Camille Grammer

Camille reflects on the uncanny foreshadowing in this week's episode.

on Dec 9, 20100

Hello to all of the fans of RHOBH.

This week's episode was another exercise in emotion for me I did know that watching the show throughout the season would be difficult for me at times. I am constantly bombarded with the bad memories of the demise of my marriage. I knew that old memories and emotions would be stirred up. What I didn't expect was to actually see and remember the clues that I didn't understand at that time. My marriage was about to come to an abrupt end. This week's episode had this heart wrenching effect on me: it was the scene where I am talking to my best friend Dedra about a phone conversation I just had with my husband.

Just to explain a little bit of background for you: the plan for our family had always been for Kelsey to move to New York City by himself in February and start the rehearsals for the play. He said he wanted to go out on his own for the first few months because the rehearsal schedule was very grueling, and he wouldn't have much time or energy to give the family the needed attention we deserve. To move then would involve taking the kids out of school and bringing them cross-country to a new school in the middle of the school year, and during the cold East Coast winter. I would have, of course, done this if he had wanted us there. But under the circumstances it made the most sense for him to leave without us, for the kids to finish the school year and to join him once school let out for the summer. I flew to New York City in February to search with Kelsey for an apartment, as well as to find a school for the kids. They were to participate in a summer school program during July, and then enroll at their new school in the fall. We agreed upon staying through February 2011 until Kelsey finished his run with the play. At that time we would return to Malibu, our friends, and our lives of the last 13 years.

Now back to the phone conversation, Kelsey told me that he had decided he wanted to move to New York full time. He said he felt appreciated there, and he gave me his reasons for wanting to make this move permanent. During the conversation he never once mentioned the impact the move would have on our family. Although I had no real interest in moving back to the East Coast at this time in my life, my biggest concern was uprooting our family. My children are happy here and they have friends and activities that fulfill an important part of their lives. But I assure you, if it was important enough to my husband to do this in his life, I would have supported him and moved. Not because it would have been the easy thing to do, but because I loved him and wanted him to be happy too. Now as I look back on this phone call I realize it was a pivotal moment in my life, and that left me so uneasy. The conversation was fraught with unsaid words and feelings. He was dropping hints, but nothing concrete. At the time it left me sleepless and without appetite. My mind was spinning as it was all new to me. I didn't know what was real, what was imagined, or what I may have misunderstood. What do I share with friends and family? Who do I turn to? It was so confusing, overwhelming, and troublesome.

892 comments
Chanelgirl
Chanelgirl

Dearest Camille,

I am so sorry and disappointed to see you won't be on Housewives anymore. You were one of my favorites and now not so sure I will enjoy watching Season 3 without you. Bravo made a terrible mistake not renewing your contract. They need to get rid of Taylor and Kim whom I detest watching as they are such repulsive people. I know your divorce was painful, but take the money and live your life to it's fullest as you now have the power to do that and be glad. Kyle was cruel and argumentative with you because she doesn't have your money or stature and you were a threat and competition to her. You have so much more class than she ever could. I know what that's like, as I have endured that kind of treatment from women for years, its the green eyed monster unleashing itself, and you have to view it as that and nothing more, rise above it and never look back. I wish you all the joy with your new love and the great life you will live with Kelsey's money. You will be dearly missed. Not sure I will continue watching the show without you. Bravo made a mistake, big mistake......

Warmest regards,

Bonnie

Ice Angel
Ice Angel

To Camille,

I just want to say that you handled yourself with class, dignity and grace. You are beautiful and I am glad my sister got some copies of your show sent over here. I had no idea how lovely you are. Now whenever a tv show with your ex husband comes on, it gets turned off in my house. Keep being the beautiful lady you are. Thank you.

SPYuma
SPYuma

Camille, You seem blessed with class, elegance and business savoy. Not to mention intelligence, wit and compassion. But your choice in friends (ALL of them) leaves me questioning my opinion of you. Are you just insecure and need to surround yourself with lesser people (women)?

I hope not.

Best always,

omgcommentchik
omgcommentchik

Hi Camille!!! We love you here on the East Coast! You are such a sweetheart, and have such elegance :)

Forget Taylor, people see right through her, she's for sure BPD!!! Universe is trying to do you a favor, by her not being in your life - take it and run! She's not the kind of friend you want in your life - she is full of so much rage. And Kyle is nothing special either. Just another power oriented mean girl - who actually thinks she can dance - yeah, no not really. Keep your distance from the two fo them, and watch the cat fight that will soon ensue between those two - it's just a matter of time :) Stay close to your own friends, and Adrienne (Brandy too). Good luck darling, remember these women are nothing in the scope of your own valued world :)

tris
tris

Camille! Rock on sister! You were amazing on Sundays episode....good for you for speaking truth. You have become such a visibly powerful woman for being true to you and your family. You have risen above the rest and are beyond classy! I wasn't a fan last season but it is great to see how you have come out of your shell and become a down to earth person experiencing the hurts and joys like all of the rest of us. Applause to you!

