Humble Pie

Courtney knows she still has some apologizing to do to Neill.

One of my favorite quotes is, "Humility is the best defense against humiliation." It reminds me to stay graceful, poised, kind, and humble. So with that said, before I get down to business, who wants a slice of humble pie? Aww heck, I think I'm going to need more than just a slice…

Dinner with Matt was incredibly emotional. To date, that dinner haunts me. I remember sitting at the table thinking, "This isn't how we are. We never fight. We never argue. We always have each other's back. This isn't how best friends should be. No person has ever come between us." Throughout the conversation, no matter what either one of us said, we couldn't agree on anything. And in typical Courtney and Matt fashion, we both stuck to our guns. Hard. I left that dinner wondering if our relationship would ever be the same and if Neill would be the one girl who I would lose my best friend to. 

Things got put into perspective when I spent the day with Tara and my mom. My mother always has this incredible way of helping me clear my head when it begins to fill with nonsense. She made me realize that although I am entitled to my own (strong) opinion, I let it get the best of me, and as a result, hurt both Neill and Matt. At this point I am looking forward to going to dinner with Neill, swallowing my pride, and saying those three simple words: I am sorry.

But Neill wasn't exactly receptive to my attempt at an apology, and understandably so. While we were eating dinner, I tried to ask more questions to get to know her. But talking to Neill didn't feel comfortable or natural. I REALLY just wanted to cut to the chase and be typical, loudmouth, sarcastic, "in your face" Courtney, but that's what got me into trouble to begin with. And when I finally mustered up the courage to apologize and ask for forgiveness, she wasn't having it. At all. I understand why she was so defensive, and I realize that I made her that way…I just hope she's not one to hold a grudge.

Because Neill and I got off to a really rocky start, I can tell that this relationship is going to be an uphill battle. Neill deserves my sincerity, my kindness, and my apology, and I hope that I get another chance to give her all those things. We will probably never agree on our opinions of right and wrong, because we come from two different worlds, but I hope that we can put this behind us and start over. So far, both dinners have ended poorly…I'm just hoping the third time's the charm. 

And as strange as it may sound, this whole mess has become a blessing in disguise. It has reminded me that I'm not perfect, I'm not always right, and that perception is reality. 

For more of my thoughts, follow me on Twitter @TheCourtneyKerr.


I Left My Heart in San Francisco

Glenn may be sad about leaving Dallas, but he's looking forward to spending time with Rebecca.

Since this is the last episode, I am pretty bummed out! I am heading to Oakland, CA. Although I am going to miss all my friends here in Dallas, it's time for me to get back to work and start training for the football season coming up. Not to mention the fact that Rebecca lives in San Francisco and I will be able to hang out with her in such an amazing city (the same city where we first met).

It was fun getting Matt back out on the football field and having him throw the ball around with me and my buddy Brett (who is actually the punter now for the Houston Texans). I have known Brett for about eight years now and consider him the little brother that I always wanted.

It was hard for me at dinner to tell everyone that I was leaving. I didn't really know where to start, so I just came out and said it. I think I caught everyone by surprise, but they all knew eventually I was going to have to head back out there. They just didn't know when. I'm going to miss them while I am gone!

Neill's concert was a blast! She has such a catchy and pretty voice to say the least! It was definitely a good way to send me off, having everyone there and enjoying each other's company. I really hope this isn't the last time I talk with you guys. I enjoyed writing these blogs each week and hearing your responses.

In our downtime follow me on Twitter @glennpakulak. Until next time!