This episode was really difficult to watch.
I thought long and hard, wondering whether or not to even write a blog, but here it goes. I'm not going to get into the minutia of why I behaved the way that I did.
It was unfortunately the "perfect storm" of events and I absolutely lost it. At the moment that I started spewing all the hatred towards MJ I felt justified, but the REAL point is that there's zero justification. I can't take back what happened, or even what was said, but I hopefully I can learn and do better.
The root of anger is pain, MJ and I were long overdue for a "heart to heart." It didn't happen and the result was disastrous.
For everyone that feels anger about what transpired, I can say that I understand what you're feeling (that's exactly how I was feeling when I "lost it").
As for what I need to say to MJ, I'm sorry is what I'm willing to share here on this blog, and the rest will happen between the two of us. If we end up coming back hopefully there will be plenty of joy to share with you all.