I keep re-watching the first episode and it still had not worn itself out on me in its visual extravagance, juiciness and amount of amazing characters on one square of the TV screen.
I love re-watching the scenes with Michael. We have a synergy between us like only really good friends would! He makes me feel naughty - thank God he is gay!!! It makes me miss my time with my best friends in London, Prague, Lugano, New York, Los Angeles, Detroit, Saint Petersburg.
I am glad viewers had a chance to see me working, doing my thing. Several people approached me in the local Wild Oats with surprised look on their faces: "Oh my God i had no idea you had a job!" So often we hang labels on people (guilty as charged) and Miami is full of blonds with large breasts (albeit not all natural like me ) with questionable day jobs :). It's all about pro choice and believing you can change your life and go for it without doubts.
I am proud of the things I have achieved in life and I am REALLY lucky to have had an opportunity to meet amazing people on my life path, friends that were a tremendous help and inspiration for me. I've come a long way from Saint-Petersburg, Russia where my whole family moved into one room in a three room communal apartment living when I was 5 and mom brought all her family from an old Russian town so her kids would grow up surrounded by culture, theaters and beautiful architecture. And no I am not talking about the show itself as a huge achievement. I had experience surviving on my own with no friends, family or any kind of support system in a country with foreign language and with no equal education or job to set me off on an ideal path right away. All that had made me who I am today, and what you see on the show is what you get.
Now being 33 I have arrived to the point where I realize how important it is to be happy on an everyday basis, and how possible it is! Importance of high-end long term goals in undeniable, but I wish I could inject into everyone who I see without a smile on their faces or who's shoulders are down under the life's heaviness with the understanding that I have in every cell of my being , that we already have everything we need for happiness when we are born. We have legs to walk, arms to hug people we love, fingers to touch, eyes to see, ears to listen, and heart to feel. I have gone to understand beauty comes in all shapes and forms. And I have grown up to accept myself the way I am.
My daughter is going through this period right now. You know what teenagers are like :) Never like what they have and always want to be what they are not :) Hopefully she will arrive to the point of loving herself for who she is far faster then I have :)
I was approached to be part of the show and I agreed to be a part of it. Seeing it as an opportunity to share my point of view with the world through my personal experience as well as through my art work. As an artist I want more people to see my art and my art to find its place in people's homes and minds. More personal art expressions coming out in a form of exhibits in West Palm Beach, Miami and London very soon, I projects that had been in the works for the past two years :) and several large format photo books / exhibits i am working on at the moment. www.icybook.com and www.djsbookonline.com
Now back to the show. You guys have NO idea how much you still have to witness. There is so much painful drama coming your way in a form of watching a relationship between Lina and George. Please try not to demonize that girl or make out George as an angel in that realtionship. They truly are worth each other. Do I think their relationship is healthy? No, not really. I had a similar relationship before I and I am better off without it. It's been a long time but I a much happier, content woman now.
Of course there will be hilarious parts of the show mostly coming from Michael and me, of course! You all noticed no- matching underwear in the spa scene right? Hey, it's only in the movies that girls ALWAYS wear matching underwear. I'm starting a new trend! It doesn't always have to be perfec ! Thank God I wore any underwear that day for that matter - lol!
There are going to be plenty of glam oily bodies under the sun, buzzed gorgeous women, and sexy hot guys as a backdrop of the show. Of course amazing beautiful steamy Miami as a special guest character of the show as well and you will end up diving deep into the complexities of human relationships and personalities on the show.
Psssttt you can tell me secretly how many times you will watch every single episode. I wont tell ! :)