Cast Blog: #RHOA

Kandi's Housewarming Trap

Kenya doesn't think it was a coincidence Walter showed up at Kandi's party.

SALIVATING AT THE MOUTH

I find it interesting that Peter, Apollo, and Kordell act like catty little women more than their wives. Is that even possible? I am choosing my words carefully but they act like little (rhymes with witches). They were all salivating at the mouth to listen to my spiteful, dateless ex hurl pitiful and juvenile comments aimed to insult and degrade me after seeing how fabulous I looked at the event with my famous friend. I twirled in looking Gone with the Wind Fabulous.  I felt incredible that night, and after seeing how dumb and trite a 46-year-old-mid-life-crisis-having “man” can act, I also clearly mitigated my damages by dodging a bullet in the relationship department.

My ex may have been invited by Peter, but he knew full-well cameras would be present and yet he showed up anyway after I asked him not to attend any functions where he knew I would be. Atlanta may be small, but when you are a fame whore riding off the coattails of someone else’s celebrity, you seek out any moment you can to get your 15 minutes. The same is true for Kandi’s housewarming. I adore Kandi, but she knew he would be there and it was obviously a trap to get me to get into some big drama-filled spectacle of a blow out with my ex. Phaedra, Apollo, and Peter all conspired to purposely make me feel uncomfortable, threatened, and embarrassed, so I immediately left. No one puts Baby in the corner!
A REAL MAN

God has blessed me so much in my life. A testament to one of his blessings is that he gave me the courage to live my dreams, to step outside the box and be brave, bold, and often irreverent, but most of all he made me resilient.  Men will come and go from your life. It felt good to be on the arm of someone (NFL star Jamal Anderson) who respects me, who makes me feel safe, makes me laugh, and has always supported me in every way possible for over 15 years. We have never dated because the timing has never been right. But we have great respect and admiration for each other. He is a true friend and class act, and I know his heart. That being said, trust me when I say people will show you who they are, but you must believe them the first time. God showed me who my ex was early on and I ignored the signs because I wanted a family so badly and was willing to settle for someone who never deserved me.

A REAL man would never lead a woman on, try to humiliate or hurt them, or try to intimidate them once you have broken up for the sake of more camera time or fame. No one forced anyone to be mean, hateful, evil, or stupid. I’ve dated some incredible men in my life, all of whom I have remained friends with except him. I have been proposed to 6 times, and I respectfully declined as I was not ready. I am not the person with not one, but TWO FAILED MARRIAGES and a child out of wedlock. I have been careful for a reason. This is a testament to my character and how I treat people -- specifically ones with whom I have had an intimate relationship. Intimacy, in my opinion, is when you are vulnerable with someone, you share secrets, are open to love, and you take care of their emotional well-being. I have been accused of breaking some hearts in my day, but I assure you, I respect those with whom I have been a real friend. The foundation to any relationship is a true friendship. Seeing the evil spirit that exists in him was a blessing. SEXUALITY

This is a no H8 zone. My ego isn’t that big to intimate homosexuality because someone doesn’t want to sleep with me. However, when you have seen countless questionable misogynistic behaviors coupled with ex-wives and ex-girlfriends who share your suspicions, your uncertainties may be perfectly valid.  Additionally, being a “man whore” doesn’t make you straight any more than being a virgin does. You are sexually attracted to whom you are attracted in your heart. Whether you are gay or straight, you should be free to be who you are in life without the scrutiny and judgment of others. When you live your life as a lie, you lie to the world every single day. Your lies compound to the point where nothing you say or do is the truth. You will never be happy in life unless you are your authentic self and living an authentic life.  And to be very clear, sexuality has nothing to do with one’s character. Your heart, your actions,  and your intent is the compilation of your spirit. I do not judge. (I only see your heart).  One should love whom they want to love in life. Be happy being you. AUTHENTIC. TRUTHFUL. REAL.
I want to share the lyrics of my song Gone with the Wind Fabulous. I love these lyrics because it doesn’t matter how others see you, it’s how you see yourself that matters. Although they try, no one can take away your shine. When someone hates on you, TWIRL them away!

