This episode was really difficult to watch.
I thought long and hard, wondering whether or not to even write a blog, but here it goes. I'm not going to get into the minutia of why I behaved the way that I did.
It was unfortunately the "perfect storm" of events and I absolutely lost it. At the moment that I started spewing all the hatred towards MJ I felt justified, but the REAL point is that there's zero justification. I can't take back what happened, or even what was said, but I hopefully I can learn and do better.
The root of anger is pain, MJ and I were long overdue for a "heart to heart." It didn't happen and the result was disastrous.