It feels so amazing, really, I’m so close and yet so far. I’m the only girl, so that’s already phenomenal. Everyone keeps asking how it feels to be the No. 1 girl. It's so weird because the whole time I’m comparing myself to the girls and now I need to beat three guys. Ahh it’s so insane, so many mixed emotions and thoughts that I can’t explain or put into words. It’s this rollercoaster. So many questions and not many answers. We wake up kinda early. I couldn’t sleep any longer just wondering if this is the finale already, if we have a photo shoot or what — we just don’t know. It’s raining and we’re sitting around the dining table just talking about this so surreal journey and feelings, thoughts, we (me and the boys) are so different and yet so alike dealing with all this craziness together.
The whole day goes by. It’s about 5 p.m. and it’s fall so it’s already dark. We get this e-mail saying we have a photo shoot tonight and models are hot, something like that. We get ready and leave the house still wondering what’s going on in this rainy evening. We get in the car and drive for about one hour. We get to this huge warehouse. It’s scary because it’s so dark, raining, and we’re in the middle of nowhere. Ahh I keep wondering what’s going on. I’m so f— happy to be here, adrenaline going through my body, and I can’t control the excitement and not knowing what’s going on. We walk in to meet Tyson and Nicole. Just when we stop in front of them, this explosion happens with fire as high as the ceiling behind them. I almost jump on Sandman (he’s standing next to me) and Branden is worse than me screaming like a little girl. So this super cool, rock and roll photographer Clay comes in, tattoos, just cool, edgy, totally cool. We have one shot only with explosions so we have to pay attention to so many different things and all I can think about is focus, zone out, and rock a pose cause it’s only one shot. All the boys go first, then it’s me, my thoughts are: I wanna show the judges a different side of me. Cause they are so used to me being so edgy and rock and roll so it’s expected from me that I wanna show vulnerability and softness x what they usually get from me. The energy level on set is crazy, amazing, insane. I just wanna do it over and over again. So much adrenaline rushing up and down I can’t control but to scream. Love Clay, best vibe of energy ever.
The next day Nicole comes over with the books. Sandman wins the photo shoot. He acted like a totally different person, doesn’t even look like him, interesting he played just like the judges have been asking him. We all get to go to Bloomingdale’s for a job, it’s informal modeling, actually really cool. I looked so sophisticated and beautiful. In appreciation to our work, Stephanie the fashion director gives us a gift card to shop at the store for $2000 each. Yes unreal and Sandman who won the photo shoot gets $4000 and we have 30 minutes to shop.
Awesome awesome just an amazing day. Afterwards we go to NY Model Management to meet with Cory. How perfect is that? And yes just me and all boys. I love Cory and I know he sees potential in me. So I love meeting him. We get introduced to all the agents and there’s a video from Holly to us. It feels so amazing.
The next day is catwalk and Tyson tells us it's Bond and 007 inspiration: guys in suits and me wearing Catherine Malandrino (pressure!) but I love it! And to top it all David Rolf is back to practice with all of us and make it? I’m feeling super but get kinda down when I’m told I’m wearing a wig. It’s beautiful but it’s a wig. It’s a different Mountaha, very dark brown. Oh well. Gotta love. I do but hope judges agree. The gown is gorgeous. David tells me it’s a romantic walk, glamorous, and sophisticated. We all walk, stand in front of the judges, and yes fuck everything they did like me. Unfortunately Catherine didn’t really like me with brown and somehow. Everything seems to be falling apart and my legs are shaking and I can’t stop crying and almost lose my breath. Yes I’m on the bottom with Branden and they’re so proud cause they’ve noticed how mature he’s gotten and they’re not sure how much further I can get – ridiculous, wish they had said something that really meant something. My world was falling on top of my head. I wanna scream. I can’t stop crying and can’t even say anything to them. I’ve never cried that much I think, non-stop, hysterically and sobbing, I can’t explain. My dream of winning this just ended in a matter of two minutes over an 18-year-old boy. That’s life. Seems to tragedy so why not get him to the top three even though he can’t walk the catwalk. Nothing against Branden things are very unfair a lot of times and I know the judges know what will work. I’ll be gone eventually and I’m so strong. It’s that true I will stop crying soon. I’m disappointed at myself especially because I tried something different and it could've been, was supposed to be the perfect shoot for me and instead got me out of this competition. But this is the beginning of my career, my dream, my life as a supermodel. I will become one very soon and all I can do is thank my family and God and this competition that made me stronger, a better model, a better person. And I can do much more now than I ever imagined and I’m so proud of myself and couldn’t be more thankful to everyone here that made this insane journey amazing for me! And again I’m the last girl standing so give me some credit for that!!! Best experience of my life. Love it. Do you die? I die!
I become this person that I’m so proud of. Can’t wait to travel everywhere and be a model, really love this fashion craziness the glamorous side and also the not-so-glamorous side. Love the people that helped and worked with me in this crazy and amazing journey. I have no regrets just love LOVE!
