Cast Blog: #MIAMISOCIAL

A Little Miracle

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Love Life, Shed Light, and the Rest Will Follow

Incredibly Moved

I Choose To Be Me

A Hair Raising Season!

The Usual Suspects

Man in the Mirror

A Clear Picture

Don't Get It Twisted!

Egos Unmask!

A Lot of Fireworks

What a Ride

Spare the Drama!

A Dreamer and a Fighter

Say My Name, Bitches!

Big Egos and Big Shields

All You Need Is Love

Rollercoaster Relationship

I Have A Heart

The Power of the Word

Cutting Up On Lina

Too X-Rated

Going Against The Grain

Crazy Energy

Thinking Big

The Little Lies of Miami Social

Take No Prisoners

A Legend In His Own Mind

Glam Oily Bodies

Work Hard, Play Hard

No Place Like It

Ouch!

Whipped

Proud and Privileged

A Little Miracle

Lina, babies, and scandal. Oh my! George covers it all.

Yes it happened exactly like that....I think it was the happiest and scariest moment I'd ever experienced. It happened I think like this, 'My first child on the way!!! WOW! Oh my God - My first child -S%#%!!!!' I think being the analytical type I really started thinking about everything we needed to do at the same time trying to figure out if I was having an out-of-body experience. Is my name George? Am I dreaming? As volatile as things between Lina and I are I really think its a miracle and I think she could be a great mom! Obviously we have our share of things to work on, and oh boy, could only imagine when the whole hormone thing really starts to take place.

So as you can imagine to find out that we were not having the child soon after, it was very emotional and sad for both of us. In addition to doubting her pregnancy I know a lot of you are going to say I dodged a bullet here. I really don't look at it that way.

In the last 4 episodes of Miami Social, Lina has come off as off the wall basically, and me being just as crazy for putting up with it (I've been called a wimp and she has been referred to as 'the devil'). The fact is you see what are the major points of drama, what you do miss is that Lina and I both are successful business owners that work 12-16 hours a day, 5-6 days a week (in fact it's quite common for her to work 20 hours a day+), and feel the same economic pressures as most of the country. Not to mention we are both in real estate and have probably felt even more than most industries. Lina started several businesses on her own and with her family since coming to the country only 7 years ago (not speaking the language or knowing anyone, with a few dollars in her pocket) and made a substantial name for herself accross many facets from interior design to real estate to emergency services. In addition, as a person she is very warm, affectionate, and believe it or not even NICE most of the time. We both are very good at pushing each others buttons, which is something we are both guilty of. However I think most of you can identify with that one guy or girl you dated (and maybe even ended up marrying) who you had more passion than anyone else, which also led to some of the worst arguments. Well welcome to mine!

Communication is key and that I believe that was our biggest short coming, but is something that can be worked on to develop more trust. I'm not trying to go out and convince everyone that Lina is perfect or that I'm perfect (or I'm no Angel, as Mrs. Lankina so eloquently stated in one of her blogs), because honestly I don't care what others think (which is the reason I signed up to do the show and opening up our lives )-it matters only what I feel. But I did feel it necessary to give a little bit of insight on Lina and her 'Story.'

Bottom line is everyone has their drama, some more than others. It has to do with the happiness that your partner brings you and ultimately being happy with yourself....this is a difficult relationship, but nothing good comes easy, and if it did I don't think it would be appreciated as much. This was an emotional time, I realize it may cause some uneasiness amongst people, but was pivotal in the relationship. I hope it made us both more mature and appreciative of each other and the things we have, even though neither of us take anything for granted....

I was just reading through all the comments that people were making in response to my blogs. I'm asked to take some time to comment on the episode weekly. I realize that every week I have found myself directly or indirectly defending myself and my relationship (this blog being no different). Dramatic realationships are great TV and kinda like a car wreck on the side of the road that you can't look away from. My intention in the last blog was to sincerely address what has taken place up to this point and specifically in the last episode: including why I've reacting to Lina the way I have, a bit more incite into what attracted me to her and my feelings put into words that may sometimes escape theTV screen.