It does not Matter
It does not Matter

Dear Camille, I have never written before, and never do. This evening revolted me watching the tonight show. That is one stomach turning thing. With whatever power you have left after all that has happened, ignore it. Shame on him. What a clear loser and he does not know what he gave up. Maybe in ten years, but that is too late. XO XO

Viewer with insight
Viewer with insight

Camille, I just thought you'd like to know t hat my husband refuses to watch "the boss" because of how kelsey treated you last season. Real men hate to see other me who are so weak that they can't even act like human beings to their women.

Charlize
Charlize

Camille- What do you do to have such an incredible body? Seriously! Share your workout and diet secrets, you look amazing.

flexeril online
flexeril online

Thank you for this information! I used it for my diploma thesis =)

Ronald Howell
Ronald Howell

This season I feel that we are getting to know the real Camille, not Camille Grammer, but Camille, and you know what? she's a lovely person.

jacquelines
jacquelines

You and Taylor are going to move on and surpass and overcome your struggles like for real . I am bein ver honest and truthful about this i can realte to the both of u both like you and her have no idea. I am going to be a mommy for the 3rd time and my pregnancy was having its risks due to alot of stress cause i found out that my bf was about to be a baby daddy to some other chick and i was really mad and pissed off and i just wanted to be myself for awhile. I am like you and taylor i am very sensitive, and very sensible but i can also be very smart lol! Now me and my bf are happier than ever with my baby that is coming on the way really soon. Me and my other baby daddy chris we are no longer together but he does come around to give me money for what i need and especially to his kids cause it aint the kids fault that we are seperated. And as far as edward goes hmmmmm i still have feelings and emotions for him but its like a brother sister type of thing. luv ya and god bless!

Georgia Williams
Georgia Williams

Camillle, welcome back! I'm so happy you are back on the show. Stay strong, always remain hopeful, and never give up on your faith.

Katy P
Katy P

Hi Camille I think the others are just so jealous of your brains & beauty....you do well to keep positve & upbeat with all those b$^tches to contend with... Big hug and best wishes for the future... :-)

brenda church
brenda church

I love u Camille.. for 100 years I was a fan of Kelsie. How ever I truly seem he's just a f___k _ _ _ LOL i wish u all happiness an keep faith. Ur soo gorgeous an I wish u the Best.. Keep Smiling :))

nayR7926
nayR7926

I Love you Camille. I empathized with you alot- I too am very sensitive. That Faye Resnick indeed had a grin on her face when you shook her hand(sly). That woman looks like a serpent with a common "s". Camille and Taylor are being hated on in these blogs but the real snake is KYLE. I like wathching you all!! Cant wait for next season.

todays world news
todays world news

Hi! I know this is kinda off topic but I was wondering which blog platform are you using for this website? I'm getting fed up of Wordpress because I've had issues with hackers and I'm looking at alternatives for another platform. I would be awesome if you could point me in the direction of a good platform.

BillieB
BillieB

So can't wait to see you next season.

tcinvta
tcinvta

super hope you come back next season you are my fav!!!

hulali
hulali

How sad that I'm still trying to comment on your blog months after the series has ended! But its my only avenue. I enjoyed watching this series more than the rest put together, so here it is...

He he he! They are already having marital problems! Stay strong, you will be fabulous as an awards commentator! True revenge is a life well lived! The worst is behind you and now all you have to have to do is sit back and watch the show! He he he! He is so stupid.

Suzie
Suzie

Nobody properly raised in California calls it "Cali."

sues1965
sues1965

Sorry to hear about your stupid Ex husbands wedding yesterday... No matter what has happened... You did not deserve to be treated like you were..... Apparently his new wife doesnt get it. she'll be the next one in line.... I am sorry for your kids mostly..

Carol Erwin
Carol Erwin

Thinking of you today! I hope everything is getting easier emotionally for you and your kids!

hey, Camille $$
hey, Camille $$

The psychic was stupid, but it would have been really funny for her to have been at the Reunion.

Angelanna
Angelanna

Camille!!! NO!! NO!!!NO!!!

Please say it isn't so!! There is a report out that you will NOT be back for season two. I'm hoping it was just a bad dream.

