Cast Blog: #RHOA

Lick It And Stick It

Cynthia: I Knew I Had to Take My Audition Seriously

Kenya: I'm More Empathetic Toward Apollo

Claudia on Her Breakdown

Kandi: "Apollo Wasn't Thinking Clearly"

GIF Recap: Chocolate Goodness

Kandi's Devastating News

Phaedra: I Knew What I Needed to Do

Claudia: I'm Not Trying to Be Porsha's Friend

Kenya on Her Pilot

GIF Recap: Dish Nation Divided

Cynthia on Her Drama-Free Trip

Has Kenya Found Love?

Claudia: Kordell was Barely Flirting

Kenya on NeNe's "Embarrassing" Behavior

Claudia: "These Double Standards are Killing Me"

Kandi: "I'm Not Two-Faced"

Phaedra: I Appreciated Demetria's Apology

Are Demetria and Phaedra Cool?

NeNe on Her Apology

Cynthia: Claudia Can Read with the Best of Them

Claudia: NeNe's Behavior Needed to Be Checked

Kenya on "The Beasts"

Phaedra: Demetria Took Things Too Personally

GIF Recap: Lessons in Reading

Phaedra's Ignorant Comments

Claudia: I'm Not Surprised by NeNe's Ugly Demeanor

Kenya: NeNe Doesn't Want to Like Me

Cynthia: I'm Moving Forward in Grace and Love

Kandi: "I Wasn't Trying to Set Demetria Up"

Phaedra on Being Recognized by the Bar

NeNe: "I'm Not a Fake Friend"

Demetria Responds to the Rumors

Cynthia: Forgiveness is a Process

Phaedra: My Mother is My Rock

Kenya: "An Acknowledgement is Not an Apology"

Claudia: I Do Not Own a Flip Phone

Cynthia: It Was Awkward Seeing Phaedra Uncomfortable

Demetria: I Have No Beef with Kenya

NeNe Explains the Wig

Phaedra: I Was Hoping Apollo Wouldn't Create a Scene

Lick It And Stick It

Bethenny Frankel has some love for the ladies of the ATL.

This will be my last blog (except for after the reunion), so a few of you will be happy. Thanks for all of your support, and in particular for defending the absolute nonsense that I have even a racist bone in my body. Just as when Jill Zarin says bra with an "r" is typical of a Jewish American Princess, someone who says "i have a lot of weave" is most likely said by someone of African American descent. Now onto the show.

We started the show with a seemingly forced lunch scene with Sheree, Kim, and Lisa. It was the mutual diamond admiration society and then we moved on to the meat of the matter which was a get-together. Lisa was right in that it was utterly rude to not show up to the sunset BBQ without calling. They rudely called NeNe a drag queen, and Kim told Sheree how beautiful she was once again. Lisa invited everyone to a family dinner and Kim and Sheree agreed to go binding this agreement with a pinky swear. Yes, a pinky swear. BFF 4eva. The scene was cute with DeShawn and her husband while playing basketball. They were reminiscing about the old times when Red Lobster was an extravagant celebration and how they lived on Ramen and Hamburger Helper. She told him she always believed in him, and he remembered that she was his No. 1 fan. I just think she is genuinely sweet and cute.

The next scene involves Kim and her assistant and some signicant Gucci, Neimans, and Chanel label dropping and we learn that Kim bought a bunch of dresses because she felt important. I actually found that funny and honest. The crucial point of that scene was her conversation with Dallas in which he tried to motivate her about her going to singing boot camp, quitting smoking, and the importance of being passionate versus just "doing it." She seemed flabbergasted at the thought of running while singing for three hours. That does seem daunting. I hadn't even ever heard of that.

I really liked the scene with Sheree and Michael Knight from Project Runway. Sheree was endearing in this scene and for the first time she was humble and genuinely was looking for guidance. She looked very pretty in this scene, and she does have good skin. Kim was right about that. She did need a reality check and to understand that you have to live and breathe your designs and be involved in every part of the process -- she learned this the hard way at her non-fashion show.

