Cast Blog: #RHOBH

Enlightened

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Lisa V.: Yes, Love Is a Big Word

Kyle: Moments Like These Are Frustrating

Lisa V.: I Won't Erase the Past

Brandi: I Don't Enjoy Anger or Grudges

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Enlightened

Lisa shares her thoughts on the Russell email and why she felt the right decision was made.

Hello to you all, welcome once more.

Now where were we? Ah yes, my daughter choosing the band! I know from years of owning clubs just how important music is and this band, Rouge is fantastic! Once again Kevin Lee delivers, woo hoo! Her wedding was almost set at this point and we nervously anticipated that this would be the wedding of her dreams!

Now enough of this positivity let's take ourselves back to the reality of this week's episode. . .

My relationship with Taylor had been difficult. I doubted certain things she had said, however, we had moved on largely because I had seen her struggling. I was fed up with being at odds with Kyle over her, and I truly believed she needed my support and friendship to navigate the rocky terrain that lay ahead. But not one of us ever envisaged the devastation that would ensue.

When I arrived at the white party, I was shocked when Kyle asked me to back her up, especially as I had felt no support from anybody when I was immersed in difficult situations previously. Confronting Russell and Taylor and asking them to leave -- how could I possibly do that? My first reaction was to save her the embarrassment of being rejected. I had to text her, forewarn her, let her know what she was walking into, spare her the drama that was about to transpire.

I have been criticized for supporting Taylor. If you remember Kyle telling her that I don't take criticism well, I disagree -- I think I actually gobble it up. If it is not mean spirited but constructive, criticism is how we learn. Because I knew as I looked at their faces, Taylor's concerned look when she asked Kyle what was wrong, when they sat in the car and Russell said "just let us go," that I made the right choice.

It was an unfortunate situation. You see my naïveté as I question the lawsuit issue, still not being enlightened about what had played out at the dinner with Mauricio, Kyle, Taylor, and Russell. I had no clue that Russell had said he would sue me for something I had no part in. I was thrown under the bus many times without my knowledge, therefore I could not defend myself. Maybe, if somebody, anybody, had disclosed the fact that all these conversations had played out behind my back, I might have had a better handle on the state of play. I had received random emails from Russell myself, and questioned Kyle and Taylor at Paul's night of beauty as to their meaning, and everybody stayed quiet.

I had spent two days with Taylor, and apparently, whilst we were away Russell had sent an email in the early morning to Camille threatening a lawsuit.

My position was, I couldn't, unlike most of the others, be sure that Taylor was privy to the email he had sent. Of course I assumed she was the one that had repeated to him the confrontation by Camille at the tea party, but was she compliant in threatening a law suit? I don't know, and I never will, but I wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt. When we parted ways at 1:30 in Vegas, there had been no discussion of the other women. We were exhausted from chipmunks and trying to party with a group of 20 year olds! I certainly didn't believe she was on the phone to Russell constructing a litigious email.

I found this week's episode difficult to watch. . .

So there you have it. . . I thank you for watching and following our journey.

On a different note, I truly want to express my gratitude for your thousands of messages on Twitter, gifts, and letters to Villa Blanca after the death of our beloved spaniel, Buki. It truly makes this all worthwhile when you feel the love and support from all that know us. I wish you all happy holidays. Let us remember how short life is and embrace it as best we can. . .failing that, let's go shag a chipmunk in Vegas!

Love always Lisa.