Seriously, you were the reason I tuned in. After things got so ugly with the sisters and the lying Taylor, you were the only one that I kept watching for. Please don't go, I will have to give up my one hour of TV per week

I really want to see you rise to the top, I want to see follow up from your divorce, I want to see what your future holds.

If its true, I do understand. You are much too classy for these women and you have bigger and better things waiting for you. Thank you for letting us get a glimpse in your life, thank you for allowing us in during the hardest part of your life, thank you for letting us share your pain.

I wish you all the best and you will be missed. Know that!!!

Kimberley Smith
Kimberley Smith

I watched you on HLN and will be tuning in to see your Oscar interviews. I also saw you on the finale of "sh*t my dad says" and you were great. Congratulations!! Stay out there and your fans will continue to follow you until we see you on RHOBH Season 2.

Maggie NYC
Maggie NYC

Has anyone thought that Camille might have invited Allison& DeDe as backup after allowing Kyle to invite Faye?

Betty B
Betty B

Hi Camille,

I am so happy to hear you got a job with CNN for the Oscars. I will definitely be tuning in to see you. Congratulations! You deserve it. I wish you all the best. Keep your head up, you haven't done anything wrong.

Your #1 fan, Betty

wuzhappn
wuzhappn

Camille, you were right in calling out Faye Resnick at the dinner party. She specifically came to stir up trouble, as evidenced by her recently aired comments that she knew "everything about you" before coming to your house armed and dangerous with her little Blackberry filled with photos of you from your past. It was a set-up, pure and simple, and she was ready to pounce on behalf of Kyle. It's true that Faye Resnick is morally corrupt for the reasons you stated. Posing naked in Playboy in the wake of her friend's murder was a low and classless thing to do, not to mention selling her story to the National Enquirer before the trial, thus jeopardizing the verdict. Congratulations on her Academy Award gig. I also think it would be great if you could facilitate a sitcom for Kim Richards. My goodness, that would be a major coup.

Rebecca C
Rebecca C

Hi Camille,

I wonder if you are familiar with the Psychoanalytical process of Projection. As a licensed Psychotherapist, it is my assessment that Kyle is projecting her "unfinished business" from her childhood on to you, i.e., her unconscious rage toward Kim is being projected on to you. You and Kim are both blonde and more vulnerable in nature; being a projection screen for other peoples toxic toxic waste is never pleasant. Know that this has nothing to do with who you really are. Be free, be peaceful, and shine on!

Viewer3442
Viewer3442

Why is everyone forgetting that Camille told Kyle it would be OK to bring her friend that she already had plans with ?'

There was no set up there. The only set up was Camille having Allison there to do more then stir the pot.

mz.sheniqua
mz.sheniqua

i believe that the whole way the dinner went with everyone meeting Allison shouldn't have come to a huge ordeal. im sorry to say but Allison DuBois is not as she says she is. plenty of doctor and therapist have concluded that she is a fake. Knowing that, she shouldn't be credited on her investigations. as for what she was saying, Camille has pre-gamed her on everything that has happened. And it is sad to say that saying lies on T.V. doesn't go away because that makes a person not creditable not matter if they try to take it back.

Jenna D
Jenna D

Sucks of Kelsey to be such a coward and so manipulative...letting you do the work of finding his apartment and decorating, getting it ready for his girlfriend, keeping the family unit together and running the business, while he took a break from responsibility and made a new life and got a new wife. No excuses for what he did.

He is almost too old to do it again, he won't have the energy she will be his last wife or next to last.

Haven't we all seen this story played out by men over and over again.

Then having you show up at the Red Carpet event on false promises. Jerk, Jerk, Jerk. Classless, inhumane.

Good riddance. Glad you can focus on you now.

I won't be bothering to see his plays.

Jenna D
Jenna D

Let's show some restaint and wisedom

Camille, if you still read these comments and can speak to Allison, please tell her I was not fooled a moment. I saw the dinner episode and could tell it had been condensed for time and thought she repeated herself clearly that she was not working. Nothing wrong with you bringing friends. You also let Kyle bring her buddy. Great to see Allison and DeeDee.

And no reason anyone had to view or share photo's of you. I can say "NO" to watching or even looking up photo's and past situations about people, and they could have too. I was disgusted with them for looking. The bigger person, the kinder person would have said no, let's not out of respect, and lets not put emphasis on the things done by the lack of experience, desperation to make a living.

It would have been better to not bring anyone's past up.

