A Legend In His Own Mind

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Love Life, Shed Light, and the Rest Will Follow

Incredibly Moved

I Choose To Be Me

A Hair Raising Season!

The Usual Suspects

Man in the Mirror

A Clear Picture

Don't Get It Twisted!

Egos Unmask!

A Lot of Fireworks

What a Ride

Spare the Drama!

A Dreamer and a Fighter

Say My Name, Bitches!

Big Egos and Big Shields

A Little Miracle

All You Need Is Love

Rollercoaster Relationship

I Have A Heart

The Power of the Word

Cutting Up On Lina

Too X-Rated

Going Against The Grain

Crazy Energy

Thinking Big

The Little Lies of Miami Social

Take No Prisoners

Glam Oily Bodies

Work Hard, Play Hard

No Place Like It



Proud and Privileged

A Legend In His Own Mind

Poly-Blend? Never! Ariel responds to Michael's comments.

Now that I have actually seen the full second episode, I feel that it was superior to the first episode as the plots are unfolding and the characters are becoming real and familiar to the viewers.

There were two really hilarious comments in the opening scenes of episode two. One in Particular that I liked was when Lina said to George "Geeeezzzz.. up tight a__" which was in context with their conversation on Lina's arrival back to Miami, which you saw in the opening of the second episode. Their confusing relationship is one of the most exciting parts of our series. Another funny statement was by Katrina when the dog was squealing in the park and Katrina said to Michael, "He's probably making the same noise you do when your in bed."

Maria and her Daughter:

The love between Maria and her daughter is real and beautiful to watch. As I see it, Maria's daughter is mature beyond her age and seems to understand her mother very well. The daughter takes the good and the bad that she sees and still maintains a loving relationship. It's not up to me to moralize Maria's relationship with her daughter. That's Maria's business, but the love is there and it's real.

Katrina and Ben:

The relationship between Katrina and Ben is explosive as they keep saying they're friends but they're constantly snipping at each other. each one seems to be trying to get the upper hand by retaliating on points that are really not important. For example Ben stated "some things never change" and Katrina came back with "May you find your future wife at the strip club, your mom will be so proud of you." He comes back to her and says "I'm not looking for a future wife" She replies "I'm not looking for a future husband." They're irritated with each other, but I feel they still love each other and may have some attachment issues.

Hardy and Trixia:

Their relationship doesn't seem to be one of sharing and giving to each other. One of the main issues is Trixia wanting to have a baby as she feels she's getting older and may be running out of time. Hardy feels that having a child would make him feel trapped. People who love each other and want to spend a lifetime together would normally want children. Trixia wants a child for the wrong reason and Hardy doesn't want a child also for the wrong reason. In my opinion they're the wrong people for each other. In order for them to succeed there has to be a major change in attitude and thinking for the both of them or find some one else. The main thing in a relationship other than sex is the ability to be unselfish and sharing.

Me and Hardy:

Hardy and I have worked together on many projects. I respect Hardy and I assume he respects me. It seems when I asked for something special he seemed irritated and not accommodating. I felt hurt by his statements on what tables are reserved or not reserved. Nothing in Miami is ever really, really reserved except if by owner request, and only people in Miami that know the inside of the club business, and operations knows that there is always someone that can over ride an executive decision at a nightclub or hotel. I should never have made the Sandra Bernhard remark. I didn't mean to be rude. I was once told by my grandfather that when I had a thought it was my prisone, but when I say it out loud, I become it's prisoner. It's something I do often and I have to learn how to control that tendency.

Me and Michael:

I believe Michael is very confused about me. As Shakespeare said "The lady doth protest too much" I think Michael would really like to have a relationship with me, but is afraid I would reject him and he can't handle rejection. His remarks about Cashmere and Poly-Blend shows how really insecure he really is. When someone tries to lower someone to bring themselves up it shows two things; jealousy and inferiority complex. By comparing me as poly-blend and making himself cashmere he personifies that statement. Regarding the Kardashian situation, I have spent some time with Kim over a year ago and even though I haven't spoken to her in awhile I still felt a loyalty to defend her when she is attacked, which Michael did. His reason for this attack is jealousy. He has this need to put me down in order to elevate himself which never works. I would have also defended her sister as well. When he said to Katrina in front of me describing the man he wanted to be he stated, "Not like Ariel gay " is for the same reason he attacks me generally, again to elevate himself by putting me down. That is usually a teenage approach. Michael is a legend in his own mind.

