Well, our season has come to an end and in true housewives fashion, we went out with a bang, followed by a few shouts, and no shortage of tears. I felt sad watching the episode and realizing our journey was coming to a close with so many unresolved feelings and so much hurt.
I have had the best of times with the ladies, and also more sleepless nights than I care to recall. We have supported one another and hurt one another, and for my part in the latter, I have regrets. I regret that Kim and I got off to a bad start and that it has continued to loom over our relationship throughout the season.
I often wonder if we would have had a nice first meeting in Sacramento, if things would have been different for us. At my birthday party, my intention was to sit down next to her (when I asked her friend for a moment with her) and have a talk about how I felt and what went wrong. When Kim stood up as opposed to my sitting down, I knew things were going to go badly. I could tell Kim wasn't in the "mood" for a heart to heart. Lisa felt it was important for me to sort it out with Kim, but in retrospect, I should have said no and left it alone. Sometimes Kim says things she doesn't mean (as do I) and with her, I really don't understand where some of the content comes from. She is unpredictable but, that's as much as I care to say about that. On occasion, you meet a person with whom you don't seem to "click" and that, in my opinion, is what happened with Kim and I. We both had our guard up from the beginning and the results weren't favorable. I wish Kim all the best and hope we can put our pointless bickering behind us.
I regret telling Camille in New York how I found it odd that Kim was talking to me in the airport (after previously avoiding me in Sacramento). I regret it not because there was something wrong with me sharing my feelings with Camille about my personal experience with Kim, but because the mention of the word "insecure" (for a second time, after she heard it in Kyle’s apology just prior) led Camille to feel there was a consensus forming amongst the group that she was "insecure." Lisa had told me that Camille said she felt "invisible" or "insignificant" (I still can't get that straight!) being married to a celebrity. I had never seen Camille with Kelsey at that point nor had we ever discussed her "invisibility", "insignificance," or "insecurity" so, I was only answering Kim's questions based on what I was told. In any event, my comments were about my experience with Kim and were certainly never meant to stir any pot or cause any additional arguing between Kyle and Camille. That was a nightmare for us all and for whatever part my comment played in it, I regret it and apologize.
Wow - I still don't think you are "owning" your part in this whole fight!! You should have NEVER spoke to Camille after Kyle straightened things out - it's NONE of your business! You stir the pot and then you walk away and say nothing, not good! I sincerely hope they play the tape at the reunion - maybe that will tweek your memory!
Taylor, I cannot believe now you are saying that you had a part in Camille reaction to Kyle that night. And the way you delivered your message to Kim was really out of line. Poor Kimmy felt (as I did too) you were ganging up on her. You went over to her to intimidate her. Not to clear the air. If I was Kimmy I wouldn't do the show anymore with you ladies. Just so mean and hurtful. Kimmy is not a person that does well with pressure,I can see that. And I know you guys did too. And by no means did I think she was drunk that night.
Taylor - as I watched some of the previous shows and the finale, it is so clear that you caused the drama this season. First with Kyle and Camille, then with Kim. Did you want more camera time? I found you to be fake and boring. I agree with Lisa's comments, you want the Beverly Hills lifestyle and to give the impression that you have more money and "things" than you actually do.
As you've stated numerous times that your intentions with Kim were to put the past aside and let bygones be bygones however, you said something to her that would be very, very hurtful for any sister. Do you have sisters? From your behavior and words, it seems like you don't. When you were speaking with Kim, you basically told her that Kyle liked you better and that you were better for Kyle than Kim was. I don't care how good of friends you are with someone, that is her sister! She will always, always trump the friend. If you had a sister, I think you would understand that. If one of my sister's friend had come across that way to me, I would definitely get defensive and be like "who the heck are you telling me about my sister when you've only known for 5 minutes." They have had a lifetime together so I think they know each other better than any of you do. You really seem insecure by trying to come between special relationships i.e. Kyle and Lisa and Kyle and Kim. I feel like Lisa was telling you to "stay out of it" in context to Kyle and Kim. As you should, their relationship is NONE of your business!
There is a difference between clearing the air (as Lisa suggested) and walking up to someone at a party and telling them why you don't like them. Yikes. By the way... adult clearing the air starts with asking questions, not telling the other person their bad qualities.
Still blaming Kim. And now Lisa, too. What a shame; you had a chance to apologize for YOUR behavior, yet you chose to blame Kim, with your added "mood" innuendo, and Lisa, who gave you very good advice. Very sad.