Everyone is older, wiser and all mom's now.

swtblondie
swtblondie

Camille,

You had such a beef with Kyle over what she "said" at the airport. "why would they want to go to Hawaii if Kelsey wasn't there" but on this weeks episode your "friend" Allison said at the end. Something to the effect of "I stood up for you because Kelsey wasn't here if he was here, he would have stood up for you, but because he wasn't, I did it." "She (Camille) can't stand up for herself because she is such an angel" I don't understand why you got so upset with Kyle because of what she "allegeledly said" in New York when Your "friend" said basically the same thing and you defend her in every interview I've seen or read. I do want to appoligize for any english or misspelling errors since I've com to realize you are a ????nictpicker???? and I've had a few cocktails, but not quite as many as allison probably has, since it is saturday...LOL...not so LOL

charlie2011
charlie2011

Camille knew exactly what she was doing when she invited Allison to the dinner party. Camille started the beef when she made the rude comment to Faye and then Allison kept it going by being rude to both Kyle and Lisa. If Allison was so against people asking her questions then why did she and Camille do nothing but talk about the fact that she was a medium.. People will ask question of someone like that at a small dinner party. Allison is insane and Camille IS delusional. Kyle told Camille that she had plans with Faye when she invited her..So Camille first was dilusional in New York and then again when she accused Kyle of inviting Faye as a set up.. Allison was the setup..that is as clear as a bell. Accusations that Kyle said "why would they want to film you without Kelsey" was sooo offensive to Camille..yet she sat there and let that crazy Allison talk about Kyle's marriage and the death of their children... Please..it looks like Camille has used her divorce to get the sympathy of the viewers and some people are so easily fooled..Camille is a gold digger that could care less about her marriage as long as she gets $$$$ and as long as she can use that as an excuse for her bad behavior.. I really would like someone to answer this question..those who support Camille.. Would a women who loves her husband and be devistated at the loss of her marriage make constant sexual remarks to her husbands married friend on a tennis court..kiss him in front of his wife and flirt with an old man in a hot tube...not shead one tear while discussing her divorce? I just don't think it is rocket science to see that it was a marriage based on money and fame..Does anyone really believe that Camille loved Kelsey??? Seriously..Don't worry..Camille will get her settlement and then move on to another rich MARRIED man..don't feel bad for her..remember they did not have a prenup..thats all that matters to her.

not a camille fan
not a camille fan

Are you serious?! Camille says throughout the season that she gets along better with men than women because women are so catty. Isn't saying that women are jealous of her (every 5 minutes) being catty. She is more catty on this show than any of the other women. I think someone who has to say "Kyle is just jealous of me" that many times means that she is the jealous one. And the way she brought up the playboy topic and what she said about Faye just further proves this point. Camille needs to look in the mirror the next time she talks about being jealous and/or catty. Also, who in the world would even begin to put someone down about doing a playboy spread when they have done things that are a lot worse. Camille should be really embarassed.

Terilynn
Terilynn

Camille-

Be proud of who you are. We all go through what we go through to get to where we are. You should never be ashamed of the things you've accomplished in your life. Hold your head up and stand tall.

When we are going through the rough stuff it is easy to get caught up in ways that we normally don't. You got sucked into a very uncomfortable situation, especially as you realized that none of them really is your friend. It was obvious by your nervous smiling that you were not happy about the things that Allison was saying and neither was your other girlfriend.

I have seen you through out this program all season and I think you were brutally honest on the reunion show. I believe you truly were sorry for the Kyle situation; however I believe Kyle and Taylor laid the foundation for that situation and neither of them owned it. Kyle is a bully as is obvious as we watch how she treats her sister. She was dying to tell Kims "secret"... and she did. Kyle was one of my favorites until her true colors showed.

I will you all of GODs blessings to you and your children as you forward in your life. Be true to yourself and the rest will fall into place.

Terilynn

rockey
rockey

wrong Camille wants to be noticed wants her own fame out from under Kelsey.

rockey
rockey

Did Camille not first attack Faye Resnick?

rockey
rockey

Please Camille brought her for just that reason. And who threw the first stone camp Camille.

Terilynn
Terilynn

Camille- When we are going through the rough stuff it is easy to get caught up in ways that we normally don't. You got sucked into the situation, especially as you realized that none of them really is your friend. It was obvious by your nervous smiling that you were not happy about the things that Allison was saying and neither was your other girlfriend. I have seen you through out this program all season and I think you were so honest on the reunion show. I believe you truly were sorry for the Kyle situation; however I believe Kyle and Taylor laid the foundation for that situation. Good luck and blessings to you and your children.

Jodi Peltier
Jodi Peltier

While I cannot fathom the pain of a public divorce (I am very sad for the pain Camille and the children must feel), there is a lot of unknowns out there, and there are always two sides.

