Cast Blog: #MDLNY

Tomorrow Is a New Day for Luis

Luis: I'm Evolving Every Day

Fredrik: I Wish I Deserved Luis' Friendship

Fredrik Is Feeling Bittersweet

Ryan: I Believe in Karma

Ryan on the Art of Selling

Fredrik Won't Give Up on Milla

Is Ryan a Handsome Piece of Cardboard?

Fredrik Says It's About to Get Dark

Luis: Ian Is a Great Person

Fredrik: This Deal Failing Was My Fault

Ryan Doesn't Really Hate LA

Luis Will Do What It Takes for Ian's Trust

Ryan: I Am Such a Jerk

Fredrik on His Baby Blues With Derek

Ryan on His Haunted House

Luis Will Be Committed to You

Fredrik Doesn't Buy Followers

Ryan Is Guilty as Charged

Fredrik: Is Ryan a Villian This Season?

Fredrik on Conquering the Impossible

Hey, Look Who's Back? Fun Ryan!

Luis Likes What He Sees

Luis Is So Proud of Todd

Ryan: I Played a Cartoon

Fredrik on the City's Saddest Penthouse

Luis D. Ortiz Has Evolved

Fredrik Loves You All

Ryan: This Season is a Game Changer

Ryan Gets Down in the Hole of Season 2

Luis Gives Thanks

Watch What Happens Tonight

It's All About Fredrik

Co-Listing Is Not Ryan's Style

Fredrik the Little Wizard

Going Straight to the Developers

Fredrik's Sharknado of Lies

Fredrik on Keeping it Professional

Luis' Perfect Pair: Film and Real Estate

Ryan is Humbled But Always On the Hunt

Fredrik: Who I Really Am

Tomorrow Is a New Day for Luis

Luis reflects on on getting fired and how proud of himself he is for not letting Ryan ruffle his feathers.

This episode made me so angry, so proud, so sad, but, at the same time, so happy that I able to be a part of such an incredible ride.

At first it made me angry because it reminded me of the moment Ryan came to my 30 Lincoln Plaza event, which I put so much work into, and almost destroyed every effort I made to build an incredibly important relationship with Janet and The Milstein Family.

Later, I felt proud of the way I reacted to the situation because I was able to keep my cool and did not allow anything to get in the way of the bigger picture. In the end, the event was a huge success.

Allow me to tell you the story behind 30 Lincoln Plaza. This deal, whether or not it sold, has been the biggest accomplishment of my career and I'll tell you why: It all started when I was doing research for a client of mine who was looking to buy an apartment on the Upper West Side. While I was studying the inventory I found out that this particular building, 30 Lincoln Plaza -- owned by Milstein Properties, was recording closed sales every other week, yet there was never anything listed for sale. That made me curious. . .If units in the building never appeared on the MLS, yet every week there was a new recorded sale, someone must have been selling quietly. For more than a month, I called persistently to get an appointment with any of the executives of the company to introduce myself as someone who wanted to do business with them and to give them a reason why should they consider doing business with me. The Milstein family is one of the most powerful real estate families in the nation and that's what really motivated me.

Eventually I got an appointment with Janet, the CAO of Milstein Properties. While I was preparing myself for that meeting, I found out that the organization has never given an exclusive agreement to any broker in history, because they have always used an on-staff group of brokers to sell their apartments for them. They have never needed any outside brokers like me. I knew I needed to give them a legitimate reason why they should, for the first time, agree to sign with an exclusive broker. On Episode 3 you saw my success in making that happen; I promised Janet I would bring her $800,000 more than their in house staff could. To be quite honest, I believe I can and I promise I won't rest until I do.

At the end of the episode, I got fired. It wasn't a good feeling. Looking back at it, I remember how I felt -- like my throat was swallowing itself. It killed me, it really did. Especially because I still had two more months left on my agreement and I strongly believed I was close to finding the right buyer for them. But what really destroyed me was that I wasn't able to prove myself the way I knew I would to to one of the most important people in New York City real estate. With families like that, you only have one shot. And the only one I had, which took a big fight to even earn, was not successful.

Janet is all business and to tell you the truth, I respect that so much. Because in the end it only comes down to what you can bring to the table. Like it or not that's the way it is.

I know that in the future something great will come out of it because in the end everything always works out. But for now, I'm going to need some time to analyze.

Tomorrow is a new day.

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Fredrik: I Wish I Deserved Luis' Friendship

Fredrik opens up about filming a Reunion, his baby plans, what he learned about Ryan, and where he stands with Luis now.

Filming a Reunion was a first for me. It was very intense, and long, with tears, disagreements, some laughter too, and an opening to understanding the other two guys. I am so happy we got to do it, to actually sit with Andy and take a good look back at this year and each other. I also got to look at myself, my relationship, and my own actions. You see, we film for so many months and then we watch it like you guys do, and I get proud, I get sad, I get happy, I have so many emotions I never voice, until the Reunion. And that felt good.

Opening up on our baby issue was tough but we are working through it. Derek is my rock and we do understand each other more now, partly because of the show.

Discussing my past with Ryan was healing. Getting to know Emilia was maybe the best part of it all for me because it makes me understand Ryan so much more, and I am interested in getting to know him more. We are so totally different, our styles couldn't be more opposite and that's OK too, actually kind of interesting. I really don't dislike him anymore and I'm starting to understand his humor more.

And then Luis. . .I wish I could deserve his friendship. I wish he wouldn't have said the things he did, and seen my sides of things. I wish I had a different way of communicating with him. I wish I wouldn't have lost his trust a long time ago. I wish I was better on apologizing. For now we will move in different directions. I will be cautious and guarded and then we will see. I do wish him the best with everything, I truly do, and it was hurtful to see him cry like that, but also beautiful I think. I have told him that after the Reunion, and that he should be proud to be able to open up like that.

When it comes to the future I am excited -- excited for my offices in Europe, my team in New York, the almost two dozen new development projects I have coming. My clients. I am even excited to have a baby, one day, soon. I'm not giving up! And then I'm excited for the future of this show. . .

Until then I want to thank all of you for watching. Doing this show has been the most difficult, but rewarding thing I have ever done. Your support and love for us three makes it worth it all. And fun. Thanks to the network for believing in us and making us look so good at what we do (and handsome!). #Weeeee

Now I'm going to celebrate with a high-kick and dinner with Derek and my family visiting from Sweden. Follow me on Instagram (@fredrikeklundny) until I see you on my TV screen again xoxoxo and thanks again.

Much love,
Fredrik your crazy loving meatball

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