I can't believe how quickly our season went! I must admit it was difficult to watch this episode. The ending of our show didn't really hit me until I watched it last night. There are so many things I want to clarify.
Let's talk about my two little girls. I cringed at the footage of me smoking in front of my daughters. I can't believe I did that. There is absolutely no more smoking in the house. I did quit for a period of time. I will continue to tackle it and I know with determination and prayer I will be a non-smoker soon.
Let's clarify on my relationship with Big Papa. We were together for three YEARS, not seven months, and we were in fact engaged. He is an incredible person and at this time only God knows what the future will hold for us. He is still my best friend and a part of my everyday life.
I have to be honest, I didn't really want to attend, It was the first time I had seen NeNe in quite sometime and with my girls being there I wasn't sure what to expect. I had a great time. It was great to see everyone.
When NeNe confronted me, there was so much I wanted to say, however my girls were sitting right behind me and it wasn't the time or the place to have this conversation. I tried to just let her speak and keep my cool so it didn't get ugly. My girls knew that NeNe and I hadn't spoken in a while, but I never talked badly about NeNe in front of them or told them why. They adore NeNe and I wanted to keep it that way. I want my kids to stay kids for as long as they can. Kids grow up so quick these days...
I should of called NeNe and confronted her about what was said, but I was hurt.
I didn't handle it correctly at the time. Time heals all wounds.
The show has been exciting and trying at the same time. I opened my life not really expecting the criticism I have gotten and the feedback. All I can say is I know who I am, I know what I am about and I am very blessed to have the support from my family and friends. Thank you all. The show has changed my life, my relationships, my friendships and made my skin is so much thicker. I tend to take things so personally, but all in all, I would do it again. I am excited about my music career, and I'm excited for the release of my single. It will debut the first of the year I'll let it speak for itself.
I am sure you all are enjoying the reunion clips. Enjoy, enjoy. I can't wait to blog about the reunion.