Cast Blog: #RHOA

Kenya's Negativity

Phaedra: I Was Disappointed with Cynthia

Claudia: This Group Should Reserve Judgment

Cynthia: I Knew I Had to Take My Audition Seriously

Kenya: I'm More Empathetic Toward Apollo

Claudia on Her Breakdown

Kandi: "Apollo Wasn't Thinking Clearly"

GIF Recap: Chocolate Goodness

Kandi's Devastating News

Phaedra: I Knew What I Needed to Do

Claudia: I'm Not Trying to Be Porsha's Friend

Kenya on Her Pilot

GIF Recap: Dish Nation Divided

Cynthia on Her Drama-Free Trip

Has Kenya Found Love?

Claudia: Kordell was Barely Flirting

Kenya on NeNe's "Embarrassing" Behavior

Claudia: "These Double Standards are Killing Me"

Kandi: "I'm Not Two-Faced"

Phaedra: I Appreciated Demetria's Apology

Are Demetria and Phaedra Cool?

NeNe on Her Apology

Cynthia: Claudia Can Read with the Best of Them

Claudia: NeNe's Behavior Needed to Be Checked

Kenya on "The Beasts"

Phaedra: Demetria Took Things Too Personally

GIF Recap: Lessons in Reading

Phaedra's Ignorant Comments

Claudia: I'm Not Surprised by NeNe's Ugly Demeanor

Kenya: NeNe Doesn't Want to Like Me

Cynthia: I'm Moving Forward in Grace and Love

Kandi: "I Wasn't Trying to Set Demetria Up"

Phaedra on Being Recognized by the Bar

NeNe: "I'm Not a Fake Friend"

Demetria Responds to the Rumors

Cynthia: Forgiveness is a Process

Phaedra: My Mother is My Rock

Kenya: "An Acknowledgement is Not an Apology"

Claudia: I Do Not Own a Flip Phone

Cynthia: It Was Awkward Seeing Phaedra Uncomfortable

Demetria: I Have No Beef with Kenya

Kenya's Negativity

Porsha doesn't understand why Kenya has such a bad attitude.

Hello to all of you who joined me last night via USTREAM and those of you at home who watched my show debut.
 
First, I have to say wow, what an experience the whole ordeal was for me. When I was asked to be a part of the show, my first response was to say no. It’s a challenge to be in an environment where people are so judgmental and every action (whether good, bad, or indifferent) is subject to criticism, mostly negative. After weighing the pros and cons, I began to feel good about having a platform that will allow me to let the passions of my heart help others and decided to give it a go.
 
I can’t even begin to express the excitement of hosting an event at my late grandfather's (Rev. Hosea Williams) home. I have had so many wonderful memories being in that home with my grandfather, whom I lovingly call Baboo. From the age of 5 until about 13 years old, my siblings and I would visit my Aunt Liz for cozy Sunday dinners.
 
During my teen years, my grandfather moved to the house directly behind the home featured on the show. My big brother Hosea, younger brother Brenton, and I would listen with amazement as he shared stories of the civil rights struggle. It was important for him to educate us about the struggles and sacrifices so we would know how much we should appreciate those who fought for many of the rights and luxuries we enjoy today.
 
My grandfather will be forever missed and loved. So for me to decide to have an event at the Hosea Williams House was a complete honor for me and a humbling experience. The focus of the event was to raise funds and collect book bags filled with school supplies for children whose parents were economically challenged. All of the ladies that I invited were held in high regard, but that soon changed… Let me explain.A Meeting with a Former Miss USA
 
I was so excited and had such high expectations for my lunch date with Ms. Kenya Moore. As a child I looked up to her when she won the title of Miss USA, chosen to represent black women all over the USA. Continuing with the same admiration I previously held for her, I asked her to join me and 30 women. She was joining an impressive guest list of other celebrated women, some of whom have their own respective charities as well as successful business owners.
 
From the first moment I sat down in front of Kenya I felt a huge rush of negative energy, and it actually stopped me in my tracks for a moment. She who was once a beautiful and admirable lady whom I was anxious to meet had become a cold, bitter shell of a woman. She was so cold to me from the jump! I didn't want to even ask her to join me after meeting her, but I know that I can come across as such a burst of energy. I kept thinking maybe she was having a bad day and the chip on her shoulder isn't about me. I gave her the benefit of the doubt.
 
