Lilly Ghalichi

Lilly reflects on the amazing season and explains why she decided to end things with Ali for good.

on Feb 10, 2013

I can’t believe we have already reached the season finale! It was a crazy summer, and I have had so much fun sharing it with you all.

Episode 10 begins with where Episode 9 left off, the dangerously intense dinner party. There is so much yelling, arguing, fighting, and cussing going on, all I’m thinking about in my head is what my exit strategy will be. I’m not used to this much anger and aggression, so I’m so stressed out. When Asa decides to leave, I saw it as the perfect opportunity to politely excuse myself as well. I don’t know if the relationship between Asa-GG will ever be able to heal, but one thing is for sure, it definitely wasn’t going to happen at that dinner party.

The next scene is a very emotional one for me. Many of you know by now about the long and hard relationship I have had with Ali all over the last now 11 years. Like any long relationship, we have had our ups and our downs. I know he loves me more than the World, and because of that, I tell myself that I have found it in my heart to forgive him for all the times he hurt me, but the truth is, I don’t think I ever will. Or, even if I have forgiven him, the pain I felt was too hurtful to ever truly forget.