It's easy to have "regrets" after you realize you made huge mistakes. Have you apologized to every woman that was at that party scene? I doubt it. What you did that night is unforgivable in my book, and you are no true friend to anyone, not even your husband.
Taylor, you now admit you played some role in the Kyle & Camille conflict. Why did you spend all season denying it, at one point threatening violence when Kim tried to bring it up. Your partial mia culpa here doesn't do it. Fill in the blanks Taylor, fill in the blanks
Don't apologize to us, apologize to Kim! No matter what you think, you behaved horribly toward her at your party, and Lisa did not tell you to pick a fight with her. And back off Kyle, would you? She shouldn't have to choose loyalties, that's a bit much to ask of someone you just started a friendship with, not to mention just badly intentioned (which is how it appeared). I don't think I can continue watching if you are on the show and have not made every effort to undue the damage to did Kim and Kyle.
Thank you for the beautiful sentiment. I hope there will be a Season 2 or I'm going to be sad. Don't feel bad, what woman hasn't said something in their life that they regret later. You're not alone, believe me. Live and learn, I say. So now you have a real life "Beverly Hills Chihuahua" just like the movie. Has Kennedy seen the 2 Chihuahua Movies? They're so cute. I'm glad she's feeling better. So glad to hear you and Russell are finally on the same page. Been there, done that. It's a relief when things smoothe out, isn't it? Lot's of luck with that. Hope to see you all in the not so distant future. Take care and lot's of love and "BIG" Fun! xoxo
Since you seem to enjoy alluding Kim's problems aren't you the least concerned some of your past back ground and dealings might come to light?
I would be if I were you.
Dear Taylor - I've watched every minute of the entire season of RHBH, more than once, and never saw you "stir up" anything intentionally. Unless you are the greatest actress that ever lived, you appeared to be innocently aproaching every situation and although you may have been a catalyst more than once, I never saw anything intentional. I think you're getting a bad rap in most of the comments on the other blogs. It is very kind of you to express regrets and apologize in this blog, and I again believe you are sincere. The truth always comes out, not to worry, they'll see you, and what happens next season ( you know that there must be season 2) . I think you're wonderful! Congratulations on successfully working on your marriage. Russell is a good man, obviously loves you, and just wrestles with balancing work and family . Stay together forever! Wishing you the very best!
I have NEVER had a comment I submitted published, but I will try again....Taylor, you were so out of line for approaching that subject with Kim at your birthday party. Why on earth, would you even want to??? That discussion should have happened in private between the 2 of you over coffee at a restaurant or at one of your homes. I can't believe that you invited her to your party and then attack her with all that unpleasantness. You don't use a party to clear the air of regarding misunderstandings. I can see that Kim does indeed have problems but that aside, a party IS NOT THE TIME OR THE PLACE. I'm sure Kim and every other invited guest thought they were there for a celebration, not a confrontation. And you pride yourself in being such a lady. What you did was low rent. I think that you and Adrienne are hell bent on coming off as though you are mere bystanders and not participants. I'm glad to see that in your blog you finally take some responsibility for participating.
Hi Taylor: I think it will take more than a blog post to rationalize your actions all season. Many viewers are not happy with the things that you said and did. You are not upfront and honest. You tend to stir the pot and then spin stories saying you thought this and you thought that. Looking back, Kim and Lisa had nothing to prove. Neither was trying to be your friend. Out of all the housewives, you seemed to want the BH lifestyle the most and sought to fit in. I wish you well and hope you can dig deeper into yourself to come out a good and kind person. Stand up for your words and actions. When Camille did that even after all the vile things she said, viewers turned around and started seeing her as a person and even being sympathetic to her. You can learn something from that. Right now no one is buying your story. Best of luck to you.
I'm sorry Taylor,
But you need to take responsibility for your role in instigating all the major drama this season. You specifically targeted Kim time and time again and inserted yourself between Kim and Kyle (you are trying to do the same between Kyle and Lisa). However, the jury is no longer out on you - the verdict is in. And the verdict is that you are fake, two faced instigator who likes to pick on people you perceive to be "uncool" or weaker than you. Seek some therapy, be authentic, and try being compassionate. You had no intention of a heart to heart with Kim...if you did your tone would have been different. You were there to attack and it showed in the confrontational words you used against her. She had no choice but to defend herself because you had started an attack. and, if you felt you needed a "sit down talk" why did you not pull kim to somewhere where you both could have sat down? Stop blaiming Kim and others because we can all see right through you and we see how the night played out. I truly hope you can change.
