Not Giving Up
Shawn recognizes what went wrong in this challenge and discusses his elimination.
We were all taken to meet Nicole and Michael to see what we had to do for our runway challenge. We were all a little shocked to hear that we would be transformed into beautiful freaks. Nicole also demonstrated a walk for us. She instructed us to tell a story with a beginning, middle, and end. I really didn’t know what to do. I was having trouble with the concept. I also noticed that everyone was having trouble. I was taken back to styling. I actually really liked the transformation with hair and makeup. Now to wardrobe: I was in a body suit with jewels attached everywhere. I actually thought I looked like a beautiful freak!!! I really liked my look, but I still had no idea how I was going to walk. As I was getting my hair done, I thought of an overlord, a leader. Since I was told to create a story, I wanted to create a unique story. After walking for the judges I was a little scared. I’m not going to lie, I was really nervous! I did follow the brief from Nicole and I wasn’t the only person who wasn’t confident in their walk. We are all called back to the runway to meet the judges. Once again the judges call my name, but this time I am not safe from elimination. I felt unsure about how they were feeling about my performance. I was the first to get talked to by the judges. (As I was told by everyone, it wasn’t a very fun place to be). As I thought, they hated my photo and thought my walk was confusing. They were confused on why I told a story. I should have just walked the catwalk. I really had nothing to say because I agreed. As they go down the line they weren’t really nice to anyone. I come to find out I am in the bottom with Colin. Colin has been in the bottom twice. Nicole handed me my portfolio and said “Shawn, you have a face for the big screen and we cannot make you into a supermodel.” I thanked the judges for the experience and walked off stage. In all actuality I wasn’t really shocked. They judged my photo and my catwalk for the week. I honestly didn’t think it was a good week for me and it cost me my place on the show.
Ohh, I wasn’t very happy when I said goodbye to everyone. I was extremely disappointed in my performance. I know I could have done so much better. I was a little confused with the process. It was a great experience, but I know I have so much more to give!!!
With my Photos!!! I was very disappointed with the pictures that were chosen. I felt like I looked very amateur in my photos. The only reason I say that is because my personal portfolio is much better. So, it’s very difficult to grasp why I didn’t perform to the level that I know I could. The pictures that were chosen for me will not help me in the modeling world. I recall saying “I am going to throw my book away.” Honestly I am going to keep them for the experience.
With my catwalk!!!! Well for never walking a catwalk before, I think “it is what it is.” I am going to continue to learn. I would like to thank everyone, cast, production, and viewers. I had a great time on the show. I feel that my dream for modeling is going to happen. Even though I am older, I still feel like I can make a name for myself. It’s NOT TOO LATE!!! I was told by everyone not to give up, so I am going to continue to give it everything I’ve got.
See you again and very soon!!!
Thank you everyone at Make Me A Supermodel 2