Cast Blog: #RHOBH

Out with a Bang

Closing the book on this season, Taylor admits her regrets, and lets us know where Snowball is.

Well, our season has come to an end and in true housewives fashion, we went out with a bang, followed by a few shouts, and no shortage of tears. I felt sad watching the episode and realizing our journey was coming to a close with so many unresolved feelings and so much hurt.

I have had the best of times with the ladies, and also more sleepless nights than I care to recall. We have supported one another and hurt one another, and for my part in the latter, I have regrets. I regret that Kim and I got off to a bad start and that it has continued to loom over our relationship throughout the season.

I often wonder if we would have had a nice first meeting in Sacramento, if things would have been different for us. At my birthday party, my intention was to sit down next to her (when I asked her friend for a moment with her) and have a talk about how I felt and what went wrong. When Kim stood up as opposed to my sitting down, I knew things were going to go badly. I could tell Kim wasn't in the "mood" for a heart to heart. Lisa felt it was important for me to sort it out with Kim, but in retrospect, I should have said no and left it alone. Sometimes Kim says things she doesn't mean (as do I) and with her, I really don't understand where some of the content comes from. She is unpredictable but, that's as much as I care to say about that. On occasion, you meet a person with whom you don't seem to "click" and that, in my opinion, is what happened with Kim and I. We both had our guard up from the beginning and the results weren't favorable. I wish Kim all the best and hope we can put our pointless bickering behind us.

I regret telling Camille in New York how I found it odd that Kim was talking to me in the airport (after previously avoiding me in Sacramento). I regret it not because there was something wrong with me sharing my feelings with Camille about my personal experience with Kim, but because the mention of the word "insecure" (for a second time, after she heard it in Kyle’s apology just prior) led Camille to feel there was a consensus forming amongst the group that she was "insecure." Lisa had told me that Camille said she felt "invisible" or "insignificant" (I still can't get that straight!) being married to a celebrity. I had never seen Camille with Kelsey at that point nor had we ever discussed her "invisibility", "insignificance," or "insecurity" so, I was only answering Kim's questions based on what I was told. In any event, my comments were about my experience with Kim and were certainly never meant to stir any pot or cause any additional arguing between Kyle and Camille. That was a nightmare for us all and for whatever part my comment played in it, I regret it and apologize.

As Russell and I celebrated my birthday, we were also preparing to leave for Mexico. We had a tough year and we really needed some place quiet to talk about our relationship, and how to overcome the challenges we were facing. We were married in Mexico, and we spent wonderful times there when we were first dating and later as a family. We decided that was the place to return to in order to give our marriage the attention it deserved. The trip wasn't like the others we had taken. It was sad at times and the discussions weren't easy, but, in the end, we decided to do the necessary work to keep our marriage and family together and to make each other happy. For that, I am so incredibly grateful.

As for little Snowball and my precious daughter, Kennedy, they are both healthy and happy. Snowball is living with a friend who has a female Maltese as well (Snowball's girlfriend). We have a new Chihuahua in our home named Jax. Kennedy doesn't show any signs of allergies to Jax and she holds her constantly. My little girl is growing so fast and watching the footage of her makes me realize how much she has changed since you last saw her. She is amazing and I feel incredibly blessed to be her mommy.

I hope you have enjoyed our journey. Although you are no longer watching, our lives and relationships continue to evolve. I will continue to share pieces of my life through Twitter, Facebook, and my website.

I care for each of the ladies and am thankful to have them as a part of my life. I have learned a great deal about myself this year and have grown tremendously from this experience. Thank you for sharing you time with us and for watching The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills.

All my best to you, x

x Taylor

Lisa V.: Lisa R. Took the Bait

Lisa V. talks about the explosive dinner in Amsterdam and why she understands where Brandi is coming from with the hypocrisy comment.

