Let me discuss the continuation of the argument at the table. I want to say there are only two people that know all of what was said in Las Vegas. And that is Kyle and myself. I know that her sister was there for part of the conversation but not the whole time. This may or may not ever be sorted out because we have two differing opinions of what really was said. As far as this argument goes...I was already not comfortable with Kyle's jab at me about being insecure while she was apologizing up in the room. It was not meant as a compliment, and it stung. I probably would have let it go, but after talking with Taylor I found out that at the airport everybody was talking about me. I was very hurt to hear that all of the women that I had invited to share an important night in my life with, had been talking ill of me. I can't imagine that any other person on this planet would feel differently. Nobody likes to feel like they are being torn apart behind their back. So, I went down (by the way, there was no running or flying down the stairs) to clear the air. I had no intention of this turning into another argument. Now in retrospect, I should have known better because I had witnessed a few incidents of Kyle belittling and berating her sister. I didn't know that she had such a short fuse. Remember I had only spent a few hours with her in my life. Maybe I should have used another approach, I don't know but, I was learning the lesson of "Kyle", the hard way.
Now to admit my own disappointment with myself. I am not proud of losing my cool in my interview following this incident. Not only had things gone badly in New York, but I had also double checked to see if Kyle had left me any messages prior to the trip to New York which she had claimed when she was apologizing. I was right I had no messages from her. I can only assume she said this to put me on the defense, to make me look like I was putting no effort into smoothing things over before the NYC trip. I want to be clear that I had no messages in my voicemail and no one had taken any personal messages from her at my home. So with all of this on my mind, I said a few things that I wish I could take back. Unfortunately this isn't the way it works in life or on the show. All I can say is that I am sorry and I will try to do better in the future.
The truth is that as time has gone by, I have come to really enjoy Kyle. We have had a few ups and downs over this season. Everyone is going to have an opinion. My personal thoughts are that I like Kyle. I think Kyle has a great sense of humor, and I can appreciate her personality a lot more now that I know her better. I just don't want to be the one caught in her "crosshairs."
Until next time,