You say I'm FAKE I say I'm fabulous
U say I'm OLD I say I'm fabulous
U say I'm GHETTO  I say I'm fabulous
U say I'm CRAZY I say I'm fabulous

I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
Now twirl
Twirl x 7

U say I'm BROKE I say I'm fabulous
U Say I'm SINGLE I say I'm fabulous
U say I'm DONE I say I'm fabulous
You say I'm UGLY I say I'm fabulous

I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
Now twirl
Twirl x7

So I FLIRT I'm fabulous
Don't get HURT I'm fabulous
While u TWERK I'm fabulous
I werk werk werk werk!

I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
Now twirl
Twirl x7

You can hate me
You can't break me
I don't want your man
I've got my own plan

I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
I'm gone with the wind fabulous
Now twirl
Twirl x7Go to Kenyamoore.com to download GONE WITH THE WIND FABULOUS song and ringtone

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Xo,

Kenya

 

Claudia: I Give Up

Find out which friendships Claudia Jordan has decided to focus on.

Bravotv.com: Were you surprised by Kenya's elaborate viewing party?
Claudia Jordan: Yes, I was! She was pretty good at keeping it all a secret, and it was so well done! I really felt like I was going to a surprise wedding. Hopefully that was some foreshadowing of what's to come in the near future…

Bravotv.com: What did you think of Kenya's pilot?
CJ: I thought it was cute and very fun to watch. The thing about Kenya I really like is that she is comfortable laughing at herself and not taking herself too seriously. She's entertaining. I thought Cynthia was really funny and totally committed to the part. It was fun to watch it with all the girls, especially the part when Kenya played her own hair care commercial during the pilot! That was hilarious.

Bravotv.com: Did you feel that you and Porsha finally repaired your friendship?
CJ: You know, it's hard to tell. I can't say we were ever really friends, because at the end of the day we have very little in common, and I don't think I can say I know who she really is. I was totally open to it when I arrived on the scene, but it's difficult dealing with someone who's cool with you one minute, then not cool with you the next. I think too many people are inserting their opinions and changing things. I swear we will be past something and "cool," then the very next time I see her it's back to the okey doke or I will catch wind of her throwing jabs in her blog. So honestly I have given up and no longer care to beat that dead horse.

Instead I'm focusing on viable and healthy friendships with people I feel I have things in common with, like Demetria, who's one of the most hardworking and classy (yet still fun) girls I know. Like Cynthia, who supports and attends everyone else’s events. Like Kenya, because even though she's very busy and travels a lot, when we do link up, it's all positive. And like Kandi, who I'm not super close with, but we are getting to know each other more and more. And despite our friends not liking some of the folks we both hang with, Kandi never let that get in the way of being open to a possible friendship with me, and I respect that.

I was hopeful when we got back from the Philippines; Kandi, Porsha, and I even went to a club the day we got back from our 20-something hour trip home. But what happens with these shows is you make progress, but then someone on Twitter may amp you up, and you feel you have to placate those people. Or an episode airs that took place six months ago when things were bad, and even though things are good now, you get in your feelings all over again when you watch the show months later. I suspect this may be the case, but like I said, it's exhausting trying to figure out why people do what they do, so I am throwing in the white towel. I give up trying. If things change for the best, then hallelujah, and if they do not, I promise I will not lose any more sleep.

The season was fun and stressful -- I laughed a lot, I cried a few times, I opened up about issues I never really get to talk about in my day-to-day life, and I have made some pretty amazing friends. I'm getting calls to do some comedy shows, I have two films coming out later this year, I am dating, and I’m in a very good place! I'm optimistic moving forward and extremely excited about my future here in Atlanta. Thank you to everyone who has reached out to me online and in person. It's been truly flattering and humbling. Love y'all! xoxo!

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