very soon and all I can do is thank my family and God and this competition that made me stronger, a better model, a better person. And I can do much more now than I ever imagined and I’m so proud of myself and couldn’t be more thankful to everyone here that made this insane journey amazing for me! And again I’m the last girl standing so give me some credit for that!!! Best experience of my life. Love it. Do you die? I die!

I become this person that I’m so proud of. Can’t wait to travel everywhere and be a model, really love this fashion craziness the glamorous side and also the not-so-glamorous side. Love the people that helped and worked with me in this crazy and amazing journey. I have no regrets just love LOVE!

Have fun

Life is a party!

Love, Mountaha (The Brazilian Brighting Star!)

118 comments
peteski
peteski

You have to express more your opinion to attract more readers, because just a video or plain text without any personal approach is not that valuable. But it is just form my point of view

Tiffany
Tiffany

You looked great on Projecy Runway: All Star Challenge

kaite
kaite

I thought you nailed the fire shot and you faced your fare...but when salomie faced her fare they let her be safe but i just dont think its fare...but one of the other reasons i think you got illamated is caz its easier to become a supermodel if your a girl ....and i know you can become 1 on your own ....now i want to become a supermodel and watching you taught me what to do and what not to do when i become a supermodel....so thanks :) -katie

Viewer
Viewer

Mountaha, What you and probably most people don't know is that who got eliminated, when, was decided ahead of time. It had less to do with how well you did, than with when the judges thought each person should go. Each one was set up to do less well on the day they were to be eliminated. You were one of the best.

Branden is a nice guy with a great look, but seriously, they kept him long after he should have been eliminated. I think they gave the competition to him to make the ending a shocker. It was that.

Look at the way Karen, Jordan, and you were eliminated. Look at those shows. Even Salome was set up to do badly on the catwalk by being given shoes that were too big for her. If you realize that the show was scripted more than anyone would guess, then you shouldn't feel badly about being eliminated. Everyone was eliminated arbitrarily.

Queen Edgey
Queen Edgey

heyy you have one of my fav looks out of everyone. you'll be really awsome as a model for some edgy designers! cant wait 2 c u in mags xoxo

yoli
yoli

You are a winner. Good for you, keep the good work.

supporter
supporter

You were the best. The judge being the designer too was unfair. Catherine hated her dress - which most people did. You got the blame. Your beautiful look each week and good walk assures you many jobs in the future. Tyson and his boy toy will not be around to cloud the issue. Good luck.

carol
carol

Never fear, girl, you will do very, very well in the modeling field. Just keep being Mountaha, the honest self of Mountaha, and there's no way you can lose! God bless you! Stay grounded and remember it's just a job, okay? Much love to you.

Kelly
Kelly

Mountaha, you are absolutely beautiful and unique, with an amazing personality. I cried so much seeing how hurt you were when they eliminated you... and I couldn't believe it, either! They definitely made a mistake, but I'm glad you're staying positive, and I encourage you to please keep following your dream!

analogue_brain
analogue_brain

i was thoroughly disappointed with the judges' decision to eliminate you, mountaha. you have such an appealing edge. i would attend any show you were walking in, if only just to see her. i would buy any magazine you appeared on the cover of. you seem so driven and magnetic.

you were eliminated, not based on your inability to perform, but to give the show an unexpected twist with a three man finale.

you deserve to be a supermodel, and i hope to see you/hear from you very soon!

Mary
Mary

You are sophisticated and Salome is not. I liked the way you took her under your wing. She really believed you were her friend and the way you turned on her shows that you are not beautiful inside. You could have had a great friend for life. Your loss was not the competition but what could have been a great friendship and you also hurts another human being.

Viewer
Viewer

I think Mountaha is great, versatile and strong enough. So, never give up. I'm from Guangzhou,China.MMASM is my favorite show. From season 1 to 2, I keep watching. This show give boys and girls an opportunity to make their dream come true. Though the competition is tough, they can learn much more than what we saw. Mountaha, keep going,and you will be a superstar in the future.

Jilly bean
Jilly bean

Words cannot express how saddened I was by your departure. You have it and being edgy is what a super duper model is. Its not like you are completely rough you are completely sexy. I find myself questioning my sexuality LOL now it's just getting creepy, but hey you are a hell of a model in my book.

Gabriella
Gabriella

I really like you. I can't believe that you are eliminated

naenae
naenae

i hope u keep on goin and dont stop follow ur dream good luck

#1 fan
#1 fan

O.K. I dont get it how could you lost! You were the best one there!!!! I hated to see you go you were my favorite and i am sad:( I thougt you were going to win when I frist stated watching the show!! I think you deserved it more that Bradon.HAVE A GOOD LIFE,JOD,AND WORK IT!!!!!!!!!!!

