Jacki Hydock

Jacki lets her emotions come out during this week's competitions.

on Feb 14, 2008

Before you read this week's diary, we asked each of the models to send home a video Valentine, and here's what Jacki came up with.

What a quantum leap from the first week!

As I approach week 7, I have a lot to be thankful for and recognize. My strong attitude, determination, and ambition is what got me here, I am not going anywhere. People are going to try to bring me down, people are going to tell me I can't do it, and they are not going to win me over. This week I think I will have let go even more.

I let down the guard in the acting studio and really let my emotions out. I'm proud of myself and never let people see me cry! I went buck wild during the photo shoot and got angry! I don't let things get to me, I do not dwell on things, life is just too short! For me, the photo shoot was challenging because I don't handle things with destructive anger and aggression! Ahh that was seriously so fun though, I let out a tough side I didn't think I was so capable of.

Maybe I hold back too much, but I am not afraid to be me! I am a dork underneath and I am not scared to be myself! Part of being a supermodel is being able to laugh at yourself and act silly! Supermodels are not perfect like many people assume, and striving to be perfect is not even worth the time. I'm just a rookie, I have a lot of learning to still do, but I'm me and I'm real, there's not a fake thing about that.

Happy Valentines day to everyone single or in a relationship, you are loved by someone! Seeing my boyfriend on TV was so special , it feels so good to know he is thinking of me every second like I am. Hmmm, I wonder what next week will be....!