Life is a party!
Love, Mountaha (The Brazilian Brighting Star!)
You're exactly the kind of girl I want to see on a runway at a fashion show. Keep trying to get signed!
Mountaha, You deserved to win that competition!!! Branden needed to go home. He won't last as a model. He's too much of a momma's boy.
You will succeed and can't wait to see in the pages of the best fashion magazines in the world!!!!!
Good luck!!! You are beautiful!!!
For the first time, I am sad to see a model go.
Mountaha I sincerely believe you should have been in the final 3.
Best Wishes...you WILL make your dreams come true. See you on the runway!!
I was crying for you also. Truly I think all four of you are great for different reasons. I just could not decide. You are an awesome model,good luck.
Amazing ! That blog just says how great person you are. Do not be dissapointed on yourself, you give your heart and IT counts too. Nothiing against Mr. Cokiness(branden) but you are far greater model, and you will do great.
Good Luck, !
I can't believe you were eliminated. I truly believe you should have been picked for the finals! Your professionalism, talent and experience truly shines through in everything you do as a model. You will go far in this business! The judges made the wrong choice!!! I truly believe that when one door closes, another one opens. And I believe many doors will be opening for you.
Rock On Sister! Charleston Fan
Sorry to see you go before the finals. I really liked the photo from your photo shoot. Was it full of action packed movement? No. But was it bold, striking, and hot? Definately.
Mountaha, you're fabulous, likeable, gorgeous, and talented. You will have a real modeling career after this experience of that you can be certain. I wish you all the best.
Mountaha, You are awesome!! Hold your head high.... you will go far in the modeling industry. I also think it wasn't fair that they put you in a Catherine Malandrino dress. You go girl!!!
I voted for you all along Mountaha, I think you should have won, I pictured the top 2 being you against Johnathan but I suppose the judges didn't see it that way. Anyways your going to get alot of opportunities now anyways so in a way you did win.
I can't believe Mountaha was eliminated and Brendan is still on the show. Brendan should have been gone within the first 3 weeks. It seems clear the judges are trying to make sure a male wins since there are so few successful male models. I think the British judge who is a photographer needs to look in a mirror and see that he really is clueless about what makes a good model. I have no reason to watch the finale.
YOU SHOULD BE IN THE FINALS!!!! HANDS DOWN.....NO QUESTIONS ASKED!!!! YOU WILL SUCCEED!!!!! KEEP YOUR HEAD HELD HIGH!!!
Mountaha...you are a very beautiful young woman; very unique and "edgy"...you will have a long and fabulous career...stay confident, and stay classy...all the best to you!!!!
After the last episode backstabbing Salome, karma caught up with you. Maybe you'll be a little more humble after this.
I just watched the show and I am so upset - actually angry and very disappointed. You have been the one consistent person on this show. I do not recall you ever being in the bottom - and to get down to the semifinals and it is between you and Branden - UGH!! Give me a break. But I love your attitude - even through the tears - you thank them - and based on your blog above you have been able to embrace the experience - you will be a SUPERMODEL!! And you are my vote for FAN FAVORITE!!
I was praying you would go home. You think you are better than what you really are. Good riddance! That's what you get for talking such smack about Salome!
Mountaha, you were robbed! I know you will make it! you are a transformer, the new evangelista. I wish you the best of luck - the sky is the limit.
Make it happen my girl from BRA-ZEW!
Hey Mountaha, you're awesome and never forget it! Don't let the elimination get you down. You've still got your whole life and career ahead of you.
Best of luck!
Mountaha, I've enjoyed watching you the whole season. You have an amazing look, and you were always the smartest, most focused of the girls. I sure thought it was going to be you and Jonathan to the finale. Best of luck and go out there and show the world your stuff.
Mountaha, I am very sorry you got eliminated. I cried right along with you. My top three were you, Sandman, and Jonathan. It's time for Branden to go home to his Momma. No offense B, but I thought she was better than you. Don't worry, you will be a SUPERMODEL! You got the look, Honey!! Keep your head up and reach for the stars!!!
Sorry Mountainhaha, I don't think you are very far out of it. My "gay-dar" isn't perking when it comes to Marlon the judge; the way he gushed over you EVERY SINGLE WEEK was kind of creepy in a sugar daddy/I want a green card sort of way. The boys just were better than you. Keep fighting though. Your pics were ok. , much better than your walking. I'm sure we will see you in print ads.
Mountaha, That was a strange vote by the judges. You won photo shoots, catwalks. I don't think Brandon won any. Does a suit make a person mature at the last minute? It's a strange world you're in, and you'll have to keep your strength and stay grounded. You should NOT have been eliminated. Best of luck.