I must admit I was shocked at how she took offense to me and my questions about love, marriage, and children. I was simply trying to engage her in conversation in order to get to know her better and break the ice. I mean, hello, if we are two adult women over 30 what would cause me to think a person would be insulted by my asking if she was married and what brought her to Atlanta? However, if you are a completely self-absorbed individual who thinks I was there to kiss your butt and court you to simply join me in supporting a cause, then yes, maybe you would take offense.

After I left from that awkward meal with the Official Ice Queen, I began to put the finishing touches on the event. Initially, my husband was asked not to join us, because it was an event for women of power. Later that night I was pleasantly surprised to see my husband standing there at the event. I completely adore him and I am so thankful that after all the work I had put into the event he decided to surprise me for my birthday and brought me a cake and a gift towards the end. I’m so thankful that he also donated money along with us to support Hosea Feed the Hungry and Homeless Back to School Jamboree.
 
OK let’s get back to what you guys saw. Now first of all, Kenya was two hours late and when she came in once again the bad energy that hovers around her entered as well. She came into the event as if we all were supposed to stand and applaud. Note: She was not the honored guest! *singing* “Have several get your life”.My Speech… Oops!

I decided to make a speech and thank all of the women in the room for supporting me and my family’s foundation. During the speech I was overcome with emotion and opened my eyes to discover Kenya texting and rolling her eyes. I thought to myself, it looks like this child just needs some attention…LOL! So I decided to recognize her only to make a fraudulent slip and say Miss America (falls off the tongue so nicely LOL). Anyway, all hell broke loose. She snaps her weave ponytail and corrects me, I then immediately apologize, only to be given a deadly look of despise. I’m thinking, girl, get over yourself! We are at a charity event for children, who don't even have food to eat or sufficient supplies to be successful at school. Why are you about to go H.A.M. over a title that you no longer even hold? Girl, stop!
 
I felt as if she had been waiting on the perfect moment to create a scene and show out. Well, I wasn’t having it! I wanted to stop any kind of washed up diva antics that she was about to display. So then she leaves and goes outside and tells her friend she is going to meet another guest…a male guest at that. I'm now feeling disrespected 10 times over. How dare you reluctantly come to this event knowing you could care less for any of the children it will support? And now you are outside causing a huge scene! I immediately felt as if I needed to squash the issue so I went to check on her to see if she was OK.
 
Even after my second apology, she was still mad. At that point, her presence was more a distraction and her negativity was putting a dark cloud over the event. I felt it best she leave. Thank you! She then tells me I’m just waiting on a friend, I’m coming back in. I then let her know she was no longer welcome. I could not believe I would have to resort to kicking out “Miss Whatever She Was a Hundred Years Ago.” I never thought that she would have been so classless as to bring drama to my grandfather’s home and take away the focus from the children.

I’m shocked that it never crossed her mind to decide to support me in my fight against poverty. Instead she judged me and wanted to ruin anything associated with me. If I were her, I would have seen a young woman trying to stand for something and would have stood with her. You would think that since Kenya was afforded the opportunity to win a title such as Miss USA by standing on the shoulders of my grandfather and so many others who fought and stood for the right for her to even have a platform for her accomplishments. I feel she should have tried to let some of the richness (not financial riches, but the richness in history) rub off on her. Why wouldn’t she choose to be a respectable, seasoned woman that I and other young girls could look up to? I still pray for her and hope she finds inner peace about what has happened to her in her past.
 
We have the strength to change the future by putting one foot in the right direction and not looking back. I am so thankful that most of you will really experience who I am and what I stand for. And if you don't, that’s OK, as long as you just take with you that you are not your circumstances. It’s what you do during and after your trials that builds character. Live each day knowing you are blessed and find a way to impart some of what you have been blessed with to others.
 
