Dear Supermodel Gods that be,

This week began with being diagnosed with a flu that aggravated a pre-existing sinus infection and suffering through 102.3 F fever, what fun!!! I wish Stephanie all the success she deserves in this industry and will miss her presence in the house.

I asked the panel at eliminations what specifically I could do to break free from the All American catalog model to step into the edgy, sexy and confident high fashion model that will win this competition. The transformation has begun; I needed a strong new haircut from my girl Sheridan at Cutler, less weight lifting and more running with Clay, and to perform a jaw-dropping catwalk. After being in the bottom three, two weeks in a row -- I owed it not only to myself and all those who gave me another chance via their vote, but most importantly I owed it to my Mom (who I know has chewed her fingers down to nubs with stress) to get with the program.