Taylor, I think you are an amazing woman with so much to offer the world. You have opened up your home, heart and relationships with all of us and the comments about your "part" in the whole fiasco are trivial in comparison. I assume you were not all great friends or friends at all at the onset of this series, however, you have all ended up having great relationships with each other.
I would not pretend to know about your relationship with your husband, so I will not comment other than to say I'm happy that you have decided to see it through. I also don't know what kind of relationship you have with your friends but I do see how you are on the show and have read several things about you. I think that you are definitely a supporter of women, a very savvy business woman and a friend to the abused. You are a lovely woman, inside and out Taylor, what happened this season looks different than what it was I'm sure, but it was a lovely season and I thank you all for inviting us into your lives.
Your self-reflection is commendable. But I think we all know that when Lisa asked you to straighten the whole thing out with Kim, it was to make it better. I can't see how attacking her just one more time would have made it better. You were wrong, you thought it would be cool to tell Camille what Kim said, because you didn't like Kim and you didn't mind throwing her under the bus. Really, all Kim wanted to do was to help her sister, but what you wanted to do was come between the sisters. Ina psychoanalytical word, one may think that Kim was the only one in the group that you felt better than, and she was an easy target. In common terms you were a bully. I hope you can accept your husband for what he is and not be angry for what is not. He is not a very social person, but he seems to love you and seems to be a very good father. Is he Mauricio? No, but my bet is that he hasn't changed since you fell for him, you are just learning that bucks are not enough.
Dear Shana Hughes, Shana Taylor, Taylor Ford, Taylor Ford Armstrong, Taylor Armstrong, or whatever your name is today:
God, you're tedious. That is all.
Taylor I adore you. I have this whole season. You are kind and i sincerly admire your skills as a mother. Thank for you being on RHWOBH. Hope you hear great things about you!! xoxoxo for now Rachel From OHIO
Good luck with Russell, the absolutely adorable Little Miss Kennedy, and Jax.
Love you Oklahoma!
AMAZING! Taylor you bring us to our knees in delight! You are so open, so honest, you tell it how it is! You are a shining light from a land of drama! You wear your heart on your sleeve and let us feel like we are right there with you! You are our favorite housewife because you are well.. HUMAN! You show us all sides of you and it is relatable. If you make a mistake you admit it! Cheers of Rose Bubbly to you!
Can't wait to next season!!!! More More More Bravo! Love it!
If you are truly sincere, please apologize to Kim without faulting her because she stood up to speak to you.
ENOUGH, ENOUGH, ENOUGH !!
PLEASE ACT LIKE A LADY. YOU NEED TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR ACTIONS AND WHAT YOU REALLY SAID.
DID YOU FOR ONCE BELIEVE THAT YOU WERE MORE IMPORTANT TO KYLE THAN KIM?
Taylor, can we be hopeful that there will come a time when you will fully take responsibility for your actions without trying to blame it on ANYONE else? Or is that just wishful thinking on our part? Currently it appears you are still trying to pin the blame on Lisa and Kim.
Hi Taylor, I'm glad your trip to Mexico turned out to be a happy family time for you and that you were able to work on repairing your marriage. I wish you the best.
The tone of your blog, really speaks to who you are...and I hope Kyle see's through your BS! Certainly, Lisa and Kim had your number day one, and Adrienne had the common sense to involve herself in such high school DRAMA! You mentioned, you learned somethings about yourself...well we all would respect you more, if you could further elucidate...just on what? Long/short, you owe Kim & Kyle an apology for contributing to the dissolution of their relationship. As to your relationship, you deserve Russell! And in time you'll understand what is meant by that...
Sincerely, Not a Taylor fan
The problem is not that you said that Camillie was feeling "insignificant." It is that when you realized that Camille might be offended by it you blamed Kim for saying it!! You still claim to not remember which term was used and yet it has been replayed several times..........didn't that jog your memory?
It is time to own up! Apologize to Kim! You may be able to regain some respect!
