Mariah wants to make it like I'm attention craved and all about an audience. She's even gone as far to say fame has changed me. However, it hasn't and never will. It's expected from her to use that as a deflection tactic only to hide the underlying truth. I never wanted to be famous and originally I didn't want to do the show. I only did it as a favor to Mariah. So any assertions that this ended our friendship are false.
Her condescending comments and her bad mouthing me to everyone who would listen, coupled with the physical dispute, was the nail in the coffin for our friendship. In last week's episode she called me a rat and this week's episode she calls me a "f---ing roach" that she should have left me where she found me -- insinuating she found me in the slums, gutter, or ghetto. When I met her I was perusing a higher education on the colligate path, so I'm not sure how she got that confused. Calling me a "young ass girl" or "Little Miss Quad" to minimize me shows her lack of respect for me. Well honey, she's right I'm young -- but she left out fierce and fabulous! I bet you anything that if anyone of these ladies could shave off 10 years of their lives they would.
The STK incident was not filmed, so she can lie and deny what really happened -- and trust me she will. I’m hurt to the core. Over the years I have ignored and refused to believe others who have come to me on several occasions telling me things that Mariah has said about me. In the past, I would have read anyone for filth who spoke negatively about Mariah. However, it's not about what others have said. This is about what she said to my face. How much can one take? Her mantra has always been "you let people get in your ear." That just her strategic way of keeping me in the dark and only believing her words.
It's clear to me that she looks at me as a subordinate to her. For instance, her stating she's the tree and I'm only a branch. Everyone knows a branch in a small fragment of the tree. How about her statement, "I'm not getting off her chariot to throw tomatoes with you sweetheart" as if I was a peasant. A good friend with mutual respect would have never uttered such words. I didn't know that a friendship was a platform. I've always understood a friendship to be one of love, trust, bonding, protection, and honesty. You know, a real friendship! In a recent interview Mariah stated "It's almost like Quad is trying to surpass the teacher. Stating she trained me. Well that's new to me. She can't teach me anything, she's learning herself. I thought we were learning together. It's clear to me no matter how she tries to mask it. Her comments reflect the one of a jealous person. Her insecurities of me being the breakout star of Married to Medicine has led her to become envious, jealous, and physical towards me. So I stand corrected my attitude has changed towards Mariah but not because of fame. I now see her for who she really is and she's not the person she wants the world to believe she is. I thought we were going to kill it together (meaning take the entertainment business by storm) but she just killed us. . .
I didn't like how things went down in the tranquility room. There was nothing tranquil about the tranquility room. It was more like Heartbreak Hotel for me, but I’m overjoyed that I served as an inspiration for Simone and Toya to mend fences. Simone, my hat goes off to you. It takes a big person to take ownership for their actions and be humble enough to apologize.
Speaking of Lisa I'm happy to learn that she only had benign cyst. I love how Lisa's family came together in prayer, love, and support. A family that prays together stays together. I'm elated that Lisa is cancer-free!
Taking in consideration all that has transpired between Mariah and I, it was really a struggle for me in making my decision rather or not to invite her to the Women of Atlanta Fashion show. Reco, at the time being both our friend, really wanted us to try to salvage our friendship. In my heart I wanted the same. Yet, I was a bit apprehensive not knowing the outcome. Was I ever so wrong! I should have followed my first mind and just gave it time. Stay tuned for more Married To Medicine. . .
Watch The Docs and Quad On Call HERE. It's a digital talk show and a funny forum where myself, Dr. Jackie, Dr. Simone, and Dr. Heavenly answer all types of questions about everything from relationships and sex, to personal hygiene and health. Not only is the girly gab fest entertaining and informative, it's the perfect place to get some of your embarrassing medical queries addressed.