George and Lina:

In this first episode George questions his relationship with Lina, asking himself if this is lust or love. Lina's trip to St. Barths without telling George foments distrust. Distrust is hard to over come and hurts a person in general. Intellectually he knows Lina is not right for him. Emotionally George is trapped in this relationship and cant get out. George does not seem to have a future with Lina and he is confusing great sex with what a relationship should be. In order to love someone you need to like them. In the word LIKE L stands for Loyalty, I stands for integrity, K stands for Kindness and E stands for electrical energy. George has all these qualities towards Lina, but Lina does not and if George does not recognize this he will only stop himself from finding love and happiness. I've been through this before so I can relate. Lina is not a bad person, she is just not the right one for him.


I don't have anything to say about Sorah other than she is Intelligent, pretty and an all around good person. She puts up with peoples problems with good spirits and has an open mind. I respect her and any guy is lucky to have her.

I Choose To Be Me

Maria reflects on the season, and offers some words of advice.

Please show me a funny movie. After watching the finale of Miami Social I wanted to weep. Weep so hard that wolfs on an imaginary moon would hear me and come play with me and we can make it into a positive experience instead of the earth shattering, walls sweating in tears, give me 11 pills to take all at ones to kill myself, sweet one.

In one of the previous comments on my blogs a "viewer" asks if that is at all possible to be positive and assertive when life is a total mess and you dont see light at the end of the tunnel. My answer is yes. This is one of the two ways you can work this situation. One we all know. A lot of people follow quitting for real route. And I dont blame them. It is an easier way out. We all are going to die one day. I'd rather die knowing I tried to make my life enjoyable first. Another way (BETTER FOR ME) is to stay positive. To learn to twist your attitude around (it's all in your head, trust me) is by doing things that make us want to smile and that change our moods to the right direction. It's that simple and physical. To try and try and try and try and try. I promise there is always sun after the rain. The same viewer asks if that would have really helped if someone was there to tell me to be positive and assertive and pat me on shoulder in my harder days?

The answer is YES YES YES. I cant stress enough how important it is to have a support system. Please go out there to cafes, libraries, clubs, just go for a walk in a park, join your local photography club (pick a club for the hobby you have),  put an advert online on dating site, reconnect with your friends that live nearby. Do ANYTHING to start communicating with people and build friendships. Go do fun things together that will help you bond and become better friends. Then in the moment when u feel your throat is tightened by fear and all you can think of is that roof of that building across from yours and flying down like a bird if only for 1 minute until you hit it hard, when you feel your heart squeezed with unexplainable turmoil and the need to flush it out of your chest cavity you can reach out to your friend, stalk their doorway if needed and get that pat on shoulder and help. Sometime when your friend feels low and u want to cheer them up by taking them to new art exhibit or buying them a glass of champagne and share, you inadvertently pick your own spirits up.

Having friends is all around good. For you and for them. I am experiencing highs and lows a lot even now and I am far from where I see myself on life's map. It does not however stop me from enjoying myself in everyday simple things. I do still feel lonely and it's even worse knowing Angelika is far away in school. My cats warm my bed when I come home alone after party or a long photo shoot (to answer numerous questions about where you can see more of my work go to my website and there are times when I want to "hang my chaps" and just give up. But I am not letting myself. I feel like I always can go for that later, if ever.