Jill
Jill

You did wonderful, you have a unique look. Good job.

GEO35 Studios
GEO35 Studios

I was so upset when you lost, I found myself yelling at the television. Now I'll stop watching "Supermodel." I really couldn't care less how the competition turns out.

You're a remarkable talent, I always thought when watching you how amazing it would be to get you in front of my camera for an hour or two.

Best of luck to you in the future... you wuz robbed!

Christine Lefler
Christine Lefler

You are beautiful. Your look is different but toward the end you became way too cocky. You should have been grateful to make to the final 4.

Jenni
Jenni

I was sooooooo upset that you didn't win!! I am boycotting the last episode!!! :( ~ Jenni

tony
tony

Dont give up yet, you have the makings of a top model, dispite what the judges say. I would recommend that you continue on in your quest to be a model, the best to you in your future endevors!!!

tyler b real
tyler b real

Here's what gets me. Mountaha talks about being friends with the boys in the house. I'm not doubting that but seriously girl, how friendly can you be with your fellow models when so much is on the line? If I were living with them, I would treat them as the enemy. I wouldn't be a nasty dude but it's cutthroat in the modeling world. I'm currently going into radio. I go to broadcasting school with other students who are going after what I want AND NO ONE WILL TAKE WHAT I WANT! It's every man (woman) for himself. It doesn't mean I don't give advice to fellow students or I'm not nice. But, in the end, I look out for number one--me. No one else will.

Alex
Alex

It's a competition show, they want drama. Move on with your model career with your unforgettable edgy face, just avoid that blinded designer judge whose dresses are so forgettable.

Izzy
Izzy

At first I didn't think you really had the face to make it but you proved yourself throughout the entire show more than anyone else. You had consistent photos and your walk was fantastic. Honestly, I dont like the judges and I dont think they made a good decision letting you go. They didn't consider any of your previous achievements at all which was frustrating. I really did cry with you. I was in so much shock, from the beginning I thought you should've always been in the final three because you got what it takes. I am not too worried. I know I will be seeing you in ads and runways quickly--people dont forget you. Good luck with everything you do and if Johnathan doesn't win then this hsow needs to re-evaluate the judges they choose.

Viewer
Viewer

Mountaha, you were ROBBED!!!! I just watched th episode on DVR and was completely shocked that you were eliminated. You are so much more talented, versatile and professional than Brandon. I was certain that you were going to be in the final three, if not win it. You will have a great career ahead, so try not to make too much out of this loss.

Viewer
Viewer

Mountaha,

You did so well. Be proud. I know I'll be seeing your photo in lots of places. Also, Salome. You are both beautiful women.

Viewer
Viewer

Expert panel of judges...? Uhh... NO! You should have won. :(

Chris
Chris

Mountaha,

I am VERY VERY annoyed that you went home. I was just about ready to SCREAM when I saw you get eliminated. This was your first time in the bottom two and you were eliminated, and before you were only low once. I wanted you to win, and I encourage you to keep up your fashion career. And I'll be rooting for you all the way. It's really disappointing to see you go because I think you had the most potential since the beginning. I looked at you and said "wow, she's going to win". You came so close, so that counts for something.

Viewer
Viewer

it was the most unfair decision the judges have ever made! and i don't even get their justifications! i think they based their decisions on something else, probably the fact that if brendan left the competition, there would be no american in the final.

DC
DC

I was shocked at the judges decision, I can't stand Brandon and feel you had shown much more growth and potential. Didn't care for the way you were styled for the runway, yucky dress.

Chin up girl, you will go far!

Viewer
Viewer

GIRL I LOVE YOUR LOOK...many of the people that worked with you said that they would remember your face and if they remember YOUR face that's all that matters. Brandon is just gonna work high fashion and sandhurst is too muscular for any model work. The reason why you got kicked off is so they have no reason not to crown Jonathan the winner(and if they don't the judges are retarded). your gonna make more money than all 3 of those boys put together. wipe you tears away that cash. LOVE YA GIRL

Viewer
Viewer

I wish you would have been in the finale! I think that the judges or producers of this show have had it in their agenda to have Branden in this show until the end. I'm not sure what they see in him since his walk is horrible and his pics are so so. He should have been gone a long time ago even before Salome & the other girl.

Anyway, I really like to walk and photos. Good Luck!!!