I wanted to post this blog before the next episode because I never addressed viewers comments....maybe this is the medium, maybe not, but far be it for me to hold off for fear of additional criticism. I have read every single comment that was made since the frist episode aired. I would like to thank you for taking the time to comment with your opinions and real life experiences. Some comments speaking to unhealthy relationships they were in that mimic mine, some telling me to RUN and some actually saying love comes in all different packaging, that we should hang in. Quite honestly I pride myself on making my own judgement calls-and not letting people interfere in my life whether friend, foe or otherwise; but only an ignorant person ignores others input and past history altogether. In fact, I personally used a quote that someone included in their comment  - the definition of insanity.

I'm 33 years old and I realize I have still much to learn and experience. I also realize "you learn for a lifetime but live for the day," as my psuedo-adopted little sister Tiffany posted on her Facebook. After having a quick lunch with her where we both just started spouting off how rough its been to reach our monthly goals for our prospective business, I quickly realized what is really important. We both love making money but funny enough it went right into her talking about finding a good man that she would be interested in having a family with, and the difficulty she's had associated with this. Obviously playing the big bro-been there done that role, saying "Hang in there, you'll meet the right person." I wish everyone who's having a not so good day/week/year has at least someone who can bring a smile to them - and for that I have counted myself lucky....

-George "The Bleeding Heart" LOL!

I Choose To Be Me

Maria reflects on the season, and offers some words of advice.

Please show me a funny movie. After watching the finale of Miami Social I wanted to weep. Weep so hard that wolfs on an imaginary moon would hear me and come play with me and we can make it into a positive experience instead of the earth shattering, walls sweating in tears, give me 11 pills to take all at ones to kill myself, sweet one.

In one of the previous comments on my blogs a "viewer" asks if that is at all possible to be positive and assertive when life is a total mess and you dont see light at the end of the tunnel. My answer is yes. This is one of the two ways you can work this situation. One we all know. A lot of people follow quitting for real route. And I dont blame them. It is an easier way out. We all are going to die one day. I'd rather die knowing I tried to make my life enjoyable first. Another way (BETTER FOR ME) is to stay positive. To learn to twist your attitude around (it's all in your head, trust me) is by doing things that make us want to smile and that change our moods to the right direction. It's that simple and physical. To try and try and try and try and try. I promise there is always sun after the rain. The same viewer asks if that would have really helped if someone was there to tell me to be positive and assertive and pat me on shoulder in my harder days?

The answer is YES YES YES. I cant stress enough how important it is to have a support system. Please go out there to cafes, libraries, clubs, just go for a walk in a park, join your local photography club (pick a club for the hobby you have),  put an advert online on dating site, reconnect with your friends that live nearby. Do ANYTHING to start communicating with people and build friendships. Go do fun things together that will help you bond and become better friends. Then in the moment when u feel your throat is tightened by fear and all you can think of is that roof of that building across from yours and flying down like a bird if only for 1 minute until you hit it hard, when you feel your heart squeezed with unexplainable turmoil and the need to flush it out of your chest cavity you can reach out to your friend, stalk their doorway if needed and get that pat on shoulder and help. Sometime when your friend feels low and u want to cheer them up by taking them to new art exhibit or buying them a glass of champagne and share, you inadvertently pick your own spirits up.

Having friends is all around good. For you and for them. I am experiencing highs and lows a lot even now and I am far from where I see myself on life's map. It does not however stop me from enjoying myself in everyday simple things. I do still feel lonely and it's even worse knowing Angelika is far away in school. My cats warm my bed when I come home alone after party or a long photo shoot (to answer numerous questions about where you can see more of my work go to my website http://www.marialankina.com) and there are times when I want to "hang my chaps" and just give up. But I am not letting myself. I feel like I always can go for that later, if ever.

