Cast Blog: #RHOA

Porsha's Dropping a New Single!

Porsha opens about her audition for Kandi's musical and her new music career.

Hello loves, I've missed you guys! I've just been so busy running my Fortune 500 company. LOL, JK! I have a lot of awesome surprises to share with you all soon!

Let’s jump into the most recent episode. First off I would like to thank all of you for tuning in each week. Up to now it may seem as if my RHOA sisterhood is slowly crashing and burning. After each week I have realized that these are real situations that people go through, and some of those times can be tough. After going through my recent split, the last thing that I want to happen is to lose my sisters. Sometimes we feel "tried" and pushed in corners. But at the end of it all, we end up making it right. As long as we try to treat others on how we would want to be treated, then the ups and downs will fade away.

I can't begin to tell you how excited I was finding out I got the part in Kandi’s play "A Mother's Love." The journey to the audition was long and hard. I'll give you a little background. I started singing when I was younger in church, took some time off, then came back and sang as an adult on my church praise team. S/O High Praise! As time moved along I started singing demo tracks for various producers and studios. I ended up getting married and ended up losing my support system that wanted to help push me into the music industry towards my musical dreams. Well long story short, now I'm on my own and ready to follow my dream! I have always wanted to be a performer, but I have also always dealt with fear. One time I was in church and it was my turn to sing the lead. There were three lead parts, and I was supposed to take the third. By the time my part came up I got so nervous and scared that I just FAINTED! It was so embarrassing, everyone ran up to me and thought it was the Holy Ghost (they started speaking in tongues) when actually I had just crumbled under pressure. After that I decided I would believe in God and the gift he had given me. I told myself fear was not of God and I shouldn't give into it. Thank the heavens I was finally healed and am now free of fear when I sing. Now I still get nervous, but I just try to put my heart and soul into my songs and hope that people hear more of my soul when I sing.

At Kandi's audition I tried not to think about it too much. I knew I had naysayers, but I also knew Kandi believed in me, which was very encouraging! I have to say I thank the haters that motivate me and push me to be my best.

I also wanted to let you know that currently I've finished a single that means a lot to me. The single is called "Flatline" with producer Chris "Traxx" Rogers. This song speaks from my heart and tells the story of any person who has ever had their heart broken or had loved someone and was let down. I can't wait for you all to get a listen... When I get emotional I lean on music to help me get through hard times and I use music to express when I'm in a good place. I'll be releasing the single "Flatline" in two weeks. Well guys I have to go, it’s my Poopa’s birthday today! Talk to you all again soon. Happy Birthday, Lauren! Turn up! Love you to bits! Kisses!

Claudia: Some People Have a Vendetta

Claudia Jordan shares her thoughts on the group therapy session.

Bravotv.com: Did you feel like progress was made at the therapy session?
Claudia Jordan: I do and I don't. The main people that needed it were not willing participants. One took off because she couldn't deal with hearing about how her actions affected the rest of the ladies. And the other that stayed, well… she received apology after apology without ever acknowledging any of her own wrong doing. That's not right at all. How is it that the woman on the receiving end of a physical attack has apologized to her assailant on several occasions, yet she has yet to show any remorse? That's downright insane to me! At the end of the day, there are lots of situations in this group where one can claim they were "provoked," and if the response/excuse every single time was physical violence, we'd all be in jail! And the sad thing is in this particular environment I felt that everyone else there was really ready to do the work and participate. So if ever there was a time to drop the ego and do the right thing and apologize simply for the purpose of starting the healing process for the group, then that was the time. Some people are just too stubborn and refuse to humble themselves. That happens when you are babied your entire life -- you feel like you can do no wrong. The rest of the ladies (including myself) however have all apologized and taken responsibility for contributing to the discord. But just pay attention to who never apologizes and who always does. I do not think that is because one "group" has been causing all the negativity in the group. But I do think that is because some have an agenda and a vendetta, while the other group is actually trying to make things cool and move on.


But on the flip side I will say that therapy was beneficial. In that one session we did get some good guidance from Dr. Jeff, who I would like to apologize to on behalf of the group for how he was mistreated. He came to help us and was insulted, disrespected, and his professionalism was questioned, which he did not deserve. So Dr. Jeff, I am sorry for how you were mistreated. The session did just highlight that some of us are mature and able to speak respectfully to one another, even if we have an issue with them, and some just cannot stand the sight and sound of someone we have decided not to like just because. All in all we did the best we could, and everyone who stayed did seem to really want to get along. And things were definitely better at work after the session. We were cordial and friendly.

Bravotv.com: Why did you decide to meet with Dr. Jeff one-on-one?
CJ: I have never, ever once claimed to be perfect or without flaws. And when I say I want to really resolve things, I am not just offering lip service -- I really mean it. If there is something that I am doing wrong that is contributing to any of the strife amongst the group, then I'd like to address it and do my part to work on me. I think most of us have issues with others because of past hurts that we perhaps never really dealt with and that cause us to act out in certain ways that may bother others. I am not saying I do this necessarily, but I have no problems talking to someone to at least try to be a better person. I for sure have made my share of mistakes and have experienced a lot of pain and disappointment in my life, but I've also been extremely blessed. But at the end of the day, my intention is always to grow and learn from it all and to be a better woman today than I was yesterday. Dr. Jeff is great at what he does and was for sure an asset to the group. Thank you, Doctor!

Bravotv.com: Did you and Porsha manage to get back to a better place?
CJ: It seemed that way. But I had made the decision that regardless of whether or not she was going to continue the peace treaty, that I was going to do my part to keep it cool, polite, and cordial. And so far so good.

Again I'd like to thank the fans for all their support and love and enthusiasm for #RHOA! I was in Miami Beach and Miami Gardens with the morning show this past weekend for Jazz in the Gardens, and the love I got from all the fans of the show was next level! I was truly flattered and humbled, and I will never let any of this get to my head and change me. I'm grateful to be a part of this and for all the amazing opportunities that keep sprouting from this. I just wrapped a movie called The Hills that I have a lead role in, which will be out in the fall, as well as another film called Love is Not Enough. I'm also working on a product line (to be announced soon) and more calls have been coming in from Hollywood for more great acting roles. I also had a great time with my girls in Miami and ran into a bunch of awesome people doing their thing that love the show too! I feel so rested and at peace. I'm healthy, happy, and appreciative. #ThankYouGod

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