The Dozen Left

Shannon has a great time rolling around with Ronnie.

Well we're down to 12 people; 6 guys and 6 gals. I'm glad the gender ratio is balanced again. And how perfect that is considering the theme of the week; Chemistry. After the excitement of finding out that Katy and Ben had not been eliminated, it was back to work. We had a photo shoot for Reiss International. It was off the wall. We were put into groups of 2's, 3's, 4's, & 5's in a completely random order and we were put to the task of instantly creating, chemistry with the person or people we were thrown in front of the camera with. It was an interesting challenge having to change emotions and partners so quickly. We all looked sharp in the clothes though, (which is always a big plus).

It seemed like right after we got off the Reiss shoot we were waking up at the crack of dawn to go to another. And this one certainly pushed the chemistry theme to another level. Basically we all had to jump into bed with a randomly picked partner and have a one-night stand in front of the camera. Sounds like fun right?

We all worked with Diana Scheunemann, who is very distinctive photographer. She decided to pair me with Ronnie. A decision I was very happy with. There was no doubt that he and I had mass amounts of chemistry, which really showed in the photos. It was an all round positive experience. What girl doesn't want to roll around naked with a hot gay guy? I know I do! LOL... Again this week, I kicked ass at the gym. Brutalising my body to the point of near exhaustion is, for some reason a good feeling to me. Basically I love the feeling afterwards. I feel as if I've really gotten something accomplished. Feeling good physically really helps feeling good mentally. I want to go climb a mountain after I get back from the gym. Also I feel that emotional and mental weaknesses can manifest themselves physically. You can tell how strong a state of mind a person has based on how they perform at the gym. You have to enjoy the pain by realising that it'll benefit you in the long run. The gym is a true test to tell who has what it takes to go far in this competition. Another highlight this week was being able to make our first phone calls. I called my best friend and got as many updates on my friends and family as possible which was a humbling feeling. Knowing that my life and the people I love haven't ceased to exist just because I'm isolated from the outside world. I never want to lose touch with who I am and where I'm from. It shaped me to be the person I am today and is the reason I had what it took to be in this competition in the first place. I don't think that by being here I'm becoming a new me. I think I'm just becoming a more vibrant me. This week was ended by an extremely unique runway show. We kept with the chemistry theme but the specific theme was "equestrian fetish", I didn't see that one coming, but it was a blast. I was partnered with Ronnie again and he and I did a wonderful job. I felt so determined to get back into the top again (as I said in last week's journal) that I did everything in my power to go back; and it worked. It's a good feeling being in the top. I was very proud of myself but at the same time it had to be a quiet victory. Holly, Aryn and Jay were the bottom three. I like all of them and would never want to feel like I'm gloating about my successes around them. This week was tough. A lot of people really stepped up and others fell pretty hard. It was a real make or break week and I was really surprised about the bottom three. I certainly didn't picture Holly going there but she was dealt a hard hand this week. I hope she comes back. But somebody's going home and somebody will go home every week. It's strange seeing the house get smaller, but it's inevitable so we all have to accept it. This week was the most challenging yet and it'll only get more challenging from here. Personally, I'm ready for it.