Watching you and your family for me was true reality..not ever marriage is perfect and you really wore your heart on your sleeve which is difficult to do with loved ones never mind the world...I really identified with your marriage as mine is the same at times...other's advise is easily given when they are not in that situation...always follow your heart ....As far as you and Kim one commnet innocently worked on three womens emotions in different ways..you are not at fault...I personally liked all of the women on RHOBH for different reasons...one of my favorite out of the series of them and I am from NJ lol...hope to see a season two unitl then best wishes to all of you
I feel bad for Kyle. You are instigating all of this drama around her just to push other people out of her life. I hope you don't turn your sights on Lisa next, she's smart enough to see past your BS! What kind of person walks up and starts drama with someone at their own party?? If you didn't like her you shouldn't have her there, otherwise keep your mouth shut! Stay out of sisterly relationships! You are a friend of "right now", Kim is her sister FOREVER! You clearly want to be Kyle and that is why you are latching on so tightly. I feel bad for your marriage, but that's the way golddigger's lives turn out. Too bad your daughter has to suffer through the unhealthy relationship, I hope she grows up smart enough to know that $$ doesn't buy happiness.
Taylor, we all mess up and regret things we have said and done. Right now people are tiring of your excuses. If you humble yourself, take responsibility and learn from this people will be more forgiving. Everyone loves a comeback- because we all have been there.
You say you could tell Kim “wasn’t in the mood for a heart to heart”, but its clear the viewers could tell that you had every intention of blaming Kim as evidence by accusations you threw in her face: e.g. she “dragged” you into the Kyle-Camille altercation; your involvement was only due to Kim “trying to wind [you] up”. Why is it you’re so eager to tell us that you regret saying the word “insecure” to Camille, but you couldn’t admit that to Kim? It seemed pretty clear at the airport that Kyle and Lisa were gabbing about Camille, and Kim was merely looking for a topic to connect with you on. And now you claim Lisa was in fact the first one to mention to you that Camille felt "insignificant," but instead you threw Kim under the bus.
I don’t buy that you were simply “sharing [your] feelings with Camille about [your] personal experience with Kim.” Anyone that's been a highschool girl recognized your tactic of leveraging ill-intentioned gossip to get on someone’s good side.
Taylor, Please keep it real. You are the one who instigated all the trouble this season yet you are unable to admit that. Look at all you have done...Camille vs. Kyle, Kyle vs. Kim, and all that insued from there. Is it because you are unhappy with your life therefore wanting others to feel your pain? You are so darling, seeminly bright, good with your daughter...YOU ARE THE MASTER OF YOUR OWN DESITNY. Get your life right, then you will be happy.
To be honest Taylor, you should stop making excuses and making KIM to be the bad guy in all this. Just admit you're wrong... you picked the wrong venue to address or clear the air and your approach was totally off. Just say it! You messed up. it's ok, we all do at times. Gosh. You keep acting like you are the angel here. Pook Kim... she didn't stand a shot. I am sure when Lisa mentioned you should put it to bed, she didn't mean at your party. You were drinking, you had something to get off your just and you picked a fight with Kim cause she's an easy target. LOL. Just admit it.
Whaa??? Didn't you see the film clip of you saying those things about Camille?
BTW....you and Lisa made the same exact grammar error....it's "Kim and me" duh
On occasion, you meet a person with whom you don't seem to "click" and that, in my opinion, is what happened with Kim and I.
It is unfortunate that everything turned out as it did. One observation is that if you wanted to sit and have a 'chat' with Kim you should have done so in private at another time, not your party. As far as snowball goes, glad he/she is happy in another home. I am confused though as far as getting another dog, especially if your daughter had allergies to the first. I was not aware that chihuahua's were dogs that had fur instead of hair, like other dogs. Either way, sorry that this show was so taxing on all. Hope you and your spouse work things out.
you're not very good at copping to your mistakes ... every time you mention where you went wrong you say it's cause it was provoked by someone else. Just own it jeeze. You're clearly not a bad person... and i think you were portrayed as a good person on the show. I think viewers are mad at you because you can't completely cop your part in the drama without saying someone else brought that out in you. No ones perfect.
you got another dog????? huh? just to see if kennedy would have a reaction to it? how odd. but then i have found you to be odd and in denial all season. You should not have approached Kim at ur party. once again you stirred stuff up, and i really hope that Kyle can see through your drama. at least now she can see your lies on TV, and i hope she regrets her treatment of Kim.
i do hope you can resolve the issues in your marriage, and move forward. Happiness is a choice. something money can never buy. Good luck to you.