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Chris Brown Recalls the Night He Physically Assaulted Rihanna: "I Was Like, F*** Why Did I Hit Her Like That?"

The singer also admits that he "still love[s] Rihanna."

By Jocelyn Vena
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Chris Brown is shedding new light on his relationship with Rihanna and the night he physically assaulted her in a new documentary, Chris Brown: Welcome to My Life. In the doc, the singer goes into great detail about the early days of their romance. He says he was 15 when they met for the first time at a radio show in NYC. Chris describes the early days of their relationship as a "fairytale."

However, things in their relationship started to take a turn for the worse when he admitted to sleeping with someone who he once worked with before he and Rihanna started dating, after he previously denied it. "She hated me. After that, I tried everything. She didn't care, she just didn't trust me after that. From there, it just went downhill because it would be fights, it would be verbal fights, physical fights as well," he said. "I still love Rihanna, but I'm just going to be honest—we would fight each other, she would hit me, I would hit her, but it never was OK. It was always a point to where we talk about it like, ‘What the f--k are we doing?'"

Later in the documentary, Chris opens up about the night he physically assaulted Rihanna the evening before the Grammy Awards in 2009 after they attended the pre-Grammys Clive Davis party. Inside the party, the woman he had confessed to sleeping with previously was also there. "I look over at Rihanna and she's bawling, she's crying."

Later that night, they had a confrontation in the car that quickly escalated. "I remember she tried to kick me, just like her beating sh**, but then I really hit her. With a closed fist, like I punched her and it busted her lip. And when I saw it I was in shock, I was like, f*** why did I hit her like that?" he recalled. "From there she's spitting blood in my face, it raised me even more. It's a real fight in the car and we were driving in the street…She tried to grab for my phone, and I'm not giving her my phone, to throw it out the window."

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