Viewer
Viewer

Mountaha, I was definitely shocked when you were eliminated. Your passion for modeling showed, I cried along with you. When I saw your exit interview, I totally agreed with you, Braden just did better than you that week. I think the judges should have been paying attention on your entire body of work. That brunette wig they put on you was not the greatest idea. As far as your walk,you have the best walk in the show. Maybe the atrocious wig and the pressure of Catherine watching you walk may have caused you to walk stiff. If you walked like you did the week you posed with the calf, you would be in the final three. That walk was sophisticated. I hope the best for you and I don't believe you will be a supermodel; you are a supermodel.

Viewer
Viewer

On the rate the photos page I didn't even recognize it was you in the brown wig, until I read the caption. Yuck to the stylist! That's who they should have sent home. You deserved to stay!

Viewer
Viewer

I'm in agreement with the others - you should have been kicked off long before the others. Until you learn that true beauty is more than skin deep you will not get very far in life - much less modeling.

Alvaro
Alvaro

It was really sad to see you go, but this competition is not the end, actually this competition has nothing to do with the real modeling world, there's so so so much out there, this is like a little tasting and it's gonna be the first step for something bigger. You are genuine and sweet, and you are a great walker. I thing your edgy look and versatility will take you far in this career!!!!!!!!! Don't pay attention to irrelevant comments of stupid people. You got heat, glamour and character. Soon Vogue my dear!!!!!!!

SandyS
SandyS

Mountaha, I hope to see more of you and good luck with your career. Your walk is fantastic and too bad you were let go so soon. But I must say, I hated that dress, it looked like a moo moo. Not a "sexy" dress at all, as Catherine would say. Also you touched me so much, that I cried along with you. Remember this is just the beginning for you! peace.

Pennagirl
Pennagirl

Actually, I thought you should have gone way before Salome or Amanda. Your look is too bland, too far out there. Catherine had every right to say she was embarrassed with your catwalk in her dress...sorry if she was paying you she would have asked for her money back or fired you. Your tears were there to make the judges have sympathy for you -- yet again; this time they didn't fall for it. Branden has matured, you stagnated and had too much of an ego.

Viewer
Viewer

OMG! It wasn't the wig that Catherine didn't like. Still so full of yourself. And I seem to recall you saying that the judges would get to see that you look good even if were in a wig!

Ashley
Ashley

I MISS U GIRL! I always knew you would outshine Salome & Jordan and the rest of the girls. You are going places. I really thought Branden was going home.

Viewer
Viewer

It wasn't that Catherine didn't like you "brown" as you put it, but, rather you didn't make the dress your look pretty. Your look is not versatile, that was said a few times at various castings as well. Your look is hard. And your personality is hard. Brandon, "the boy" as you put it, has much more potential.

Jackie
Jackie

Mountaha, I would say you lost because of your lack of variety in your photo shoot and the fact the designer of your dress was annoyed at your walk on the runway. You began to think you knew everything all ready and had all ready won, and anyone who watches this show knows that is the kiss of death.

SALOME FAN
SALOME FAN

Brazilian Beauty! HA! You are not beautiful inside or out. After talking trash about others I think you got what you deserve!

FanFare
FanFare

I feel sorry for your loss. I never felt you would go far. Your face is not that pretty or unusual. Your personality became overly cocky and unfortunately annoying. However, you were always a better walker than most of the rest. Your photo was by far better than "Blanden's". He should been booted. Not you.

Candice
Candice

UNBELIEVABLE!!! Your emotion was so raw and so warranted. I know the judges base their votes on many factors; however, what they see in Branden is beyond me. Not that I'm saying he doesn't derserve credit, afterall he has come a long way in this competition, but you deserve to be up there and not him. Now that God is on your side and you WILL go far in life! You have the look and the talent to make a name for yourself. Believe in yourself as a lot of other people do!

Barry
Barry

Mountaha, I was completely shocked by the judges decision. All things considered, it should have been you in the final three with Johnathon and Sandhurst. In addition to it being a personal loss for you, I think that it is a loss to the show. It was really a pleasure to watch how you improved and transformed yourself each week. You are an inspiring competitor and beautiful to see in action. I expect to see you on high fashion runways and in the finest fashion magazines soon.

kim green
kim green

the judges knoow whtat they like it just was not your time but you are one hell of a model keep up the amazing job see on the cover

Daniel
Daniel

well this make me cry alot when i found out u were eliminated and ur are my role model i always keep saying that ur the one bestest catwalk and photoshoot than others I belive in u keep up im forward to see u on fashion mags or runways!!

Viewer
Viewer

Not sure I can watch the finale without you in it.

Kamryn
Kamryn

OMG I am about to cry you where by far the best Hope you still live out you dream i'll be looking for you in my magaziens