I choose to dream big, do my yoga every day, cycle in gym instead of shrink visits, work on my fine art and have my assistant busy with organizing my jet set travels all over the globe plotting the world take over that's OH SO SWEET and hey everyone can enjoy this ride with me! I choose to be me. When I am on a roller-coaster at amusement park, the one that scares the sh*t out of everyone - baby strapped around me and in for a ride that might make their pants wet, I am envisioning myself getting an Oscar on stage in a beautiful gown and you know what I feel? JOY and overlwelming heart warmth , not fear of the construction falling down and my insides splattering on metal railings of it. Power of visualization takes us to incredible heights. TRY IT. Tell me how it works for you.

I feel like there is never going to be a boring 100% calm period in our lives. I am learning to feel grateful for challenge. Whether it is in our jobs or personal relationships. Challenges and difficulties meant to make us grow. Our souls and our hearts. I feel it's not about what the problem is, but how you deal with it. So you learn. Learn to appreciate it and embrace it.

I feel for everyone (my friends) on the show. I feel for Lina and George, they are trying and this is admirable. I wish there was someone to REALLY help them figure it all out. I wonder if we can fully UNDERSTAND each other. I felt frustrated numerous times in my life and relationships where I felt I was from Venus and they were from Mars (book by John Gray) and I really wanted to talk to them using language we both would fully understand. I still do not know if that in fact is a possibility. I am also learning there is not ONE truth — mine of-course, but many. As many as there are people involved in one particular argument (reading my friend's autobiography and learning it on the fly). I wonder why I had to meet this guy just now and not 15 years ago when the realization of multiple truths existence would have saved me so many tears (hey I could use them to add on to the ocean's salt, so global warming would not be a real threat :).  Now I also wonder if I can actually implement this thinking in my life??? Can you ??

I feel for Katrina. I have been asked if I am jealous of her and if that is why I pick on her. I dont think i am jealous. It's just my habit of calling people out on their BS (or what I think is BS) when I see it peek it's ugly face out from under the life's regularity. My kudos for Kat's growing experience. Hey when I was 28 (like Kat now) I made a bunch of mistakes too, that are painful to think of, and boy I am not sure I would want them to be documented in areality TV based way. I really wish more of what's REALLY happening in Kat's head and life was out there. It's a far better learning experience for everyone viewing THAT, then something you can only see when u dig an inch deep.

I feel for Michael. He would do so well just being born a girl in 1950s. He would make an amazing housewife with talent to turn into that bitch in bed and glamourpuss on man's hand at the dare events of the year. But he is born in male's body) hot one albeit :) with receding hair (he is working on it and dont u dare to blame him for it, and PLEASE dont tell him to just shave his head, he will cry in response and hate you forever : ) and he has an amazing six pack. He is smart. And a very talented writer and soon to become a very successful business entrepreneur. I wish for the right investor to cross Michael's path and for the style lab online get wider audience! With the right team put together(in place) and passion (in place) and right investment (?) it will grow to become successful business of helping others to be better themselves.

I feel for Trixia because she can join the "my boyfriends is an asshole" club and that is not where we all want to be. I wish for Hardy to stop playing host in his own life and take charge of it and go for what he wants rather then trying to satisfy other people's needs only and then finding himself unhappy with the way it makes him feel. TRAPPED.

I feel for Ariel but u know what? He will be just fine. Because money can always buy you another session with shrink. And money is what he says he has. So all I can give is peck on a cheek and pat on shoulder and Ariel you can always call me for that :)

I feel for Sorah and wish her to let go. I know how hard it can be and I do not know if that is at all possible. Especially when you live in the same building. But I am sure sooner or later things will settle down in her heart and i am sure that will be the right choice.

I read in LA times this week in interview with Criss Angel: "When we're kids, we sit there and play with mom's brush and pretend it to be an airplane, because we're able to suspend our disbelief. But as we get to be adults, society tells us that's wrong and we have to conform." Please don't ever conform.

We are still here - IT IS SOMETHING. Here is my order for you from the menu of life - MAKE IT COUNT! Check back on me often on me on my website http://www.marialankina.com I have fallen into habit of blogging about what had happened in my life and what I am going through and for some of you it can work as an inspiration to go and get it ! I need your support as much as you need mine. Together we can make this world spin! That's what friends are for.