Bettering Myself

Our first season ends in dramatic fashion and I have to say I'm sad to see it go. The very end of the season finale was strong and dramatic, what a great song they chose to play on the background, huh? I get goose bumps just thinking of it!

I also want to take this time to thank everyone for all the love, support, for their input and advice. The feedback has touched and helped me.

One of the most frequent questions I’ve been getting is why I woul put myself out there for the world to see my private life, and that I should be glad to see it end?

To this my answer is simple: I try to take advantage of every opportunity, to better myself, and learn. I believe life is about exploring yourself and the world around you. This opportunity, this season was extremely insightful. I learned about myself and my relationships, in particular, my relationship with George. I found, in watching myself and my reactions, that I need to put boundaries on the relationship in order to move on with my new partner in life. Until I watched myself from outside, I would have probably continued on with George in the same way. This most definitely would have and started to inhibit Gonzalo and me from every really exploring ourselves and growing together as a couple. George and my friendship has put strain on both our relationships to the point that we've both pushed potentially great partners away for one reason or the other. Though I loved George and we had many good years together and great experiences, the show has really opened my eyes to the fact that it can/will happen again. I hope that others who watch the show, who are in similar situations, can learn from my mistakes and my breakthroughs and realize there is "life and love after marriage."

Additionally, I hope that people would also start to be sensitive to the situations they put themselves into, and what they say and do can have a profound effect on the people that matter most to them. I feel and hope that many of the cast members at times, and mostly Lina, could learn a lot by watching peoples' reactions to their words and antics that they may not have been aware of, without being able to watch it on television. Even though everyone usually has excuses or reasons for acting and doing what they do (cultural, environment, emotions,etc.) it really is important to see how those that are close to us and matter react ... and I hope that everyone can be more sensitive to this and the feelings of others with or without cameras rolling. I know that I certainly will!