Kim Kardashian appeared on The Ellen DeGeneres Show on Thursday where she talked openly about the trauma she faced when robbers entered her Paris hotel room last fall. Though Kim is one of the most well-known figures on social media with her own popular makeup and style brands, she is ultimately just a human who experienced something truly terrifying. And she says the experience entirely changed her perspective on life.
“I know this sounds crazy, but I know that was meant to happen to me. I don’t want to start crying, but I know that was so meant to happen to me,” she said to Ellen, getting emotional. “I’m such a different person. I really feel like things happen in your life to teach you things."
She continued, “I was definitely materialistic before, not that there’s anything bad with having things and working hard to get those things, and I’m really proud of everyone around me that’s successful. But I’m so happy that my kids get this me and that this is who I’m raising my kids [to be]. Because I just don’t care about that stuff anymore, I really don’t.”
While Kim might not be letting go materialism entirely, she does seem to be focusing on her family more on Instagram, sharing lots of photos of herself with her kids and husband Kanye West.
However, the robbery still haunts her today.
“Knowing the information that I know now, they [the robbers] had been following me for two years,” Kim explained, “They had been hearing interviews that I did getting excited about this jewelry or this jewelry, and it’s not to say that I’ll never wear jewelry again or anything like that. I truly don’t know if I’d ever feel comfortable. I truly don’t know if I’d ever wear real jewelry again. My whole life has changed in terms of how I travel and what security.”
Kim said that she now keeps a security detail outside her room when she travels just to “be able to sleep at night.”
She also described the horrifying moment when she was held at gunpoint, saying she didn’t think for a second that she was going to live through the night. “Automatically your stomach drops,” she said. “It’s a feeling you can’t explain. And I knew that was it for me. Hundred percent [knew I was going to die]. I said a prayer, I’m like, ‘I know I’m going to heaven. I hope my kids are OK, my husband.' I don’t want to cry, you’re making me cry. But it does happen really fast. It was a good seven or eight minutes of torture, but when I look back and analyze it, I’m like, ‘OK, they weren’t really aggressive.’ It could have been way worse.”
That’s a philosophical outlook and yes, though it could have been worse, it still sounds really, really bad.
Kim also commented on Caitlyn Jenner's new memoir, The Secrets of My Life, which has been somewhat divisive in the family. Kris Jenner, in particular, doesn't like the way she's portrayed in the book and feels like its contents should have been run by her before it was published. Kim defended her mom, implying that some of Caitlyn's accusations about how Kris suppressed her gender identity are simply untrue.
“My heart breaks for my mom, you know, because I feel like she’s been through so much and [Caitlyn] is promoting this book and she’s saying all these things. I don’t think it’s necessary and I just feel like it’s unfair, things aren’t truthful.”
Kim says she hasn't spoken with Caitlyn in weeks, but still respects her. "That was my stepdad for so many years. She taught me about character and so much growing up and I just feel like I don’t respect the character that she’s showing now,” she said, continuing, "Tell your story, but don’t bash other people. I just think it’s not, like, tasteful.”
Yikes. Lessons learned during her robbery did not carry over into family dynamics. Talk it out, ladies! Life is short.