P.S. Sorry this was so long and detailed. I’m just very passionate about what my family has accomplished with Hosea Feed the Hungry and Homeless and I feel I would be remiss not to share with you all my true feelings. Next time, I promise I’ll be back to my funny, bubbly self. When you live in the world, sometimes you become of the world. Not me! I will continue to hold my head high and not let negative, bitter people get me down. Note to Kenya: Sorry you didn't get that to-go plate of food I heard you asked for, I got you next time girl.
 
Stay tuned! Love you all. I'll chat with you next week. Kisses!



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Cynthia: I Knew I Had to Take My Audition Seriously

Cynthia Bailey dishes on her audition (and outfit) for Kenya Moore's pilot.

"When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts. A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child."
-Sophia Loren


NOELLE
My daughter Noelle is 15-years-old now and is a sophomore in high school. I can't believe that in 2 years she will be graduating high school and heading off to college. She was almost 9-years-old when we moved from New York City to Atlanta. Where did the time go? As expected, she is a typical teenager that is going through the usual teenage growing pains of trying to find identity and purpose. As her mother, my job has always been to love, protect, teach, and guide her. Out of all of my many jobs, this is the most important one, and I never take a day off or call in sick. Having Noelle as my daughter has not only been a blessing, it has been a privilege. We push, motivate, and inspire each other to always walk towards greatness. I have always told her that childhood is a journey, not a race -- to take her time, and enjoy it. Leon is an incredible dad, and I love the relationship that he has with his daughter. They are very close and spend a lot of time together. I know how to be a good mother, but I am a mom, not a dad. That is his role, and being the talented actor that he is, he plays it well. We are both artists, and we understand that we are raising an artist. Noelle is a talented singer, writer, producer, photographer, director, and model. You guys only get to see snippets of her life, because it is our choice to keep some of her life private. In my down time, I love reading and writing in my journal. I am always looking for inspiration to be a better me, and to continue serving my purpose with humility and grace. Leon and I were so proud of Noelle's piece that she wrote. We have always encouraged freedom of expression and have raised her to be an independent thinker. Thought I would share the piece with you in its entirety. Enjoy!


A Fleeting Romance
Written by Noelle Robinson
Is it possible to fall in love with someone you've known for one day only and for them to go back into their shell the moment you guys part? To make someone feel important enough to see your vulnerability first hand, only to shut them out the moment your eyes don’t meet? What was your incentive anyway? To steal a meaningless kiss from my lips? Or was it equally as meaningful for you? You stole my eyes at hello, you stole my soul when you made me laugh at things I didn't quite understand, but you stole my heart as you made yourself vulnerable. For those 8 hours, I saw a spark that only I could ignite, a kiss only I could seal, and a fire only I could start in you. But was it really a spark or was it merely a deception that the fire in our hearts could come together and burn down all of society’s illusions that are holding us back from each other? If he would give me the key to his mind, I would simply run around in his mind all day and I wouldn't be in love anymore, because chances are I'll find his mind submerged in society’s deceptions. Ooh but if I don't. That might make me an optimist and it might even make me naïve, but it would never make me a fool for slipping through an opportunity to find the little drop of fuel to ignite our flame. I don’t need you to tell me you love me; I need you to teach me to believe it.

LIFE TWIRLS ON

I have always loved acting. In the past, I have acted in a few roles over the years, but my main focus until recently has always been my modeling career. I had so much fun auditioning for Kenya's pilot. I love the role she chose for me, because it completely took me out of my comfort zone. I was so excited to become the character and was determined to commit to part. Looking back at my outfit, hair, and makeup, I may have over committed… LOL! Unfortunately there was so much more of the audition that you guys didn't get to see, but trust me, it was hilarious! I know without a doubt that this role was not given to me, I earned it. Besides, if I bombed the audition, I know that Kenya would not have cast me for the part. Kenya is silly and loves to goof around, but be clear, when it comes to her business, she plays no games. It's all business, and it is so not personal. I knew how serious she was about this project; therefore I knew that I had to take my audition seriously. She is an over achiever, a control freak, and a perfectionist. I know because I share these same characteristics! I knew that she was going to be hard on me, and I had to go big or go home. So that is exactly what I did. I went big, landed the role, and I went home! Thanks Kenya, for giving me this amazing opportunity. I can't wait for you guys to see the finished pilot.

 

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