Ashlee's Breaking Point
Ashlee questions Amanda and Erica's loyalty.
I think there’s one thing that all of the Princesses can agree on: Sunday’s episode was very difficult and hard on our friendships. There’s a side to every story, but I’m going to set a few things straight. Let me start with this:
“Life is an awful, ugly place to not have a best friend.” –Sarah Dessen, Someone Like You
I consider myself one of the luckiest people in the world because I have two best friends in Chanel and Casey. That quote could not be more true. Our last trip to Montauk was both awful and ugly, but at the end of the day, I know that I’m not alone, and that’s what gets me through all of the hate that is out there.
Amanda and Erica say they didn’t want to be involved, but honestly, they already were involved. The fact that Erica lied about the text message made me realize how little she values our friendship, and at the same time, what does that say about her friendship with Joey? I can’t tolerate lies and betrayal. I’m not going to be friends with people who are two-faced. When Chanel and I called Casey, she immediately sprang into action. I was crying tears of betrayal and hurt. The fight between Joey and I had been building all summer long, and it’s evident just how much it had all gotten to me. I felt so attacked and so alone. I can’t thank Chanel enough for standing by me and Casey for being there for me no questions asked. These are my true friends.
I apologize for bringing Joey’s mom into this. At that point, I wanted Joey to feel the same pain that I was feeling. It’s funny that she goes around attacking everything about my family for months and months and judging my mom and dad, yet when I mention her family, she acts outraged at the thought of it. It is absolutely unacceptable what Erica said about my parents. To call them “short f***** was both hateful and hypocritical. I’m honestly still fuming over the disrespect.
I believe in transparency and owning up to who you are. If you have been following since the beginning you know that I have stood by my family, Chanel and Casey, and they in turn have stood by me. I’m embarrassed that so much drama happened on that trip, but I also think my breaking point had been coming for awhile. Those that know me know how badly I was hurt by the whole situation.
Thank you to everyone who has been sending me encouragement and love! Honestly, life is too short to spend so much time hating. I’m trying to move forward surrounded by the people who bring positivity into my life. These are the people that make me a better person. Follow me @ashleewhite23! Next week… finale!