Dear the Supermodels God that be,
OK -- I got the message loud and clear. The gloves are coming off, and it's time for me speak my mind. No sugar coating, no sensors. I have remained focus and professional in this competition, but now it's time to be more assertive and protect my own interest. While trying to remain thoughtful and respectful of others, I have somehow silenced myself and it's time to express my opinion.
I view this competition for what it is, a business venture. In any business, you have to take risks, make large investments, learn from our mistakes in order to be successful. Deciding to be on this show has been the biggest risk I have taken in 25yrs. I had no idea what I was getting my self into, but I have no regrets. My reality has become that of a disciplined student, who wants to be made into a Supermodel.
While everything else back home has been put on hold, I'm surrounded by strangers that I cannot trust because we are all fighting for the same piece of pie (sugar free of course) and I have to prove that my hunger has to be satisfied. I'm not sure what the future holds for me, but I do know all the sacrifices that I have made will be made worthwhile and my return on my investment will be great if I work hard and stay true to myself.
With that said, I feel that I was wronged this week by being in the bottom three. I respect panels decision but I believe it was based on misfortune and conflicting interpretations of third party feed back. This week was all about being a brand ambassador for companies like Proctor and Gamble, Bayer, Nikon, Bank of America and more. I enjoyed wearing and representing Marthe Francis Girbaud for their video look book but unfortunately the roles I was given in the scenes were supporting ones. Stephanie at Bloomingdales felt my performance was pushed and at times fake while Jennifer took the time to speak with the customers and received very positive feedback: they expressed that my approach was friendly and un-intrusive, that I modeled the clothing well, and thought on my feet. I may be a lot of things but one thing I am not is fake. Perhaps the truth is that Stephanie was assigning her own meaning to my behavior and she misinterpreted.
My geniue energy and enthusiasm. Finally the catwalk, we were styled by Shannon and the team from New York vintage in two looks to life, but agree with panel that I sported my Ralph Lauren tuxedo the best. At this point in the competition there is no room for mistakes. I am not ready to go home but Casey has proven to be at this point the least confident and immature model in the house while Ben has shown himself to be apathetic, angry, and in competition with himself.
Right now the girls pose the biggest threat and I'm not sure why. Watch what happens....