OMG!!! There is no way that you should have been eliminated!! You were my favorite girl from the beginning. Yes, Jonathan and Sandhurt were your competition; however, it should have been you three in the final. You have been AMAZING all season and I was always cheering for you. You have so much talent and I am really at awe in the judges' decision. Keep working hard, you have fans and we are behind you. You should be in the finale.
Mountaha; you were so strong in that photo shoot. You have nothing to be sorry about and everything to be proud of. I totally disagreed with the judges and thought that Branden should have gone home. You were and are so much of a better model than Branden. However keep your head up and trust that better things are coming your way. I look forward to seeing you in fashion mags, the runways, etc. You Rock!
P.S. I LUV UR HAIR; wish I had the guts to cut mine like yours.
Mountaha- you are awesome! I'm so disappointed in the judges for sending you home! They truly made a bad call by keeping Branden. Don't give up- You undoubtedly will become the supermodel you strive to be! Congratulations on your accomplishments, and on the many more life holds in store for you!
Bella, You were the best. But I must say this was your weakest weak on the catwalk. You got what it takes to be a supermodel. I mean you got a head start, your from Brasil! Don't ever take no or(nao) for an answer. Just remember you got to be bella on the inside too. I am glad you made this far even though you did beat my cousin Amanda. Please keep following you dream and someday I may see you back i Brasil. Caio
I find it amusing that this entry is posted under Andy Cohen's byline instead of Mountaha's. "I'm the only girl" indeed....
I LOVED Mountaha, but that last catwalk...I could see what Catherine meant, she had a beautiful flowing gown and she walked very stiff, almost scared, not the bold leggy walks she had done before, so sad.
a total sham you were sent home. Thought you would win the whole time. Branden over you? WHAT A JOKE. You got a career coming xoxo
I think simply Brandan is more marketable because he can do print, runway, outdoor, spokes person etc. I think you are too limited- your runways were not the best and your print work was hit or miss. Like with the calf-
Can't believe you're out, but seems like you're in control and still working towards a brilliant future. You're amazing. Diva-like. Memorable, stylish & classy. Love your strong personality. Hope to see you on billboards and everywhere soon*~
Mountaha!!! I wanted you to be the winner...so sad for you! Keep your head high...you're going to go far and you know it! Besitos!
Brazilian Beauty- I think that I cried right with you last night. I really saw the growth and fanastic style you have as a model. You are absolutely correct when you said that this experience is only a part of your total experience as a model I see nothing but brightness ahead for you! Be well.
sorry to hear that, u're the only girl left and i do think u will be the winner, i think u are a supermodel already, however... don't worry!! u will be a real supermodel in the fashion industry, make it work!!!
You shoudn't go home! I'm in love with you from week one, and I truely believe that you'll be the winner. Sorry for you, but beat those guys in the future.
Godspeed you beautiful, beautiful young Woman.
You WILL work!
Marlon's been right all along.
...& how can Catherine's reaction to your walk in her dress be one of embarrassment? Proof positive that ones assessment and reaction (hopefully we can respond) can be "wrong".
you did a great job this season and because of that i'm sure the industry will and has noticed. good luck in your career, and we all look forward to seeing your face in the future.
You are so rude and obnoxious in this blog. Yes Branden is only 18, but he has showed much more grace and maturity than you have. Karma's a b*tch. You should've been not so rough on Salome...so she was like a fish out of water having come from the isolation of being mennonite. Maybe if you didn't come off so harsh and showed more elegance & class you would've gotten to the finale. Good luck with your career....
You are definitely going to get plenty of work in modeling. Remember, the "winner" isn't always the winner in these kind of shows. Many times, the runners-up tend to do just as well, if not better.
I agree with the judges that have said you have a very memorable look and face. You do!
You are going to be just fine!
Mountaha, I am so sorry, I was shocked at the Judge's decision. I have no doubt that the modeling agencies will be thrilled to handle you and that your career will be a huge success.
I think you're a really good model, but on the catwalk the wig was horrible, so it's not really your fault. When was this show recorded anyway, last year? Cuz you say it's fall but it's actually spring in NYC. So that means one of you has won already...
I just am really UPSET at the judges !! Can't they see that from the photo shoots who obviously shot the worst photo. Can you guess ? who I am thinking !! Mountaha, I was a BIG FAN of you and Salome. Eventhough, you did say a few bad things about her. I believe that you and her should have been in the finals. I am so sorry that the judges let you go !! You are definately very talented and deserve a contract to further your modeling career. GOOD LUCK in your future and God Bless You and your family !!
Mountaha, I admit you were not my choice to win. That said, don't give up on modeling. You will get lots of work. Perhaps work on your humility though. I think you have learned a hard lesson, 'deserve' has got nothing to do with it.
THANK YOU for making us ladies proud! You always show courage, tenacity, fierceness, honesty, and true beauty inside and out. You are an inspiration to live life to the fullest! Hope to see a lot more of you in the future - if any companies are smart out there, they'll snatch you up!
Hugs from Montana!