Cast Blog: #SHAHS

Love and Respect from Day One

Lilly reflects on the amazing season and explains why she decided to end things with Ali for good.

I can’t believe we have already reached the season finale! It was a crazy summer, and I have had so much fun sharing it with you all.

Episode 10 begins with where Episode 9 left off, the dangerously intense dinner party. There is so much yelling, arguing, fighting, and cussing going on, all I’m thinking about in my head is what my exit strategy will be. I’m not used to this much anger and aggression, so I’m so stressed out. When Asa decides to leave, I saw it as the perfect opportunity to politely excuse myself as well. I don’t know if the relationship between Asa-GG will ever be able to heal, but one thing is for sure, it definitely wasn’t going to happen at that dinner party.

The next scene is a very emotional one for me. Many of you know by now about the long and hard relationship I have had with Ali all over the last now 11 years. Like any long relationship, we have had our ups and our downs. I know he loves me more than the World, and because of that, I tell myself that I have found it in my heart to forgive him for all the times he hurt me, but the truth is, I don’t think I ever will. Or, even if I have forgiven him, the pain I felt was too hurtful to ever truly forget.

Trust is so important. To lose the trust of someone that loves you means you have forever lost them. I am by no means a perfect person, nor was I a perfect girlfriend, but I loved him with everything I had, and I gave him all of me. I deserve a man that treats me the same, not years after mistakes and regrets, but from day one. Everyone does.

The summer goes out with a bang, Persh-A-Pelooza! I am so proud of Asa, and I know this is only the start of so many incredible things to come for her.

I have experienced and learned so many new things this summer. I am thankful to have shared this time with my fellow Shahs. Each and every single of one of them has taught me something about myself, and life, to help me grow and become a better person.

Looking to the future, I hope to take what I have learned and become a better friend, a better daughter, and a better companion to someone that is willing to take on this damaged heart. I hope to let loose a little more, and learn to have more fun.

I just launched my second company, Lilly Lashes (LillyLashes.com), and I plan on continuing to work as hard as I can to follow my dreams.

I hope you all have enjoyed watching us this season. I have truly enjoyed sharing my life with you all.

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Recap: Dodging Balls and Shade

Ep 7: Will a heart-to-heart over leggings mend Asa and MJ's friendship?

This episode was full of overcoming. Mike overcame the meat sweats, MJ tried to get GG to overcome her love of tattooed boys, while Reza vocalized his intimacy issues with Adam, and Asa and MJ were crunching the munch.

Let’s start with the meat, shall we? Mike and Jessica showed off their new rock to Shervin at an all-you-can-eat Brazilian Steakhouse. What I didn’t know going into this is how much meat two meatheads can eat. It’s amazing what lengths two Persian men will go to not pay a bill.

But the real beef was between Mike and Jessica. When Mike tells Shervin that he wants to reconcile things between him and his friends, Mrs. Shouhed-to-be responded with, “Mend it? No.” Something tells me that Jessica will first sauté Mike, then fillet him if he tries to mend his friendships anytime soon. And if he does, he will be the meat on the skewer he’s eating. It’ll be interesting to see how everything shakes out.


Meanwhile, Reza confided in Asa about his intimacy issues with Adam before confronting him. Apparently this isn’t a turn on:

But he thinks this is:


Good news? Adam agreed to Reza’s prenup terms and it sounds like they’re going to spice up their sex life. Hopefully they’ll meet somewhere in the middle between taking a shower and the oh so subtle, “Suck it.”

While we’re on the subject of love, MJ is determined to get GG dating again. She not only helped set up her Tinder account, but she also went as far as meeting her out one night and calling over two contenders (one tattooed and one not tattooed) as if she was on an episode of The Bachelorette. In true MJ form she was super subtle, grilling the guys with “What’s your sign?” Followed by, “How big are your dicks?” Needless to say, neither guy got a rose.

And speaking of doodools…Asa met with Mr. Doodool Tala himself, Mike, about what went down at Shervin’s party. She asked him point blank if he did it and he denied it. But after all was said and done, Mike said he couldn’t remember if he was even in Golnesa’s room in Turkey. This whole thing is starting to feel like a scene from Dude Where’s my Car, except it’s Dude, Where was my Dool?


GG is about to take a lie detector test next episode and we’ll hopefully find out where Mike’s dool was. Remains to be seen…

Now on to something that involves balls with no dools attached, dodge ball. The MJ and Asa (AKA Crunch and Munch) back and forth has been boiling since the Malibu staycation, and it seems as though it finally got addressed this episode while shopping for dodge ball outfits.


But some physical activity and a heart-to-heart in leggings proved to be the recipe for mending a friendship. However, I’m not sure MJ apologizing has fixed this problem as they both still seem a little skeptical of each other. Can’t we all just get a long in the name of gold?

Before I go, can we give credit where credit is due? Here’s to the lady at World of Leggings! Men, take note: When you’re stuck and can’t find “meggings,” just wear your leggings backwards. Problem solved.

Oh, and as for Goldie, now I know where he got his name…

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Nadine Rajabi is a television producer, writer, and stand-up comedian from Los Angeles. Most importantly she's Bravo’s in-house Persian.