Going into the reunion, I felt nothing but excitement and I truly felt right at home in that room. There's something about gilded furniture, crystal chandeliers, and extravagant spreads that make me feel warm and fuzzy inside.
Seeing the rest of the Shahs, regardless of where we are at with one another still makes me feel great. With that said, I decided that reunion day would be about one thing and one thing only, THE TRUTH! Specifically speaking, I would stop enabling MJ and I'd finally confront her about her abuse of alcohol and pills. She has been on a smear campaign trying to convince others that my use of the words "bitch" and "ho" is inexcusable. She even brought up the fact that I had referred to my mother as such. In my heart I know that I love and adore my mother. I fancy myself a comedian and have always used those words to be funny in interviews. I won't lie I do crack myself up. As soon as MJ brought up that fact, I realized what she was trying to do. I couldn't take it and replied that I might refer to my mother as such, but that her mother was a bitch and a ho. It wasn't my finest hour, but I couldn't take another moment of MJ's "smoke and mirror" tactics. Plus, you guys have seen her mother, enough said.
Denial is truly a destructive emotion and regardless of where MJ is at, we all know and have witnessed her excessive use of drugs and alcohol. People all around us from fans to the production staff have at one time or another, mentioned the fact that MJ appears "out of it." The saddest part of the pill conversation to me was her attempt at describing the best way to use Ambien. Mike's support of MJ just perpetuates the cycle and she'll continue to be enabled. I was disappointed that he wasn't honest. Like Asa said, it's really scary when a 40 year old woman is asleep in the hallway of a hotel. That's not just unacceptable behavior, it's dangerous.