Cast Blog: #RHOBH

So Confused

Kim: Don't Mistake My Sadness for Weakness

Kyle: I Have Never Had Anyone Put a Hand on Me

Lisa V.: I Tried to Warn Kyle

Eileen: Brandi Attacks, Then Deflects

Lisa R.: Kyle Didn't Create This Drama

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: More Fighting and a Peeping Tom

Kim: Kyle Should Be Worried, Not Embarrassed

Brandi: Kyle Wants to Help When There's an Audience

Kyle: This Was Brandi's Master Plan

Lisa R.: It Felt Just As Awkward As It Looked

Lisa V.: Kim's Demeanor Was Questionable

Eileen: Brandi Loves to Stir the Pot

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Disgust and a Push

Yolanda: I Would Like to Apologize

Brandi: I Won't Make Excuses

Kim: I Wanted to Hold Kyle

Lisa V.: I Want Max to Be Ambitious

Eileen: Being a Stepmom Is Challenging

Lisa R.: Lots of Transition Happening

Kyle: We Are an Emotional Bunch

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Surprise and an F-Bomb

Lisa V.: A Naughty Child Shouldn't Be Rewarded

Kyle: Brandi Was Rude and Offensive

Eileen: It Felt Like an Attack

Lisa R.: It Was Shocking and Unprovoked

Kim: Brandi Is Brandi

7 Faces We All Made During This Week's #RHOBH

Brandi: Lisa V. Was Making Me Uncomfortable

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Shock and Tears

4 Questions We All Asked During #RHOBH

Lisa R.: Portia Is My Spirit Animal

Eileen: Brandi Showed Us How Not to Make Amends

Yolanda: I Took One for the Team

Lisa V.: Yes, Love Is a Big Word

Kyle: Moments Like These Are Frustrating

Lisa V.: I Won't Erase the Past

Brandi: I Don't Enjoy Anger or Grudges

Eileen: I Could Feel the Tension at Kyle's

Lisa R Reflects on That Bittersweet Episode

Yolanda: These Are Teaching Moments

So Confused

Camille explains her precarious situation at the White Party, and how difficult it was watching the evening unfold now.

This was the second White Party I attended at Kyle's house and I was excited to go and see everybody. This time last year there was friction between Kyle and I, which was by now long gone. So I looked forward to spending quality time with the girls, enjoying the party and celebrating together. I really didn't have any concerns about seeing everyone, even though obviously things were going on.

Russell had emailed me about 2:30 am the night of Pandora's bachelorette party. I first showed Adrienne the email. She immediately came to my defense and questioned Russell's right to send me an email of that nature.

At the party I was in the backyard with Brandi and my girlfriend Dedra talking to the guests. I wasn't aware that inside the house Kyle, Lisa, and Adrienne were talking about Russell and Taylor. Until I saw this episode, I didn't know exactly what the conversation was. It was difficult to watch it go down.

After Kyle had asked Russell and Taylor to leave, Kyle came back into the house obviously very upset. She came to me crying and told me what had happened. I really felt bad for Kyle and that she had been put in that position.

Watching the episode and what the girls were saying, it was apparent at that point all of us were so confused. I was upset because friends don't sue friends. Taylor had told all of us her story, so some of the other Housewives were concerned that they would also receive emails like I did. I didn't want to alienate Taylor and her husband -- but at that time, it wasn't in my control. I had called Taylor several times before the email to apologize. However, after I received the email, my only course of action was just to get in touch with my lawyers and follow their advice, which was essentially to stay clear of Taylor and Russell.

This is an especially difficult episode to watch, it was such an unfortunate situation all around. You can tell it was a confusing time for all of us. We're a group of friends that all want to support each other. Then, all of a sudden, you see divisions in the group, which are disappointing. Even though we are there for each other, we all have our own opinions. Like any close knit group, we all want to help each other in the most difficult of real life situations, yet we might not all agree how.

I don't think anybody felt good afterwards. For me, I was still as confused and disappointed as when I had gotten that email. I still wasn't sure about Taylor's true situation with all that was happening.

Camille