Amy Laurent

Amy can't believe she broke her own rules and had dinner with her ex.

on Jun 18, 2012

If one of you said to me, “Amy, my ex (who hurt me) is coming back into town and wants to see me,” I would have said “absolutely not” and I would have made it my duty to save you from yourself. I would have set you up on blind dates for every night of the week your ex was here if I had to in order to keep you from sabotaging yourself or falling into destructive behavior!

So what the hell happened to me? I know. Guys, this is a little painful for me. I’m confused as to what just happened. The dinner with AB seemed to be happening in slow motion, and at any given moment I felt like I was being stabbed in the stomach multiple times while trying to keep a smile on my face. I’m wondering why I wasn’t more direct and to the point with him. And honestly, I’m pissed I even went. Never did I think that seeing AB now, after so much time has passed, would result in feeling like this. I was supposed to be over this! I was not supposed to be that same insecure person I was when I was with him a year and a half ago.

Or at least that’s what I told myself as an excuse to go see him. Watching it happen now, it’s tough. I would NEVER advise a client to do that. There are no "special situations," no exceptions to any of my rules. Ever. Myself included. For this exact reason!