For the first year of our relationship, I was still living in NYC and was still working every day as a model. I have had a very successful modeling career for the past 25 years, and I have been financially independent my whole life. I could have never imagined that I would ever not have money. All of my friends and the people I surrounded myself with were smart, ambitious, and very successful. We were doing the damn thing! Period. Fast forward to the recession. "The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away." I was extremely humbled by the recession. I no longer take anything for granted, and I am grateful for what I have. Everything, big and small. A very smart friend told me once that money does not make you happy. I did not believe him, but it was true. When I was making more money than I knew what to do with, I was empty. Something was missing. I was comfortable, but I was not truly happy. You can always make money, but you can't always find love. I love Peter, and I know that he loves me. He is not perfect (neither am I), but God put him in my life for a reason. I believe in God and never question his will. If I had not met Peter, I would have never ended up moving to Atlanta, becoming a housewife, and writing this blog. I feel in my heart that every choice I have made in my life has led me to this very moment. I know that I am in this position for a reason, one much bigger than the show.
I know this blog is all over the place, but I wanted to give you guys something more this week. Things start to get very emotional and very personal as we get closer to the wedding. So I might write anything at this point. I already have a lot going on this year with work, and we are getting ready to shoot the reunion show. I really do appreciate all the love and support you guys give me. This is really not as easy as it looks. So I will end it there.
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