I want to get all the negative stuff out of the way first. I made some very big mistakes with Cody. I have thought about what I did wrong for a long time, and I have to live with the pain. I really screwed up with Cody. The pain hurt my heart for months. I really do love him. No matter what happens in life, I will always have a place in my heart for him. It seems like in my life every time I get into a relationship that might work out, it just falls apart.
After Cody broke my heart you all saw me cry. I have never cried over a man like that before ever in my life. I was hurting so badly after Cody left the restaurant. I didn't know what to do, but I was so grateful that Tara and Daylon were there for me. They rushed over to me at the last minute. Seriously, I don't know what I would do without them. During the next couple of hours I was a mess. Tara was a complete saint. She called everyday to check on me. She knew I was hurt and even made sure I was eating. For the next couple of months it was really hard for me to get back into dating. It really felt like an incredible mountain to climb.