I choose to dream big, do my yoga every day, cycle in gym instead of shrink visits, work on my fine art and have my assistant busy with organizing my jet set travels all over the globe plotting the world take over that's OH SO SWEET and hey everyone can enjoy this ride with me! I choose to be me. When I am on a roller-coaster at amusement park, the one that scares the sh*t out of everyone - baby strapped around me and in for a ride that might make their pants wet, I am envisioning myself getting an Oscar on stage in a beautiful gown and you know what I feel? JOY and overlwelming heart warmth , not fear of the construction falling down and my insides splattering on metal railings of it. Power of visualization takes us to incredible heights. TRY IT. Tell me how it works for you.

I feel like there is never going to be a boring 100% calm period in our lives. I am learning to feel grateful for challenge. Whether it is in our jobs or personal relationships. Challenges and difficulties meant to make us grow. Our souls and our hearts. I feel it's not about what the problem is, but how you deal with it. So you learn. Learn to appreciate it and embrace it.

I feel for everyone (my friends) on the show. I feel for Lina and George, they are trying and this is admirable. I wish there was someone to REALLY help them figure it all out. I wonder if we can fully UNDERSTAND each other. I felt frustrated numerous times in my life and relationships where I felt I was from Venus and they were from Mars (book by John Gray) and I really wanted to talk to them using language we both would fully understand. I still do not know if that in fact is a possibility. I am also learning there is not ONE truth — mine of-course, but many. As many as there are people involved in one particular argument (reading my friend's autobiography and learning it on the fly). I wonder why I had to meet this guy just now and not 15 years ago when the realization of multiple truths existence would have saved me so many tears (hey I could use them to add on to the ocean's salt, so global warming would not be a real threat :).  Now I also wonder if I can actually implement this thinking in my life??? Can you ??

I feel for Katrina. I have been asked if I am jealous of her and if that is why I pick on her. I dont think i am jealous. It's just my habit of calling people out on their BS (or what I think is BS) when I see it peek it's ugly face out from under the life's regularity. My kudos for Kat's growing experience. Hey when I was 28 (like Kat now) I made a bunch of mistakes too, that are painful to think of, and boy I am not sure I would want them to be documented in areality TV based way. I really wish more of what's REALLY happening in Kat's head and life was out there. It's a far better learning experience for everyone viewing THAT, then something you can only see when u dig an inch deep.

I feel for Michael. He would do so well just being born a girl in 1950s. He would make an amazing housewife with talent to turn into that bitch in bed and glamourpuss on man's hand at the dare events of the year. But he is born in male's body) hot one albeit :) with receding hair (he is working on it and dont u dare to blame him for it, and PLEASE dont tell him to just shave his head, he will cry in response and hate you forever : ) and he has an amazing six pack. He is smart. And a very talented writer and soon to become a very successful business entrepreneur. I wish for the right investor to cross Michael's path and for the style lab online get wider audience! With the right team put together(in place) and passion (in place) and right investment (?) it will grow to become successful business of helping others to be better themselves.

I feel for Trixia because she can join the "my boyfriends is an asshole" club and that is not where we all want to be. I wish for Hardy to stop playing host in his own life and take charge of it and go for what he wants rather then trying to satisfy other people's needs only and then finding himself unhappy with the way it makes him feel. TRAPPED.

I feel for Ariel but u know what? He will be just fine. Because money can always buy you another session with shrink. And money is what he says he has. So all I can give is peck on a cheek and pat on shoulder and Ariel you can always call me for that :)

I feel for Sorah and wish her to let go. I know how hard it can be and I do not know if that is at all possible. Especially when you live in the same building. But I am sure sooner or later things will settle down in her heart and i am sure that will be the right choice.

I read in LA times this week in interview with Criss Angel: "When we're kids, we sit there and play with mom's brush and pretend it to be an airplane, because we're able to suspend our disbelief. But as we get to be adults, society tells us that's wrong and we have to conform." Please don't ever conform.

We are still here - IT IS SOMETHING. Here is my order for you from the menu of life - MAKE IT COUNT! Check back on me often on me on my website I have fallen into habit of blogging about what had happened in my life and what I am going through and for some of you it can work as an inspiration to go and get it ! I need your support as much as you need mine. Together we can make this world spin! That's what friends are for.