I do, however, respect that she didn't want to show her poorly made designs. Michael was shocked that she didn't choose her own fabric. When she told him that she was grand, he communicated to her that she should worry less about grandness and be more hands on. He told her that her line is an infant and that her DNA has to be in it. Truer words have never been spoken. I have put my heart and soul into projects that have been failures much less what would happen if i wasn't totally invested. Hopefully this lesson was learned by Sheree before she wastes a ton of money. Sheree seemed to heed his advice. I thought it was interesting that he said that many athletes' wives embark on similar ventures thinking that money will create the success. Passion is the real ingredient necessary to make this recipe work.

Everyone seemed to look very pretty this week. In the scene with NeNe and her letter to Curtis, she looked great in her green tube top. She really is sweet and I love her NeNe-isms like when she was sending the letter and she said to "lick it and stick it." She doesn't seem ready to go on the journey to search for her biological father. Having had nothing to do with my father for all of my life, I relate to this range of emotions.

I love Ed and Lisa. In their kitchen scene, we see that they are dedicated to working it out, that football is his first love, and that she simply fears him ending up in a wheelchair. They are best friends. I love them and aspire to a relationship like this.

I also loved the chicken a la Lisa. My favorite part was their "cooking outfits." They both looked beautiful and truthfully, that chicken looked delicious. I like how they browned it first. The only thing i would have done differently would be to saute the peppers before they add them for maximum flavor. Yummy.

Now to Kim's smoking scene. She has been smoking since she was 15, so this will not be an easy habit to break. Although not entirely healthy or appropriate, it was endearing that her daughters sleep in bed with her. Where does Big Pappa sleep? I also think Kim has great skin especially for someone who smokes like a chimney.

Lisa's party looked like a real blast. The place was fun and that cake looked divine. Sheree was carrying that blinged out Chanel bag that Kim was wearing earlier. Thank god for Chanel!!!! Sheree wanted nothing to do with NeNe. In fact she told us that she ignores ignorant people. So she ignores people who ignore??? When told that NeNe didn't have to take a photo with Sheree, she said "I sure don't." Frankly, I think NeNe and Sheree were both being immature. Take the silly picture. It isn't about you but about Lisa.

I loved the Brice graduation scenes and I liked that NeNe wanted a safe car for him. He seems like a well-behaved son, and although they're buying him a new car, he doesn't seem spoiled. I like that NeNe said she wanted him to be a young, strong, independent black man. I love them. I especially thought it was hilarious when she told her husband that Brice would drive off in that pickup with all of his stuff thus making the sale.

Sheree's children are adorable and I love that they got all As and Bs. She must be doing something right.

While getting ready for Lisa's party, we saw Kim's daughter's astounding closet. She has way more expensive clothing than I do. I do, however think that she is a good mother. We got to see the Swiss Miss dress again in this scene which makes me giggle. I also like that she doesn't want any NeNe drama in front of her children. Let's just see if she can quit smoking as promised. Now we go to Lisa's dinner party. It is so cute how Ed compliments Lisa's pumps. At the party, can you say AWKWARD? NeNe makes it clear (which i love) that she doesn't like to pretend. She also mentions that she doesn't like drama which I don't exactly believe. I loved when she said "How small of you" to Kim whether or not it is true. Kim looked like a deer in headlights and not very confrontational. I loved Gregg's pep speech but it didn't seem to really be effective. I think the pleasantries thereafter were just to get through the day. We'll see the claws come out at the reunion. I liked the most about this ending that all of the women are good mothers and most of them are great family people. I do believe that comes first. I also loved Kim's quote: "I ask, I believe and I receive." Again, whether or not that will happen, I have no idea.

We learn that Kim goes to country singer boot camp, Ed doesn't end up going to Oakland, NeNe is a free bird who tells it like it is (um we knew that) and the rest remains to be seen. Until the reunion. Then I can really let it rip.

