Manis, Pedis, and the Real Ashlee

Ashlee White apologizes for her "ghetto" comments.

Ashlee: Manis, Pedis and the Real Me

Hello kingdom (and by kingdom I mean my family, my friends, and the fans I adore and appreciate more than words can express)!

I have been a spiraling whirlwind these past few days, so here’s what you need to know and in this order…

First and foremost, I extend my sincerest heartfelt apology for anyone I hurt or offended with the comments I made in Freeport. I was stressed, overwhelmed, and not thinking. I’m not excusing myself, but truly want everyone to know how sorry I am. If you think you know me after one scene, you are short changing yourself because my heart is as large as my stature is short.

With that being said, allow me to introduce myself. Yes, I’m a petite princess living the life of luxury (and loving every minute of it). I’m also a loyal friend who’s controlled by her heart moreso than her head. My family serves as my best friends. My sister is my clone. My mother is my role model and best friend. My father is the king that any future suitor must compare to. 

By now I hope you’ve all watched the first episode -- and what an episode it was! Let’s star at the very beginning…

I absolutely adore Chanel’s parents, and just watching the first scene made me fall in love with them even more. Her sister’s advice was jackpot: don’t settle and find someone to kiss your feet! I’ll cheers to that! I don’t think Chanel realizes what an amazingly special person she is and that she deserves nothing but the best. I’m such a family girl, and it makes me happy to see her family looking out for her so fiercely and whole-heartedly. She’s a great catch and everyone should recognize it.We all know that Chanel comes from a modern Orthodox family, so I must say I was a little appalled to see the way Erica’s parents joked about the hot dogs. I don’t think they meant any harm by it, but I couldn’t help gasping at the thought of Chanel and her parents finding out the truth! On to matters of the heart… I agree with Chanel. You can’t be friends with an ex! I couldn’t have said it better myself -- when the past calls, let it go to voicemail! That’s how I feel about ex-boyfriends and even friends who have stabbed me in the back. LEAVE A MESSAGE AT THE TONE… BEEP!

I’m thrilled you all got to see mani/pedis with my dad. My father is the complete package. He’s polished, intelligent, professional, and always put together, so it should be no surprise that his hands and feet are always presentable. People say real men wear pink. I say real men get mani/pedis. Come on -- your nails are like a second face. And for the record, Vanilla Shimmer is a scrub, not a nail color, sillies! The nail salon revealed other important differences in my family. My mom and dad are super creative and always thinking outside the box. Seriously, my mom should be a spokeswoman for OPI because she must have tried every single color. Not me. I wear red or pink. Or red. Or pink. The truth is, though, our differences don’t go much beyond nail color. Every man I ever look at must live up to my father, and my mom embodies the wife and mother I can only hope to someday be. 

Here’s where you get to know the true Ashlee White. My motto is, “If I can’t wear stilettos, I can’t go!” I guess everyone can see now that applies to all situations. Don’t think I’m kidding. I truly have an entire collection of heels spanning all genres: sweat pant heels, daytime heels, nighttime heels, beach heels, slipper heels…

Let me just say the owner who carried to me my car was beyond awesome. I started out asking as a joke, but when he agreed of course I was going to jump on! I really appreciate him being such a good sport and helping me to the car.Alright, am I the only one creeped out by Joey’s “lucky sperm club” comment?! I find that offensive to both men and women. Not that I want to get into anatomy or gender issues here, but let’s be honest: rich heiresses or single-working mothers can spoil their children just as much as a father can and then what? Do we call those kids members of the “lucky egg club?”

On to bikini shopping with Amanda, her mom, and Jeff… another situation that just screamed AWKWARD to me. Don’t get me wrong. I love how close Amanda is to her mom because we totally share that, but I felt like the shopping went a little too far. I was watching and my mouth literally dropped at Jeff’s reaction to Amanda and her mom trying on bathing suits. There’s no way that would fly with me if my boyfriend was making those comments, but to each her own.

Last but not least, let’s discuss the pool party. Health issues have always had a nasty habit of creeping up at me at the worse times. Actually, that’s what I thought at first, but by the end, my health issues paled in comparison to the drama that unfolded. So Sarah, or "Red Bikinig Girl" as she is more officially known, is what I like to call a sloppy tuna tar tar. Here’s what I’m thinking: “Why is she telling me about Facebook right now? I clearly don’t care and am seriously trying to find the point to this story.” It’s funny because the hottie boom bottie in the turquoise shirt next to me is sharing in my embarrassment over this “story.” Is there a sign on my forehead that says, “I’m so bored that I’m dying to know about your FACEBOOK ACTIVITY!”? Like, I don’t care if you poked, shared, liked or friended someone, I’m not interested. So I won’t even get into the unbelievable offensive word she used or hint at its existence. That’s just not OK. It’s just not.I ended up in tears because my friend and her boyfriend felt attacked. Joey may truly believe that she’s not her friend’s protector or keeper or whatever, but let’s add one more “not” to that list… she’s not a true friend. If she had any loyalty to Amanda she should have stopped what was happening. That much was owed. I’m the girl who feels the pain of others so I think standing by and letting such disrespect occur is just as bad as being the one to dish out the disrespect.

