Well, the season is almost over. It has been a very difficult and emotional one. We have also laughed and had good times, but a lot of that has been over-shadowed.
In Season 1, most of you didn't know about my sister's issues. There were many times I was angry with Kim but didn't want to say why. I didn't want to expose my sister and never intended to that night in the limo in the finale. There were a lot of things that were said and done that the cameras didn't catch, not to mention years of built up frustration and anger. I wanted to explain but it wasn't just MY story to tell, and Kim wasn't ready to address it with herself, let alone with millions of viewers. Anyone, who has a family member with an addiction knows how painful it can be for the family. Often, that pain turns to anger. I was angry. I didn't get that Kim has a disease. People would tell me that and it didn't make sense to me. I felt she had a choice. Now, I feel much different.
In watching this week’s episode, I am overwhelmed with sadness. To be honest, my relationship with Kim has been strained for so long because of all of this and I wasn't always privy to what was going on in her life, which is why I always wanted her to move closer to my sister Kathy and me. Not to "babysit" Kim, but so she wouldn't remove herself from society, as she tends to do, and fall into a deeper tunnel. Many of you have tweeted me or commented on my blogs that I should just walk away and leave her be and live my own life. I know that sounds easy, but I love my sister and her children and was scared what would happen if I did that. I couldn't give up on her.
I am coming from a very different place now because my sister Kim is now sober. I am proud, happy, and relieved that she took the initiative to go get the help she needed. I know there are many moments she regrets, but I don't want her to beat herself up over them. What matters now is that she is healthy and strong and she needs to stay that way.
The Kim I grew up with is a down-to-earth, funny, loving, and kind human being. She’s an incredible mom and great sister. I am happy to have that Kim back in my life.
Now, let's move onto Sur. No surprise that Lisa did an incredible job. It is absolutely gorgeous, and she worked very hard in a very short amount of time to get it done. It is now an official "hot spot" in L.A.
When Cedric walked in, I thought, “Oh no. . .here comes trouble.” While Cedric was always nice to me, he was also very transparent. He clearly had an agenda to which Lisa was blind. Other than maybe the times at Villa Blanca, the only interaction I had with Cedric was shown on Season 1. However, it didn't take a rocket scientist to figure him out.
When Taylor and Dr. Sophy sat down with all of us, it was like a group therapy session. It was obvious everyone had some things to get off their minds, but when I see all of us together, holding hands, I'm reminded how much we all care about each other. Taylor has been through such a difficult time. I understand she wanted to apologize for "dragging" us into her relationship, but that's what friends are for -- to be there and support one another. We have all had our ups and downs this year, even with each other at some point. However, we all care about each other. It's during these difficult times in life when you all must come together and put any differences aside.
I'm looking forward to happier times in this week's episode and know you will all love seeing Pandora's wedding. . .
Thank you all for tuning in each week and for all the love and support.