Claudia on Her Breakdown

Claudia Jordan explains what really brought her to tears. Are you loving your apartment now that’s decorated?
Claudia Jordan: I love my place, but it's not quite where I want it to be yet. In my other houses and apartments I'd be so fast to get my places together in the first few days I'm in there, but honestly I've been so busy with the transition to Atlanta and my new job that I haven't really been as on point as I'd like. And that's been across the board -- with my hair, clothes, apartment, etc. It's just been a bit overwhelming with working on the radio show five days a week plus appearances, live remotes, as well as my other work I do for CNN/Headline News and my podcast. My day starts at 5am and goes until 11pm some nights. But in my few spare moments here and there I was able to get some crystal chandeliers installed that I love! I bought that amazing black chair from Modani (the furniture store Kenya and I shopped at) and a few other items. I still want to get some accent walls painted and a few more pieces and then I'll have my place where I want it to be. I actually love decorating but at this point in the game I still didn't even know where to go to shop! But it's getting there! Why did you break down when discussing the Porsha situation with Kenya and Cynthia?
CJ: Really I was not crying about Porsha or the fact that I'm biracial! There was such a buildup of so many things that it just took one little thing to push me over the top. I am not that emotionally invested in Porsha, and if you ever catch me getting there, please take me out to pasture and put me out of my misery! Let's be very clear -- like crystal clear -- I am not jealous of Porsha, she has nothing I want or couldn't get if I wanted it. I do not want her life, hair, body, mouth, or situation. I've never been the type of woman that couldn't co-exist with successful women. I've never had the need to be the "star" in my group of friends. I actually like to surround myself with women that are upwardly mobile, intelligent, fabulous, successful, independent, and inspirational. So to suggest jealousy over a woman that only has more material items than me for now is laughable.

Again, being the new girl on the block on the radio show was extremely stressful. I had to sit in the seat and take over the position of a very beloved radio personality that's by far one of the best in the business. To say her fans were upset was an understatement, and that's totally understandable! It was pretty much a no-win situation for me. And I was very aware of what folks were saying. Now all I wanted to do was work and collect my check and go home with as little drama as possible. I was trying to fit in with a new crew in a new city; I had to leave my friends and family up north, and honestly I was overwhelmed and the move was bittersweet.

So when I was pulled aside by several people at the station and told they noticed the tension and it was making folks whisper and feel some type of way, honestly even though I knew it wasn't something I was doing, I kind of panicked. I so did not want to be that chick bringing drama to a new job. That and only that was the reason I asked Porsha to lunch in the first place and even bit my tongue that day when she was acting like a child at the table deflecting and discussing lotion in the middle of a talk. You guys now know I have no problems reading a chick, and looking back I think some can appreciate and acknowledge just how much I held back that day. I mention it to say this: I only held back to really try to make things be cool between us at work. You saw Porsha was being shady as hell to me at work way before Puerto Rico. So when I came for her on the bus it was beyond justified. It was a buildup and I let out all the things I had held back in all of our other interactions that she brought upon herself. So yes, my crying was not about being biracial and it was not over Porsha. I was stressed and sick of all the B.S. that was coming my way, and it was a culmination of lots of things. Basically I was over it. Was it awkward when Ricky pulled in Porsha to try and smooth things over between the two of you?
CJ: Hell yeah it was awkward! I did not go to Rickey to talk about Porsha! I handled Porsha just fine without anyone else's assistance and did not need back up. She is not a tough cookie to crack. I went to get feedback about my progress with the show, and when Rickey decided to bring Porsha in, it frustrated me because I didn't think it would be productive, and again, I wasn't there for that! But at the same time it's Rickey's show, and if he felt the tension (and he admitted he did) and wanted to see if he could help, then who am I to tell the man that gave me a job what to do regarding his show?

I never brought up Porsha's name. She's right about one thing -- we don't work together (besides the episodes of Dish Nation when the show asked me to come on), but we do work in the same space with the same people, who are casualties of our issues. I was fine with us ignoring each other in the hallway, but when it got to the point where folks are pulling me aside telling me it was getting weird for them and I wouldn't want that getting to Rickey, then I'm going to do my part to make it better. We both owe it to Rickey and the rest of the employees that are affected. Period. Point blank. If Porsha wants to play fake and act like I'm imagining things, that's fine. But at the end of the day, it is what it is. And the truth is the truth. I do not operate in the land of make believe; I tend to live in a thing called the real world. So I don't regret anything I've done, because I've done it with purpose and with no shady ulterior motives. I'm a realist and that's that!

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