Well, that’s it for now friends. I’m so flattered and appreciative of each and every one of you for tuning in and reading my blog. Please follow me at @ashleewhite23 and LIKE my new fan page I can’t wait until Episode 2 Sunday night at 9pm! I’m super excited about meeting Casey Cohen in this week’s show, so make sure you watch!

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Ashlee: "I Have Lupus"

Ashlee reveals her medical complications over the last few years.

I can’t believe Season 1 of Princesses is over. First and foremost, thank you to everyone who tuned in this summer. It was a one-of-a-kind journey, and I’m so grateful to all of you who have continued to watch, tweet, like, and follow the #Princesses. There’s so much more that that I wish you could have seen! Unfortunately 40 minutes is only enough time to get a small glimpse into our lives -- and all of the drama, friendships, highs, and lows that go along with it.

For me, last summer was a journey of struggles and strength. You didn’t get to see everything, so I want to fill in some of the gaps. I had my first stroke in 2011… and yes, it took a little more than Benadryl to get me back on my feet. It was without a doubt the scariest thing that has ever happened to me. I remember my entire right side going numb, not being able to speak, being rushed to the hospital, and doctors rushing around me. The recovery process was horrific. I continued to have trouble speaking. I lost my short-term memory. I was bedridden for eight months. At that point, I started to lose sight of who I was. My personality was withering away. I would look in the mirror and just start sobbing because a stranger was looking back at me. If it hadn’t been for my incredible family, I would not be where I am today. They literally pulled me through to the other side. When I was ready to give up, they told me that wasn’t an option. I know you got to see just how close I am to my parents and my sister this season. While we have always been a tight family, my health struggles increased our bond. I definitely depend on them more than I ever did before, and they are clearly extremely protective over me.

The show could not have come at a better time in my life! At the beginning of last summer, I was just starting to feel back to my old self. I was happy, wanting to be around people, and feeling so blessed. Ashlee was back! In doing the show, I was hoping for people to get to know the real me. I wanted to share a little bit about my story and inspire others. 
This is the message that I want to share with everybody: regardless of your favorites on the show or what you think of me, I want the people who feel like they have no strength to remember that it’s at your lowest points that you can learn to rise above. “You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice.” –anonymous

After the show, I was on a fun girls' trip to Miami when I had my second stroke. I was at the FontaineBleau hotel laughing and lounging by the pool. This time, I knew what was happening and remember grabbing my friend. Everyone at the hotel sprung into action, and I was quickly rushed to the hospital. All I really remember from being admitted was waking up to my dad standing next to me. My parents were quick to tell me that Casey, Chanel, and Erica had all been calling to check in on me. I’m so fiercely loyal to those who have helped me through my sickest days. It’s why I am protective over my friends. Being back to square one was definitely a tough pill to swallow, but I recovered much quicker this time. Then, a couple months later, I was diagnosed with Lupus. 
All of this helps explain the past couple of years for those of you who don’t fully know me. I’m definitely a fighter, and I am so grateful for my family and the loyal friends who have helped me through everything. I’ve changed a lot since being sick. I hope you got to see how big my heart is. There is so much more that I have learned from my struggles that I wish you all got to see a little more of!

Wandering off at the winery that day was stupid. I didn’t have the foresight to ask the winery owners for help. It had been such a long and emotionally draining day for all of us. I wasn’t thinking clearly, and I put myself in a lot of danger. I will forever be grateful to Chanel and Casey for their friendship and sticking by me. I’ve said it all season because it is so important to me. They truly know what it means to be a friend. They stood by me in the middle of a lot of hateful drama and that means the world to me.

Chanel brought us all together at the end. That group hug at the end was real. No matter what happened, we will all share a special bond because of what we went through together last summer.  

I have learned so much from just one season of this show. I think all of the cast members will agree that having your life captured on camera really shines a light on some of your not-so-proud moments. I’m the type of person who never wants to make others feel inferior or bad about themselves. This show has taught me just how important it is to show people the side of me that my friends and family know. I want others to see my big heart in everything I do and say. Lastly, I continue to feel blessed. I always say that I’m a girl who has it all… and also knows how quickly everything becomes nothing when you lose your health. So, for now, I’m holding on to what’s important in my life.

For now, you can still follow me! I appreciate my fans more than you know and am so grateful for the opportunity to get to connect with you! Follow me @ashleewhite23 and LIKE my fan page.

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