What's up, my loves? I hope you all had a great weekend! I was so late on last week’s blog that I decided I would play catch up with you this week. *Smile* Did you all enjoy the episode?! I know I did, even though I must say it left me with mixed feelings about a couple things. Boy, I tell you it never gets easy seeing myself on TV. Seriously, it’s one thing to film and an entirely different experience watching yourself in action.
In the last episode you guys know that I met Cynthia and NeNe for the first time. Honestly, it was a little nerve wracking seeing I had so little time to prepare. My goal going into the meeting was to give the ladies more information of my vision for how I would like to increase donations for the foundation as well as experience a more intimate side of the founder, Rev. Dr. Hosea Williams, by having them over to his home. I was also hoping they would like to become active with the foundation and participate in a Public Service Announcement. Gathering up my confidence, I was up for the challenge. I’ve seen and witnessed NeNe from a distance volunteering at my family’s charity events. She really seemed pleasant, but we never actually met. I knew that she was known for being outspoken, so I couldn’t help from wondering if she would be territorial when I joined the group.
I had already met one crazy person who was a friend to this group of ladies, so I was even more cautious this time. When we did meet, I was pleasantly surprised. Cynthia, NeNe, and I automatically clicked and enjoyed our time together that day even celebrating with a toast to giving back. *Boom* We spoke about marriage, children, and our love for helping others. I was thinking to myself that this is how you converse with REAL women who have REAL lives. After meeting NeNe and Cynthia, I was able to get a sense of their spirit and vice versa. PS: And yes, it was hilarious to me too when I said 265 a year. LMBO! It was a combination of nervousness plus national TV, which equaled an epic fail. *Giggle*
The big day had finally arrived. Here I am just months from having major surgery for a fibroid that caused my unfortunate miscarriage. That day I was full of so many feelings and mixed emotions. First let me say it took a lot of prayer and thinking to decide to share that part of my life with you all. As you now know, I decided to open-up because if my story can help one female to take notice of what her body is telling her, if my story can cause one women to ask her doctor for a fibroid test prior to trying to conceive, then it will not have been told in vain. I try to formulate a plan, pray on what I desire, and many times it comes into fruition. However on my path to having a healthy baby, well, it didn't happen that way for me.
I was really devastated following the loss of my first pregnancy, not just a physical pain, but an aching sense of loss and loneliness like my body had let me down. Feeling sorry for myself, I did my research and discovered the U.S. National Institute of Health reveals at least 25 percent of women suffer from uterine fibroids. As many as 77 percent of women may not even know they have them, because there are no symptoms, which is why I had no clue. I will faithfully continue to stay prayerful that I will become a mother for the second time. I learned that it’s not my timing but the big man upstairs who holds my destiny in his hands. I must add that I’m hoping next time it will be a set of twins. LOL, pass the yams! PS: I appreciate the prayers and love shots. *Smooches*
Bon Voyage Kim
Wow! That lunch sure did go from good, to bad, to ugly real fast. I think it had to do with Kim’s “I’m coming," “I probably shouldn't,” to nope “I’m NOT going with you guys.” Unfortunately I didn't get the chance to meet Kim, however after watching her it seems she is really into family and therefore on her list of priorities they come first. I'm the exact same way. I can also understand the ladies’ reaction to her answer and why it wasn’t very well received. Seems they had been looking forward to the trip as a last ditch effort to save their friendships. I really felt their sentiment was genuine towards one another and was quite proud of NeNe for keeping calm, because honey for a minute I thought the diva was about go into real diva mode.
OMG, I’m all off track, I so did not intend on going there. *Slap on wrist* Anyway I have to go; I'm making my first pot roast tonight. Check me out on Instagram: PorshadStewart to see how it turns out. I'll chat with you guys next week.
Let's celebrate our sisters instead trying to bring others down. Often we will find that while we are uplifting others, we will also be uplifted and our desires will be revealed to us a lot sooner than later. The “crabs in a barrel” mentality only exists if we view ourselves as a crab. First picture a better future, speak it into existence, then bask in the success of your efforts fruition.
Lots of Love,
To Donate to Hosea Feed the Hungry and Homeless visit http://4hosea.org/.