Hello again. How crazy was this one?
So as we join the ladies in Amsterdam, I meet Lisa and Eileen for some tea in the lounge. I was reticent to be involved in this potential confrontation. I had voiced my concerns gently to Lisa, expressing my thoughts on discussing sobriety with Kim--it was a land mine that I wanted to avoid. Anyway, we go to dinner...I actually cringed as I objected to Yolanda's stance on prostitution, my caustic remark in interview, but that, in the grand scale of things, flew under the radar. However, I am sure in situations where there is no choice, maybe prostitution is understandable, but in a cosmopolitan city like Amsterdam where there are a plethora of choices--maybe even menial--but choices nonetheless, whilst preserving our dignity, they would be mine.
So the dinner progresses. I once again don't agree that we have superficial conversations in Beverly Hills as Yolanda said. Maybe some do, but I am sure my character is the same as when I was in the heart of the English countryside, or wherever I lived.

Lisa took the bait, and therefore became somewhat culpable in this whole scenario.

Lisa Vanderpump

So things start to heat up...Lisa categorically says, "I apologize for getting in your business." That should have been the end of it, but no, Kim was gunning for her and was not going to back down. She was on a mission. I adore Lisa, and I don't stand in front of her and condone her actions (any physicality does not sit well with me), however, there comes a time when one might just snap, especially when you are defending the good name of your family, their integrity in a public arena against the aggressor, being Kim, who is hinting at insidious rumors. I urge Lisa to challenge her later over the spiteful intimation regarding Harry. I was absolutely of the mind that it was empty rhetoric, designed to incite Lisa. But Lisa reacted to it. Lisa took the bait, and therefore became somewhat culpable in this whole scenario.

Once again Kim lambasts Kyle for not defending her. How could Kyle defend her mean-spirited remarks? Calling Eileen a beast? I mean, have you all met Eileen? Really?
Lisa absolutely apologized to Kim in her attempt to intervene in regard to her sobriety. As she emotionally conveyed that her sister had died from some sort of abuse, either alcohol or drugs--I am not sure, it didn't even resonate with Kim. Lisa also stated she had witnessed alcoholism in Harry's family where loved ones were lost. Kim ignored Lisa's point that there was no mal intent, that it was coming from a place of concern. Yes, a place that was public, but we all understand that if we sign up to do a reality show, then our reality is displayed. If we have something to hide (skeletons in a closet), be sure they will come jumping out like a frigging jack in the box.
The enormity of the situation was pretty emotional. Each and every one of us astounded as to what we had witnessed. The most fascinating part when watching this is the fact that in the aftermath of the emotional explosion, one conversation between Lisa and Kim, which we obviously did not witness, all feelings were buried. A band-aid was put on the wound, and we were supposed to pretend as if it never ever existed. I think It was a double-edged sword: One side wonderful that everything was buried under a little Dutch rug, and we could enjoy the sights of Amsterdam; the other side being there was obvious feelings that were festering. My attitude was that I would've rather enjoyed the trip and dealt with whatever residual feelings upon our return.
I have to say it was pretty hilarious that out of all the men and all the windmills, we found one of Yolanda's ex-boyfriends. What a gift that we giggled over, enjoying the playful banter as we teased her.

All was sailing along pretty smoothly until the pot shop. I make no pretenses of anything whatsoever. We are in a public forum, we are all aware of that. My children are grown, and I understand the reticence to partake in whatever was on offer, but then let's not go there in the first place. Let us not sit in the middle of this bar and start hurling accusations designed to embarrass.
I do understand to some extent what Brandi is saying regarding hypocrisy. If you do it, own it, but in all the years I have known Kyle, I don't ever recall seeing her smoking. Brandi persisted, but the caveat here is we are all too often the victims of her behavior. When she drinks, things often become you will see next week.
I know this is only a blog, and in my attempt to further explain the complicated dynamics, it could well turn into a book, so I will leave you here and hope you all have a fruitful week.

I am leaving NY after speaking at the United Nations--an overwhelming experience. It was snowing, so East Coast, stay warm! As always...Love, Lisa.


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