Salome

Salome accuses her fellow contestant of fibbing.

Mar 24, 20090

Today's shoot is we are to look into a mirror and express how we feel sometimes when we look at ourselves. I'm thinking about when I left home and how much pain and sadness I created for my family. They believe that because I know better that the life I choose (cutting my hair, piercing my ears, wearing immodest clothes) is against the bible and I will go to Hell if I don't repent and change my sinful ways. I spend part of my morning thinking depressed thoughts trying to learn to cry on the spur of a moment. I hate showing my true inner self. This sucks because bringing all this emotion to the surface of 13 people's minds is gonna create weird moods. I go into set, pull out my emotion, thank the photographer, and asked if I could do anything and got out! On the way out I heard the photographer say "She needed no direction. That was great — it's rare!" I need to win this shoot because we get to go to Montreal Fashion Week if we do, but I don't. Amanda wins because she danced with no music and I'm sure she told her sob story and showed a lot of emotion as she usually does. Branden won because he wasn't what she expected. Amanda, Mountaha, Branden, and Colin going to Montreal. The rest of us go home and mope. then everyone talks about missing family and of course that leads to sex talk. I miss everything! I even miss my jobs!

This catwalk ends up being the most embarrassing catwalk. Somehow we all misunderstood the brief and we all looked like psycho people. I dread the world seeing this and even when they say to be extreme there is an over-the-top! Amanda was too sexy and the judges told her so. She was emotional again and cried they thought she was doing it for sympathy and she probably was ... this competition is not for the emotionally weak. I'm learning from experience.
Shawn went home. I'm gonna miss him. He is a sweet AND caring person.

I feel smothered and emotionally drained this week. I miss my independence. I hate being told everything I can and can't do! I'm blessed to be here and I keep telling myself and I'm starting to feel better already.

Oh yeah, by the way CJ is a liar. She sees herself at this angle that nobody else can even comprehend. She said today on the catwalk her outfit was stabbing her and blood was running down her leg. When I asked to see the wound she showed me a dried up peeling scab! I have no patience for liars.

13 comments
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Viewer
Viewer

dont let anybody get you down! i know it must be terribly hard to take a risk and to be away from your life for such a long time. you are a great model! keep working hard.

best of luck!

Kris
Kris

Salome, You are beautiful. As a Christian, I can honestly say you have behaved well throughout this process. I think your assessment of CJ is way off the mark though. Everyone has something that makes them emotional and she expresses herself with tears. I don't think that she was trying to get anyone's sympathy as none of the judges ever do. I think, considering the coldness of them all, it is an unrealistic expectation. How DARE that one judge tell CJ what she was thinking or feeling. She's not only a model, NOW she reads minds?!? Pissed me off royally. There is a lot of pressure going on there and many of you are not used to it. That's why they call the show "MAKE ME a supermodel".

The "There's no crying in modeling" comment was completely and totally unwarranted as she well knows that what she said is complete and utter bull s***! Crying does not make someone weak. I believe people who are not afraid to show emotion are the strong ones because they are willing to show their vulnerable sides.

You have a unique beauty and that is why you stand out there. Just be the nice person that started out to be. Don't sell yourself short, and DON'T become a bi^%h! Keep some of what you left behind within your soul. You do not have to lose yourself to become a supermodel.

Peace and God bless!

Austin!!^0^
Austin!!^0^

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW SALOME!!!!!!!!!! Don't get yourself down over other people being meanie-poos!!!!!! I think that you and Moutaha are going to be the ones standing at the finish line, and then you can think " Wow, I am totally better than all those meanie-poos and liars!" ^-^. Anyways, i think that for growing up without much at all you are doing a FABULOUS job!!!! keep up the good work and i can't wait to see you in the pages of vogue!!!

Love, Austin & the rest of his fashion addicted friends at santa susana high school!!!

Siegfried
Siegfried

Salome:

Wow, you are really down on a lot of your fellow contestants this week - what's up with that? Rarely will one find their way to the top by cutting down others. Why not focus on your strengths rather than pointing out your perceived weakness of others?

Viewer
Viewer

Making fun of other contestants show you what kind of person you are on the inside. Are you a person who can get along with other people or are you a person who can criticize others? I hope you do realize you are on nation television so everything you say we hear what it than they will start to think are you a true model. The show is called make a supermodel not Make a mean model. You are a model! people look up to you. Good Luck

Tammy (co-worker)
Tammy (co-worker)

Babe you are doing a great job. Don't let the man(or woman in this case) get you down. You know I love you win or lose and you will always be my Supermodel. I'll keep watching and routing for you. Your amazing! See you at the bux!

Dinah
Dinah

If viewer wants to talk smack maybe they should have the balls to put their name on their comment...

try living in another world and another culture and assimilating to a new one. Salome grew up without a tv and now the world is watching her on it. she isn't being a rebel, she's brave enough to choose a different life even if it means that her family is not supportive and disapproves. yes, she is young; yes, she is blunt and honest; but she has the guts to go after her dream. unless you've walked a mile in someone's shoes shut your damn mouth!!

Crucian
Crucian

Just heard about your connection to St. Croix, Virgin Islands which is where I'm from. Always loved driving by and looking at your grandmother's house. Your background is more diverse than people know. Keep your head up and keep working hard!

Melissa S.
Melissa S.

Sweetie, I know what you are doing isn't easy and it can feel harder being cut off from all your friends and family, but just remember you have thousands of people, like me, watching every week, cheering you on. All of us are your friends, all of us love you in our own way, we are your fans and you are never alone. Everytime you start to feel like you can't go on, just remember we are all here for you, even if you can't see us. Don't get involved with the drama, you are better than that. I send you a hug and tell you this, remember your roots, be yourself and hang in there.

Viewer
Viewer

Seriously, you are the perfect definition of being emo these days.

"They believe that because I know better that the life I choose (cutting my hair, piercing my ears, wearing immodest clothes) is against the bible and I will go to Hell if I don't repent and change my sinful ways."

Oh, you are sooo bad!

"I hate being told everything I can and can't do!"

Guess what, when you live with many other people you are supposed to do what is best for the group. Yes, that means doing the dishes if it's your turn, or not leaving dirty stuff laying around bothering other people.

If you are going to rebel, please do so with more important aspects of life. Grow up!

I'll leave it at that...

Sarah
Sarah

Haha! I like that you are so honest about everything. You are so strong, especially considering your background. You and Brandon are my two favorites. Keep it up you're absolutely beautiful and I know you are upset about disappointing your family, but in the end what's most important is YOUR happiness. Plus, you were obviously born to model, so I think it's really good you went to pursue that. Good luck!!