I wanted to quickly touch base on this "double standard" issue: Camille has TWO friends to back her for dinner, and Kyle brought ONE. No matter who/where they came from, it is understandable to have a person there who comforts you in the years of your friendship when everyone is a 'new' friend. Especially if there is any animosity. Why would Camille throw a dinner party to have the Housewives over and include 2 other randoms? Why did Kyle accept her invite? I doubt it was to come and make a scene on national television.

And another note: frankly, I don't see Kyle as someone who's out for her fame, but - sorry, I do see that in Camille; from Playboy to porn, to marrying a famous person. All the ladies have deep pockets, but not all are seeking the attention.

I generally do not try to make someone out to look bad - ever. I just cannot connect the dots with Camille. The other ladies have class and dignity. Angry or not.

Angelanna
Angelanna

I totally agree with Jillmac and Texas mom. They both said it perfectly. Camille and Allison had loyalty and Kyle and Faye had a hidden agenda. They were terrible house guests. Mock and ridicule another guest, beg for a reading when she to told them no over and over. And I don't understand why people keep blaming Camille for what Allison said. Its not Camille's job to shut Allisons mouth or to apologize and make amends for Allison's behavior.

You're right, we must not have been watching the same show, because the above was blatantly obvious.

Keep on with your big, bad self Camille. You do have a lot of fans who are rooting for you!

indywife
indywife

just caught up on dinner party episode - my feeling on the gals are confirmed esp w this episode! allison was so cornered and bullied into her corner, into "performing" for a group of women so caught up w their superficial perfections. the wives ganged up on her w their comments and attitudes, but none of them even had the intellect to understand the metaphors and referenced allison then made! the wives twisted everything into literal comments (abstracting is beyond them), and jumped into hyper-defensive mode as - surprise - they didn't hear what they wanted. wondering if allison recognized a kindred spirit in kim w the penchant for alchohol? thing is, while kim is in denial w just about everything (she & her sister are unevolved siblings so hung up on their mom & past), allison recognizes the "annihilation" vis a vis strong drink - she acknowledged as much when she said what saturdays represented to her. we ALL have our evils, we all are responsible for our various weaknesses, and she is in a life mode where recognizing that is seeing reality. in short - i like your friends. the camille-based trio, though presented rather negatively, is a more intellectually sound group. the wives, but for adrienne and lisa, are a cluster of insecure and shallow feminine bullies. taylor, in her ability to follow and stir up differences so that she can place herself in the middle of things, is the most dangerous - she is manipulative at others' expense. kyle is pack leader to be sure, but that is largely a function of her having the biggest mouth -she does not have the most to say. lisa and adrienne are not as miserable inside, so they have far less need to belittle others. thanks for a great season! hope to see all the gals next year!

jaintn
jaintn

Camille, I have to say I owe you an apology. I watched the episode with the previously unaired footage and Kyle and her little friend acted like complete classless jerks. As vulgar and nasty as Allison's comments were, she started off being friendly and was very clear over and over that she wasn't there to work, just to have a good time and the women would not let up on her. I would have probably blown a gasket too. Kyle's nasty remark about pulling out her credit card was drink in the face worthy. What you said at the reunion show about being set up as the bad guy is all too true. I honestly hope you return to the show and don't take any of Kyle's crap and do not listen to a thing Taylor says. Here's a hint when dealing with her. You can tell when Taylor is lying because her mouth is moving.

jzlilomee
jzlilomee

Did anyone notice that Camille thanked Allison for kicking the ladies out. Yeah, keep defending her. Stop making excuses for her.

RHOBH
RHOBH

After hearing Andy on the reuinion talk about "all the negative comments they've gotten" about you, i was puzzled. I think you are the most down to earth, friendly and gracious person on all of the housewives shows. I liked you from day 1 (or atleast from what i saw). I do like Kyle, however I thought it was poor judgement of her to bring someone like Fey to your home, in which she was very quick to insult you and honestly, just had a bad attitude! She made me mad and i think she should not have been brought to your home. She came in "briefed" about the situation with an obvious bias opinion and was rude enough to butt her way into business that was not hers. Not to say Alison didn't hit below the belt at times though. I think you stand up for yourself when you need to and you let it die when it needs to die. You can tell you want to move past the incident with Kyle, however I feel like Kyle will not come to a happy medium with you; it seems as though it's her way or the highway. Anyway, know that there are fans that support you and hope for the best for you. This show was my favorite out of all the housewives shows =) next to OC. But i am bias, i'm a Cali girl...